#*son.naeun*

[rksakura]

❀ save me

trainee starter for @rkxsnn ! ( tw: bullies! )

the first day of training, sakura finds herself lost in the middle of everything. she doesn’t have anyone to sit with during cafeteria and it seems that she can’t find any of her friends to pester and sit down with her, eating a nice meal. she still prefers her healthy daily bentos that she always makes for meal preps on the daily. she’s a friendly individual but it doesn’t feel right not having anyone by her side. she’s used to having people around. it feels weird, being a trainee and realising that she’s made it this far.

her eyes look down on the table, picking up her chopsticks as she eats a piece of tamago all by herself. that is, until a posse of girls, trainees that are without a doubt, have been here for awhile. they must be high in seniority. being the usual friendly gal she is, she greets the girls with a smile but the girls respond with snarky grins with nothing nice to say. 

“oh you’re that miya-whatever sakura girl? what are you doing here?”

and all she can hear is the sinister laughter. how are some people so heartless?

[rksakura]

❀ facing fears

sending to @rkxsnn !

*tw: anxiety levels.

uneasiness appeals to her as she’s never had this auditioning experience fall into her life but it’s an opportunity that promotes growth and development. still, sakura doesn’t have much to open up about when it comes to her skillsets, which holds her back from becoming in the spotlight—which seems too far dreamed in. it feels like an illusion that she’s even stepped down this path, already deep and far.

this trail leaves her to an opening chapter in her life, exciting but so much she still lacks knowledge in. “, i don’t think i’m going to do this very well. ね?” sakura steeps in her emotions, blinking as she’s needing some form of panacea to tranquilise her intense nerves. “i’ve never done something like this before, i don’t know much.” she’s been a cheerleader in the past but cameras are entirely different. it’s on television or streams which is more open to the public. sakura isn’t the shy type of gal as she is the opposite but when she’s not ready, she’ll speak up on that behalf.

(translation: ね right.)

she can only help herself by silencing the neverending train of thoughts, turning her mental state to thinking of fluffy dogs and marine animals to store more euphoric feelings.

[rksakura]

SSKT: COMMERCIAL TIME! with:@rkxsnn , @rkljy , @rkdowoon , @rkdongmin , @floverrk , @rkkyg , & @rkheejin

RECORDING, group b! 

*tw: anxiety!

this feels like an intense but important moment in her life.

sakura still feels the anxiety gushing in her veins but the scenery is one that feels familiar considering she used to be a cheerleader for all her high school years. regardless, it’s different when there’s a camera and acting becomes a requirement to look presentable and appealing to the public. it’s not her face or any of her habits that she’s worried about or being awkward out of the blue (but she hopes that wouldn’t come true), it’s that she doesn’t understand how she came out this far.

though she shouldn’t doubt herself, sakura was grateful to have good sources of assurance from her friend circle. naeun, being the comforter and helping her ease with the severity of her uneasiness. seeing dowoon was relieving as well, considering she hadn’t seen him in a long time. having her friends by her side definitely makes her through the days and last this tough chapter out. 

she’s affirming herself by holding a grip of her thoughts, channeling more positivity. a mantra gets her through this session, that she’ll get through the day by not staring too deep into the camera but feel out the development and growth she can learn through this experience. she isn’t out on the stage where she has to rap, so it isn’t too hard to act like a cheerleader in the middle of the green field. it flows naturally through her smiles and cute hand gestures, a jubilant expression is carved on her face. this is also a great chance to catch up with her friends! it’s not so bad!

once she’s started, the end eventually comes by and a part of her is glad to have understood more about herself. even though she has a kind and friendly nature, there are intimidating factors that she hasn’t come terms with, such as anxiety. she does have a phobia of situations turning out for the worse but doesn’t try to think of it.

however, she'll be okay for the rest of her day knowing she'll probably head to the aquarium. tending to animals is her form of escapism.