Tomb by There for Tomorrow (for the song meme)
Send me a song and I’ll write a headcanon, drabble, or my Muse’s opinion on it.
He hadn’t expected to wake up. Everything hurt, his back was on fire; it hurt, and every breath felt like it was ripping him apart. Everything was raw and painful, and all he could think of was the disappointment of it all. He was alive, somehow; what a monster.
He deserved to die after...after...what was it again? His head was pounding, painfully and loudly, and it took all his strength to keep himself from falling asleep. Or would it be death? He didn’t know, didn’t care.
He didn’t deserve to see anymore.
When he woke up again, the pain was weaker. He could breathe without it hurting, he could look around and lift his head without much trouble.
There was someone in the room.
He tried to move, combat drilled into him, only for his weak body to fall to the ground, pain flaring up and leaving him breathless.
Bishop, he learned. The joke about where he came falling from was unneeded, hated really. But he moved on. Because he didn’t care.
He managed to get past some of the fog. Giovanni. Arthur. Lott.
Lily.
He deserved it, deserved to go to death like he had done to her. Instead of being free, she was...
All because he was an idiot.
There was cackling in his ears, in a voice too similar to his. He hated it.
Aboveground, he was introduced to Kiri. Buon Viaggio. It’d been years, but his neck felt heavy, just like back in. Cold. His back was painful, tearing, tearing, tearing.
When he jerked back, breath racing and he was drowning, Badou dragged him away, out of sight. Into a little alcove near the restaurant, where Kiri had vegetables and such growing.
He slouched against the beds, curled in on himself, just breathing, breathing in the smoke Badou was puffing. Finally, he looked up, and he caught his breath again, because hell. There was Lily, dancing and tiptoeing around, admiring the little garden. Little safe haven.
Badou had no complaints about leaving him back there; early on in the partnership, too early for him to care much. Long as there wasn’t trouble he could get slammed for.
He simply contented himself, seeing what he knew was a trick, something he made up, prancing about. Because he could at least pretend, however short, that it was actually true.
Kiri was reasonably curious when he requested to go back into the garden again. But, she let him, seeing his shaking hands, hunched shoulders. He silently entered, and settled down in a corner. It was somewhat silent; the sounds of the kitchen echoed from an open window, the buzz of the city there. The sun burned and uncomfortably prickled his skin, but he just sat, arms hugging his knees to his chest, just watching.
Lily would like this place, he was sure.
He felt sick, he felt disgusted, he loathed. The old hag, using Lily’s face like it was simply a doll she could play with? He was so fucking sick. What was up with that shitty farce? That disgusting display?
How dare she? How dare she not let Lily rest, masquerading with her face like it was some sorta mask!?
He didn’t look back as he solidified his goal of killing the old hag. She deserved it. She deserved it.
Lily deserved it.













