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[sgt-paul]

so anyway, i want bogey music to be injected into my veins. thx

[thisbrilliantsky]

at the risk of sounding bitter, i still cannot Believe that wh**ton got rid of the c-store to Make Way for a ~study area~ w pretty chairs and tables and whatever.......they got rid of a lil convenience store selling things like cough medicine and eggs and hygiene supplies and cereal and airborne and ramen and oatmeal and bandaids etc and a place where work study students could work and that was open from afternoon til midnight........so that there could be a Another pretty~ place to sit...........and ngl I am So Bitter about it

[agaywadarchive]

Title: Fear Who: Claudia Daviau, Rory Daviau, Mentions of Thomas Donovan Rating: PG 13 (I guess) For:  no one. i just was doing one-shots for a site i’m on.  Notes: mental illness, mentions of someone’s murder, angst, violence, stalking. i keep wanting to write angst lmfao. idek if this makes any sense because i didn’t proof read, but whatever bay-bee   

Claudia was scared of very few things. She was fearful of abandonment, the unknown, and failure. But other than that she didn’t think she had a fearful bone in her body. When she was younger, she assumed that made her a freak. That that made her different. But as an adult, she knew that that just made her brave. Being fearless meant that she could take chances without hesitation. It meant that she could make choices without having a nagging voice in her head telling her that to choose different ideas instead of the one that would make the most difference. It also meant that she was capable of sacrificing herself for others when she needed. Something she had usually done in the past, but was now something her ex husband had done for her and her child.

Tommy had saved their son from an attack and had lost his life protecting him. Claudia had been at work when it happened, and for that she would never forgive herself. If she had been home, she would’ve been the one to die and Rory AND Tommy would go on to live their lives happily, without her in it. That was the future she wanted. A future where she had died and Tommy had lived, but that wasn’t the future she got. The future she got was one without a husband, and one with several what-ifs. It sucked. She couldn’t save him and the reason he had died was because of her. <p>

Guilt was another emotion she didn’t feel often. But today, she felt it, and she felt it heavily, too. The reason Tommy had been killed was because of her. A patient named Tyler had gotten obsessed with her and made up a fictional future where she and him were together. And part of that was her fault. She had been too friendly with him and given him too much information about herself when that went against the ethics of her job. Claudia was curious about him, however. His past was fascinating to her and the case he was in prison for was highly interesting to her. He had killed his entire family with a hammer tried to lie about it, even when the evidence showed that he was the one who murdered them. Claudia wanted to learn more about the case from him. Wanted to see what he would tell her. But in the end, it had ended with her family being harmed. <p>

And as upset as she was about that, she was, however, happy that her son had survived. If she lost him, she wouldn’t have the strength to get up every morning. She would've given up completely. But since he was still alive, and in desperate need of care, she was able to get up every morning and troop through her pain in order to take care of him.

Sitting down with him in the kitchen, Claudia placed a plate of eggs for him and her on the table. Rory looked up at her, gave her a soft smile, but didn’t begin to eat them until a solid five minutes later. After the accident, he found him daydreaming - or probably dissociating - a lot, and she worried for him. She never bothered him about it though. She knew that he had been through a traumatic experience and that was a side effect of his trauma. <p>

“Did you like the book I recommended?” she asked her ten year-old son. <p>

He looked up from his eggs and nodded his head, taking a bite from eggs before he spoke.  “I loved it. I don’t think Harry and Ron would’ve been able to tackle most of their problems without Hermione though. Like she’s the backbone of the group,” he told her, giving her the first smile she saw on him since the accident. <p>

She gave him a smile back and nodded her head.Then took a sip of her coffee. “I agree. I think she does a lot of the hard stuff. Both Harry and Ron have their strengths, I think, but Hermione has knowledge to make sure things work out for them in the end.” She took a bite of her egg, keeping an eye on her son as she did. He was nodding again and had gotten back to poking his eggs. He wasn’t speaking anymore and Claudia began to wonder what was on his mind.<p>

But before she had time to ask, he said, “I wasn’t scared - when I saw dad get hurt, I wasn’t scared.” He paused and appeared to be biting his cheek. “Is that weird?” <p>

Claudia shook her head at him. “It’s not weird. I don’t think I would’ve been scared if I were in your shoes. Is that why you’ve been so quiet - you feel guilty about not being scared?” she asked him casually, watching as he stiffened just a little. <p>

“Yeah. But I am also bothered by the fact that I almost died. And that...it could happen again if you’re not careful.” Rory’s eyes flickered away from her and she looked away from him. <p>

Apparently, she had another fear. The fear of her son being upset with her. “I’ll be more careful from now on, I promise,” she told him, reaching out to touch his arm. “Sometimes I just get so caught up in my work that I forget that it could follow me home. I didn’t expect for things to get this bad.” <p>

There was silence from Rory, but then he said, “But you did,” which made Claudia open her mouth and close it again. She was going to say something but before she could, Rory stood up, “But you did.” And then he walked out of the room.

[sarahviahhday]

whenthedayis-done replied to your post: Trying to listen to Apocalyptica interviews...

Any time my father sees i´m watching Eicca, he says, “oh look there´s Erica”……..no coments.

*Snickers to self* That’s not funny... :| ...............................*Snort*

[vermiculi-a]

*Decides to skip school*

    “…. You have school today, Son. Matou’s girl has already packed you a lunch; you wouldn’t want to leave her gratitude on the countertop.”

[pvtpuns]

"man im so irritated that my rat is sick and possibly dying and the pharmicist is being an absolute bitch about this and really unorganized and making life difficult for me"

"well at least you're not living in a cardboard box I MEAN IM JUST OFFERING SOME PERSPECTIVE"

thanks mom wow ur so good at this no wonder i 

never talk to you about anything ever.

[cold--dayinthesun]

whoa, this afternoon idk how I didn't explode from crying and because all the sad I had in me, now I feel empty/slightly happy

also goodnight C:

[notblackwidow-archived-blog]

[ so i caved and made a christmas icon

i'm not proud of myself ]