ah, okay, hello! it’s alli here, aka. jeaki’s terrible mother, with another muse that i will probably hurt WAY too often ( but you have to love me anyway, it’s a rule ). i’d really love it if i could get some plots going for this child ! he’s quite different from ki, so, i’m quite excited to explore him as a muse and see where he ends up ! if you want to know more about him, just carrying on reading ! and i’ll probably try and get a message sent to you at some point ( feel free to try and beat me to it, okay ).
tw: drug mention, illness, violence.
Taewon is known for being the recondite, which, basically means that he is my little enigmatic prince — the type of boy that doesn’t tend to share all that much when it comes to personal affairs. He’s a person who is a little more on the reserved side, when it comes to talking, sometimes in fear of saying a little too much about himself ( talking about himself is something that he despises ), opting to take the listening side when it comes to conversations. However, this being said, he’s in no way shy — he’s very much comfortable with social interaction and can happily participate for long periods of time, it’s just that words come in few. His distaste for sharing personal information is the biggest factor for this, it’s at an extent that he doesn’t like to tell others if he prefers television over films or what colour he considers his favourite — he sees it as exposing small weaknesses and he doesn’t like feeling weak. He’s very much shut off from himself and exploring the aspects of himself, so, that’s also the same approach he takes when it comes to others.
He’s not really a golden child, though, he can’t be considered a bad guy either — he just hovers on the in between line, sometimes slipping into the other sides for periods of time. He’s a person who does care for others, but, his priorities lie for caring for himself and his baby sister ( who is only two years of age and he is pretty much the sole carer for ) and if that means disregarding anothers feeling, he will. Taewon has learnt mistakes from letting others influence his decisions and he is really wary of allowing that happen again. It’s never something he actively pursues, though, it shouldn’t be seen as that way — it’s more something he does if it dwindles down to it and he sees no other choice. He can be manipulative and he can be cruel and ruthless and getting on the wrong side of him is a place that most would not want to be in. But, he can also be genuine and caring and protective, especially over those he sees to be weaker characters ( you can’t have your own back? Don’t worry, I’ve got it for you ), and if you win his trust you will have it until he sees a fit reason to take it away.
He’s trapped in his own head, sometimes, which can only add to his more subdued exterior — he has a lot of thoughts that tend to bug at him and they are usually just little, insignificant, aspects of his ( or others ) life. He doesn’t really make it a noticeable factor of his personality, though. Taewon has just endured a lot in his time and to drown out the big things, he overthinks the little — if you were to take a slight tone with him, he’s the person that would analyse it ten times over and come to the conclusion that was so far from the real reason behind it ( typically, blame being pinned on himself, is the end result ). It’s these little paranoia’s that can drive him a little bit insane — he convinces himself that the use of drugs eases them, when really it makes them so much worse? Try and tell him that though and he’ll probably laugh in your face or punch you ( dependant on who was telling him ). He sees the world as being a big, scary place and if you don’t have your wits about you, that’s when you get hurt, so that kind of explains why he overthinks so much? He’s just always trying to look after himself, because he doesn’t really think that anyone else can or will.
He can have a little bit of a short temper, which is worsened when he has had a drink or has been taking drugs, so he can be quick to get into arguments with others and he has no fear in getting into scraps? But, he won’t really ever start anything serious, unless he sees a fit reason — he might be furious and ready to attack, but logic will always overpower it. If he thinks you’re an idiot and deserve it, however, he won’t hesitate. The only time his temper won’t really sway is when he is with someone he sees as being weak? He will never talk to someone who he knows could get upset or scared by his words in such a way — and the only time he would do it in front of them would be if it was to protect them. It’s his biggest soft spot and his biggest weakness, really ( and, as much as he kind of wishes he could combat it, he can’t ).
One of the things he participates in most is underground fighting, because it’s a good way to unleash all his pent up energy and to release the little annoyances that have been on his mind all day. He’s been doing it since he was eleven and has gained quite a reputation since — he might not have the biggest arms, but he’s definitely extremely tough. He has genuine skills, so, whenever fighting, he’s not just throwing careless punches, he knows how to control his strength and how to use others strengths against them — he’s extremely smart and can think about things in such a logical sense, that it really works in his favour. Don’t be surprised when you see him with a beat up face, though? He’s always testing himself in those leagues above. It’s this sport that really helps keep his drug habit in control — because, for the most part, he’s over it ( it’s just the occasional relapse, when things go too wrong for him to effectively deal with ).
Taewon has a lot to deal with in his life, as his mother is critically ill and father has been ‘missing’ not long after the birth of his, now two year old, sister. So, he’s basically a full time carer of his sister and might as well be classed as her father at this point, because his mother can’t really do anything ( he doesn’t blame her in the slightest, of course ). He’s so protective over his family and doesn’t openly talk about the fact that they exist, so there’s a high chance you won’t know he is raising his sister or that his mother lives in the hospital ( unless we have plotted otherwise ). He’s battling with his own fights all at the same time as trying to support everything — trying to keep his job going and burying the secrets of his father ( that only he is aware of ), whilst dealing with ongoing addictions and such. SO, yeah.
backstory tw: illness, death, violence, drug abuse, alcohol abuse, abuse.
Okay, so, I’m going to summarise this as much as I can, because I rambled so much about Taewon’s personality and I don’t want to bore you all too much!
Taewon was born into quite a wealthy household and it was this really idyllic type of home situation to be in, with his parents being more than happy together and even happier to have a child in their lives. Taewon was what they called a miracle child, after they had been trying for years for his mother to become pregnant.
For the first few years of his life, things were rather average — or at least that’s how they seemed. Taewon never really picked up on the little signs, not for a long time.
He was always a really intellectual child ( achieving the highest grades in all the subjects he took and he was constantly praised from the computing department as his school — known for being a tech whiz ), but he sometimes lacked in identifying social behaviour. ??
He didn’t pick up on how it was suspicious that his mother spent more time away from home than she did in it and that he’s always smell of aftershave that wasn’t what his father would wear. He always would dismiss it and happily allow his mother to cradle him in her arms.
He was blind to the fact that his mother wasn’t happy with his father. And that his father, might not even be his father.
When the truth unravelled, life crumbled for Taewon — he felt betrayed by his mother, questions of how she could have lied to him ate him up inside, because, above everyone, didn’t he deserve to know the truth? And it all turned out that his father was a man that he could only recognize as a stranger.
It was planned for a while that Taewon was to leave with who he had believed to be his real father, but it didn’t work out that way, Taewon’s mother ( though she was initially willing ) put an end to it. And there was nothing they could do.
Taewon was forced to move in with his biological father, their new home nowhere near the state of luxury he’d once occupied and he’d never felt as much of a stranger in his own home before. All he wanted was the man he could actually trust, but, now, he was nowhere to be seen.
Life went on for Taewon, he became rather rebellious against his mother and biological ‘father’ ( though, he would never call him father ) and his life spiralled at quite a rapid pace. He got involved with drugs and the crimes soon followed after, all making his ‘family’ become more and more fed up with him. They didn’t mean for this to happen, is what was said on more than one occasion, and neither did Taewon.
Taewon’s biological father took Tae’s actions seriously, perhaps more so than required, as whenever the smell of weed lingered on clothing or pupils were dilated, Taewon could expect for his neck to be gripped at and pinned against the wall. The bruises would develop over time, becoming more serious as time progressed and the abuse only made Taewon worse. The drugs were his escape.
News of his mothers pregnancy is what changed Taewon, as he began to think about all of the things that this new child could be forced to deal with, considering the nature of his biological father. And he had never found a better reason to try and clear himself up.
Skip ahead and Taewon was blessed with a little sister and the instant he saw the small body, he was in love and he was protective.
Several days later, Taewon’s biological father ‘disappeared’ and left their family abandoned, without so much as an explanation. It was Taewon’s doing — he’d sorted it.
It was at this stage, the male had half expected life to improve — sure, he held a grudge against his mother for tearing their home apart, but he still couldn’t fade the love he had for the woman and now, now they were back to being their own little family ( albeit the man Tae still calls his father, perhaps, but this wasn’t to be helped ).
But the sun never shines in Taewon’s days, as the news that his mother had cancer was dropped on his being like a ton of bricks. The pessimism of life was now at its peak, to say the least.
Her condition is now critical and days are numbered, so she is spending her last weeks comfortable in the hospital ( she, surprisingly, likes it there ) and Taewon is a regular around the parts. He moved into his own apartment, with his baby sister in tow ( who is now two ), and is just kind of living.
He’s using his tech skills to his advantage, working as a programmer ( which has flexible hours ) and providing for his family the best he can.
I know his biography is hella dramatic, but, you know what? I’m dramatic and this is how it is going to be. xoxo. Please love me.
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