charli: i feel insecure around this successful white woman, who’s likeable, commercially huge and beautiful by all average western standards. this is all a me problem, but it’s impacting my mental health and it’s killing me that if i tried, i could never be like her. this experience is so deeply rooted in misogyny, to the point where my partner (a cis man) doesn’t even get it. i’m trying to separate myself from her and i don’t want to be in close proximity to her daily cause this insecurity makes me feel embarrassed and this back and forth in my head is tearing me apart
taylor, over a year later, for some reason: you’re a chihuahua on coke, you must be in love with me or something, and it makes me wet to know i live in your head, but like, i’m unbothered
