call out my name | drabble
- pairing : kim taehyung | female reader
- genre : angst, lil fluff (if you squint near the end)
- word count : 900
- rating : none
notes ~ hi, um this is my very first post and it's probably very bad but I was listening to Call out my name by The Weekend on repeat and this is what I created from it. sorry if I've made errors but I'm still unsure of my writing style but I was wondering if I should create a au based of this... pls let me know if you'd like one.
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They say if you put ur heart to it and wish with all your might your dreams will come true.
And I had all I ever wanted right in front of me but so far away, out of reach. It was always just taehyung and y/n to infinity and beyond. However, now it was as if the higher beings were looking down upon me and laughing at my misery, ironically it was pouring heavily in the midst of this beautiful autumn breeze, which my jacket couldn't even conceal, that was once my favorite. It was my favorite because it was with her and now, she stares back at me bewildered and hesitant. Those pools of hazel which once held the galaxies and sparkled for me were now replaced with confusion swimming around. She wasn't hapilly dancing around or goofing around in the rain with me and talking those cringe worthy couple pics we used to make fun of before lo and behold we became that couple. Instead she was stood in front of me shivering and it was the Sound of her sniffling that awakened me from my daze.
Now that I had her alone from all her friends who despised me and wanted nothing more from me but to stop trying because 'it's over taehyung', or 'forget it, she's moved on' and 'do you not understand... it's your fault'. I wasn't going to back away because this was my only chance and I couldn't cower away because everyone said so. She needs me, she needs to know what happened and I desperately need her back too. I needed her to tell me it was all going to be okay, that it was all going to pass and that's she remembered me. That she would remember me even if it was only just for a moment.... I would take it, if it meant she looked at me, talked to me. Even just for a moment.
11:55pm
'so...why don't you call out my name? call out my name again when I'd kiss you so gently, caress your cheeks so delicately, take your hand in mine ever so slowly. why can't you remeber when I'd hold you so tightly and wipe away your tears? y-y/n? I always put you on top and claimed you so openly and when times were rough, I'd console you, till you forgot and called out my name, till only you and I mattered. just call out my name, like when you'd be so overjoyed you'd smile till it hurt and laugh till you dropped, grabbing me and taking me down with you until we would both laugh till we could take it no more. b-baby p-please, just stop for a moment and let me embrace you once more because I can't take it no more having you so far away from my reach that I can't touch you... so call out my name just once and I'll be on my way, okay? b-but baby just wait till I fall out of l-love with you, wait till your just a passing thought in my head, wait until I can't remeber your touch or your body against mine. Just wait until our memories are just mere memories. But call out my name like you once did when you cried, smiled, danced, screamed and shouted at the top of your lungs. I'm going crazy not hearing your voice blanket around me. I want you to stay, eventhough, you don't want me, why can't you wait until I fall out of l-love. It's hard I know but when times were rough I was your anchor your home, I gave up a piece of myself for you, to protect you. girl why can't you wait before you grasp someone else's hand and hug so tightly like I once did, dance with them till you can't nomore, hold them against you and scream out their name instead of mine... I still want you so badly, so call out my name just one more time and I'll go, so I know falling in love with you wasn't my mistake. I said I could be strong and move on without you but I lied, so prove me wrong and call out my n-name. Do it one last time and tell me you remeber us... remember m-me'.
Voice cracking and taking a deep breathe, i finally peered over my bangs to look upon her who was just stunned, frozen in place. Everything I vomited out was hard to digest even for me. Did I make sense? Is she even more confused because of you taehyung? Multiple irrational and heart-breaking thoughts rushed in immediately, she can't remeber, can she... It's not like it's her fault but I desperately hung onto that small piece of light shining through which would prove me wrong and say she does.
He hoped their memories were strong enough to prevent his heart shattering even further into a million broken pieces, that he knew he couldn't heal.
I don't know what I actually expected but the mere thought of her finding someone new who smiles at her and treats her just like I did makes me bitter, eventhough, I should wish for her betterment and wish her luck, I physically and mentally cannot take it no more. This emptiness within me is becoming harder to handle and I guess I have to let go... Admitting defeat and looking at her doe eyes one final time breaks me down just a little more, before I turn around for her sake and mine, more like the latter, to move on. Move on from my first love... My first everything.
Fists unwantingly clenching onto the material of her shirt and wanting nothing more to than run home rather than stand in this gloomy rain any further and forget what occurred, she stays rooted in her spot her clothes now drenched thoroughly. She couldn't help but want to understand what he was saying. The words faintly familiar and his voice a soothing honey but husky... Everything seems rather familiar to her but why? Why can't she remeber? The weather was remotely mirroring his melancholic words but up until this point she believed him to merely be a passing figure she brushed passed a few times in the hallways, scrambling to make it to her lecture on time. So why did his words hold more depth and meaning to her as if she was the reason behind his pain. Looking up at his tear-stricken face made her eyes widen because she was the reason due to his tears and her heart clenched and unclenched wanting nothing more to than wipe away his tears and assure him that everything was okay. However, before she could clarify these thoughts and actions, her lips parted and words were coming out to desperately stop him.
00:00
... 'Tae!'
