Hey AEV, been a hot minute since we messaged and sadly it's cuz we need to vent so, apologies
Tw for abuse, dealing with an abuser, victim blaming
Something we don't see endos (for obvious reasons) or systems talking about is how hard it is to see and be forced to spend time with your abuser. We were beat and cussed at and more by our mother. She eventually went to jail and got out and went back in 3 times and is now out
We left for college and now that we came back due to lack of college money, we have to spend 4+ hours 6 days a week with her and she blows our phone up
Now we deal with her talking about how bad she had it in jail and how it was everyone she abused faults as well instead of just her, despite her being who abused everyone
I wanted to find some extra support in sys tags and no one talks about when you have no choice BUT to be in a situation like this. Instead it's all about how to force them to back off but that's not how it is. I wish we could but we can't
Which has now led to an introject we have of her (she's a sweetheart and very nice to us, the introject we mean) constantly feeling guilty which, it's not her fault. Seraph did nothing wrong but that bitch has hurt all of us like that
Sorry for venting so much. How are you doing AEV? Is it everything going alright?
hey, hey! It's nice to hear from you again 🫂 don't apologize, this blog was made for vents after all
Im sorry you have to go through that though, seriously, it sucks a lot and in a way we can relate to it. Not in the same way, but we understand the pain in the least, we won't go into detail but we are in a similar situation and it is really frustrating that the only things people ever talk about is how to get away or how to force them to back off without acknowledging that sometimes you just can't do that. It's really sucky, especially when you just want to find people who have had similar experiences or if you're just looking for some comfort and advice that can actually be of use to you. I wish I could offer you more, but I really don't know what advice I could give, so instead I'll offer you some digital hugs 🫂🫂 please know you're always welcome here when you need support, even if you just want to talk, feel free to DM us or send us an ask, we'll answer it as soon as we can
And again, don't apologize, this blog was made to be a safe space for people to vent in, so there's no need to feel guilty for using it for it's intended purpose. And to answer your question; we're doing alright, things are rough, but we're working through everything and I think things will be alright
