#(i wish)

[theartsybat]

Baby its cold outside

mikey doing some window doodles :)

[puppyb0yal3x]

puppy's gonna be honest, puppy wants to kill himelf.

[thegamingcatmom]

MC gets sick

The Denalis do not know how to deal with a sick hooman

Should they go to a hospital?

But she could try to escape or the hospital asks too many questions

They somehow make MC sicker

They end up calling Carlisle despite not wanting to

...Out of my head. 🫵

Srsly, the way yall think and come up with stuff is scary sometimes. But I also love it cause it means I'm doing SOMETHING right (I think).

Hospital?

Defo at SOME point.

The Batshitnalis fearing MC might escape or expose them (as kidnappers)?

...Maybe.

Hence our feral found family looking for help elsewhere?

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That will be all.

Now shoo!

(💋)

[itzzkaylaaa]

[jamman42]

[thetrialsandtribulationsofeb]

so, buck, ravi and eddie are having a night out. and at one point eddie is looking affectionately at buck, who is across the room flirting with someone he just met. like that person doesn't even exist. or like buck is glowing so everything around him, everything before and after - all disappeared. ravi notices it and he's in a messy mood, so he goes, "you guys know you have such a weird/codependent friendship, right?" eddie looks at ravi kind of confused and asks, "what do you mean?" "i don't know, you spend a lot of time together. you look at each other weirdly. you’re in your 30s and still don’t have a successful relationship with other people. but you basically raise a kid together. and when you fight, everyone can feel it. if i didn't know better, i'd think you're a married couple that's maybe going through divorce :D also, the way buck gets so irrationally jealous whenever you get too friendship-y with someone else is kind of annoying...". eddie, not shifting his gaze from buck, just answers absent-mindedly, "he does, huh? ☺️😍" and ravi looks at him like, "omg, so he’s crazy too", and closes the topic, 'cause he just can't deal with these two idiots. this night buck leaves with that someone, and it evokes some strange feeling in eddie's stomach, but he doesn't pay it much attention

the next day or so, hen and eddie sit at henren's kitchen and have a heart-to-heart. and at some point eddie asks hen about how she let go of eva and forgave herself for letting her go. "i ask that because i remember bobby telling me a few times that if i want to find something real in the present, i should put the past to rest. and shannon... when she was filing for divorce, she told me she wanted to find out who she is without us. *he frowns and corrects himself* without me, actually... her biggest wish was to find herself outside of our marriage and have more time to figure it all out. and... she didn't get that. and i was so angry at her for that. i was angry that we didn't get more time. and i was stuck on all these unresolved feelings between us, so i couldn't really let in someone new. i mean, she's all i've ever known of love. but... my abuela... she told me this thing not long before she... passed away. that maybe i was looking for love in the wrong places. and it's like, they're all asking me to move on. but i feel like it's selfish. like i should be stuck in time with them. because why do i get to live on, when all these people i lost… we lost… deserved more time too, but didn’t get that?" (and then hen gives him a pep talk about how sometimes letting go is the right decision. and shannon, bobby and abuela wanted that for him, so maybe he should respect their wishes)

and then, at the gym, buck tells eddie and ravi about his dating/sleeping around. and for some reason eddie just can't stop looking at buck's lips the entire time he’s listening and talking to him. but, like, he still acts normal. he jokes. he's glad buck is having some fun, he needs it. and at one point eddie sits on the bench or smth to drink water, while buck and ravi continue exercising with a punching bag. and he just. looks at buck with some new feeling. like. was buck always this hot? he can see what women see in him. or what men see... and instead of burying this feeling, eddie just observes it. and observes buck. and then buck looks at him and smiles, and eddie smiles back. (buck didn’t even notice eddie’s staring, btw. but ravi did #freeravi). his usual bro smile. because they're bros. and then he drinks more water, because, yeah, he's just feeling very thirsty and nervous for some reason.

then, later that evening, eddie and buck sit at eddie's couch and play a videogame or watch some dumb movie and drink beers. and at one point buck tells him that though it was nice to let off some steam, he's just not sure if he's ready for a new relationship or if he even wants it. like. it's all kind of too much right now, and dating someone new would make his life more difficult. and eddie just answers, "cheers to that". but after a pause, he makes the tv noise lower and quietly asks buck, "hey. when t*mmy kissed you, and you found out this new thing about yourself. did it ever... have you thought about us in that context? maybe for a second. like a stupid thought or something. NOT saying that you should have. i mean, we ARE friends. but, like, did it ever cross your mind?" with this curious and kind of hopeful (???!) look in his eyes. and buck just looks at him a little terrified (kind of like eddie was, when buck told him he was on a date with t*mmy), because he did not expect this question from eddie at all, and goes, with a kind of confused, but also serious look on his face, "why... mmm... why do you ask that?" (and then he does that nervous buck smile).

and that's when eddie, seeing buck's ocean eyes, filled with almost the same terror and gravity they had when buck was trying to tell him he lost chris in tsunami, starts filling up with quiet determination and says: "i don't know really. i just... i always thought that if i had my heart close to my chest, i'd keep it safe. i'd keep myself in control so that i could show up for others. but the thing is... no matter how much i try, it just blows up in my face. and i still let my loved ones down. and people still die. and it still hurts like hell, even if i try not to feel it.

i lost so much already. and so many. but i'm still here, i'm still alive. we're still here, we're still alive. and i'm tired of wasting my time running away or ignoring things, because who knows what happens tomorrow. maybe we're all gonna die. doesn't mean we shouldn't try and live while we can".

*he starts leaning closer to buck by the end of his speech and starts looking more at his lips*

he looks up at buck's eyes, "i just don't want to run away from my feelings anymore, evan".

all this time buck's eyes are starting to tear up. but his expression is still unclear to eddie. he just says, "what do you mean, eddie?" (while having that same expression he had after eddie told him about his will), because he just still can't believe that he heard all this right and this is actually happening and he has no idea what to think. he's probably interpreting it all wrong. he can't afford to make a mistake here. and he was not hopelessly pining for his best friend all this time, right. or was he?..

and his response sends eddie into a panic mode, so he jumps up from the couch and goes to that spot where eddie and shannon had their fight over her leaving for LA in the middle of the night, where eddie poured his feelings to kim and where buck and eddie hugged after buck told him he moved into his house. he looks at buck terrified and mumbles something like, "i'm sorry. i shouldn't have said that. i didn't mean it. i messed up again".

but the next second buck walks towards him, grabs eddie’s face in his palms, looks him in the eyes with so much love and conviction, while searching for reassurance in eddie's eyes - which he finds - and kisses him. and they kiss, and kiss, and kiss, like all this time they were underwater and this kiss is the first breath of fresh air. but then buck takes a pause. because he wants to fully take in the moment - like, wow. he really wanted it. and he didn’t even know it until now. or maybe he was just lying to himself. doesn’t matter anymore. it just felt right. like he once had this dream he had forgotten, but now that dream came true - but also because he needs to give eddie space and to see his reaction. what if this is a mistake? what if he read it wrong? what if his best friend regrets it and he's gonna lose him forever? but eddie just looks up at him with the gentlest puppy eyes and the softest smile in the world. and he kisses him back. and this kiss is less sharp, but still as long and passionate. like they settled into each other and found their rhythm. and they kiss, and kiss, and kiss. and then the episode ends.

[grbambi63]

Toto is apparently not going to present in Imola… which like if this is true surprises me a lot… like 100% would have expected he is there bcs new upgrades and kinks very first home race…

But maybe that means we get JAllison content (even if I think that Gwen is gonna do the press stuff)

Yeah it’s a little strange if we consider this is a very important weekend for mercedes with the Imola upgrades, plus it could be considered Kimi’s home race.

Well, all in all less stress on the drivers (from their TP) and JAllison will be able to focus on the w16 in peace.

Bradley Lord is always an ehhhh choice for me to lead the team, but at least we don’t get to hear Toto honking around paddock with the newly self elected Briatore💀

[eclipsxntice]

gripping my kitchen counter and sobbing with my full body shaking but i don't even remember why because I have adhd and got distracted