#*tintallë

[pimpmyaravel]

this blog is too sad

so here is more me and em chat this is a bunch about laurelin and also a lot about Fucking Orlais I Hate Orlais but i love bringing sera to orlais. and also. Don't bring cole to orlais. also some stuff about dorian and krem and then the disaster kids in there too??? it's mostly abt laurelin and vint stuff tho

[12/29/14, 12:06:40 AM] casimir reed-stark: any time [12/29/14, 12:07:02 AM] casimir reed-stark: i mean. not any time obviously. i think i went to bed shortly after that bc i got too drunk and could no longer handle orlais [12/29/14, 12:07:14 AM] casimir reed-stark: i started drinking to get through orlais but i overestimated how much wine was the right amount [12/29/14, 12:07:21 AM] winters: that was. really good i was so thrown and shaky about it and seeing ur snaps helped me not think about it [12/29/14, 12:07:38 AM] winters: and y EAH i saw that. you didnt send any more snaps so i assumed you had gone to sleep [12/29/14, 12:08:58 AM] winters: orlais was like. so boring honestly i was not enthralled. the only cool thing was seeing what i could get away with to get court approval really. i truly gave up and sped through it in the end i was so annoyed [12/29/14, 12:09:37 AM] winters: also it would have been cool to dance w my li but that's abt it........ seeing ur companions react was nice but the actual mission was not [12/29/14, 12:09:51 AM] winters: stick me in the hinterlands any day [12/29/14, 12:10:27 AM] casimir reed-stark: i absolutely hate orlais not bc it’s boring but bc it’s just like [12/29/14, 12:10:33 AM] casimir reed-stark: i hate orlesians [12/29/14, 12:10:57 AM] casimir reed-stark: i fucked up really badly my first attempt bc i have a specific outcome i really would like to have happen bc i looked up epilogue stuff [12/29/14, 12:11:05 AM] casimir reed-stark: but it requires a lot of fuckin halla statues [12/29/14, 12:11:16 AM] casimir reed-stark: so i have to be meticulous about getting as many as i can [12/29/14, 12:11:26 AM] winters: those halla statues are the worst i got so mad and gave up. you have far more patience than i [12/29/14, 12:11:30 AM] casimir reed-stark: so anyway i reloaded bc i meessed up hardcore the first time [12/29/14, 12:11:48 AM] casimir reed-stark: and in my second attempt decided to bring the companions i knew would make the court the most uncomfortable [12/29/14, 12:11:52 AM] casimir reed-stark: so i brought sera, dorian, and bull [12/29/14, 12:12:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: AND SERA TURNS OUT TO BE THE BEST COMPANION TO BRING??? [12/29/14, 12:12:13 AM] winters: what?????? [12/29/14, 12:12:15 AM] casimir reed-stark: you can gain SO MUCH approval from sera if you take her to orlais with you it’s hilarious [12/29/14, 12:12:22 AM] casimir reed-stark: and also extra loot [12/29/14, 12:12:27 AM] winters: that's SO GOOD i'll ahve to rmr that [12/29/14, 12:12:47 AM] casimir reed-stark: she spends her entire time trashing the nobles and laughing at everything and then she also gives you tips to where there’s red jenny loot caches all over the castle [12/29/14, 12:13:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: also u know how they have a herald announce who u bring [12/29/14, 12:13:12 AM] winters: o yeah [12/29/14, 12:13:31 AM] casimir reed-stark: sera gets herself announced as “her ladyship… “my balls itch”… of course" [12/29/14, 12:13:46 AM] casimir reed-stark: and then she snickers loudly and i think cullen audibly groans [12/29/14, 12:13:55 AM] winters: w ow. im so proud :' ) [12/29/14, 12:14:04 AM] winters: my lady cadash is gonna love her [12/29/14, 12:14:17 AM] casimir reed-stark: i brought cass and varric and dorian the first time and tbh they were way too accepting of the first two [12/29/14, 12:14:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: like that’s my typical party build but [12/29/14, 12:14:29 AM] casimir reed-stark: nah [12/29/14, 12:14:30 AM] winters: yeah i varric, dorian, bull so [12/29/14, 12:14:47 AM] winters: bull @ the food is so funny [12/29/14, 12:14:50 AM] casimir reed-stark: cass got announced by her full name and she goes “ugh get on with it” [12/29/14, 12:14:54 AM] winters: oh my GOd [12/29/14, 12:14:57 AM] winters: poor thing [12/29/14, 12:15:02 AM] winters: what a mouthful [12/29/14, 12:15:18 AM] casimir reed-stark: so i mean i think ultimately from my observation literally the best companion to bring is sera and the worst is cole [12/29/14, 12:15:25 AM] casimir reed-stark: i know someone who brought cole and. never bring cole. [12/29/14, 12:15:31 AM] casimir reed-stark: he doesn’t get announced at all [12/29/14, 12:15:45 AM] winters: oh...... is it just. very sad [12/29/14, 12:15:46 AM] casimir reed-stark: and i’m pretty sure he literally disappears [12/29/14, 12:15:50 AM] winters: nO [12/29/14, 12:16:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: you can’t find him to talk to until you show up with your full party to arm up and explore [12/29/14, 12:16:25 AM] winters: i dont like this at all [12/29/14, 12:16:31 AM] casimir reed-stark: huh i just realized. i wonder if the special dialogue option with dorian is because we’re 100% friends [12/29/14, 12:16:37 AM] casimir reed-stark: or if it’s just there bc dorian [12/29/14, 12:16:57 AM] casimir reed-stark: bc you get a dialogue thing. or at least i did. to tell him thank you for coming bc you know it’s not going to be easy on him [12/29/14, 12:17:19 AM] casimir reed-stark: and he’s like “haha yeah you’d think i smelled of cabbages the way everyone’s looking at me. it’s alright though. thank you for saying something" [12/29/14, 12:17:33 AM] winters: yeah. i think... i think i remember that. but then again i have a feeling i was very close to full friendship at that point too [12/29/14, 12:17:48 AM] winters: he's so important [12/29/14, 12:17:51 AM] casimir reed-stark: i have no idea what my friendship meters are with everyone i just know that i am definitely friends with dorian and cole [12/29/14, 12:18:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: cole’s lunch date in val royeux….. the cutest thing i have ever seen....... [12/29/14, 12:22:10 AM] winters: i have not done that yet. actually both varric and cole are likely to glitch out and i haven't been able to talk to cole in ages bc he doesnt appear when i get close to him [12/29/14, 12:22:14 AM] winters: it's so frustrating [12/29/14, 12:22:18 AM] winters: i miss him [12/29/14, 12:22:40 AM] casimir reed-stark: woah weird [12/29/14, 12:23:18 AM] winters: ur tellin me. krem has found his way around a chari and understands how to use one, but cole just up and disappears [12/29/14, 12:23:22 AM] winters: thanks dragon age [12/29/14, 12:24:12 AM] winters: oh well i'll figure it out and get to him at some point [12/29/14, 12:24:23 AM] winters: if it's the last hting i do [12/29/14, 12:25:57 AM] casimir reed-stark: krem is like. fifty fifty. in mine [12/29/14, 12:26:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: he sometimes sits in the chair shoving the wine bottle into his cheek [12/29/14, 12:26:16 AM] casimir reed-stark: and sometimes stands on the chair [12/29/14, 12:26:24 AM] casimir reed-stark: he stopped descending from the rafters every time i walk in though [12/29/14, 12:26:32 AM] winters: he often talks while he has the bottle at his mouth too [12/29/14, 12:26:36 AM] winters: SHIT [12/29/14, 12:26:48 AM] winters: krem u light up my life with ur silly antics [12/29/14, 12:26:59 AM] winters: u light up my life anyway but stil [12/29/14, 12:27:13 AM] casimir reed-stark: ok totally unrelated but i’m really fuckin tired of people simplifying dorian’s views on slavery to “dorian supports slavery" [12/29/14, 12:27:19 AM] casimir reed-stark: did they??? listen????? to what he said about it??? [12/29/14, 12:27:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: it was slightly naive but at the same time like [12/29/14, 12:27:30 AM] casimir reed-stark: what krem says later totally validates it to me tbh [12/29/14, 12:28:24 AM] winters: i honestly havent come across people talking about dorian's views on it. i'm guessing i should count myself lucky [12/29/14, 12:28:50 AM] casimir reed-stark: literally when you talk to dorian (as an elf) about slavery in tevinter what he has to say is like [12/29/14, 12:30:07 AM] casimir reed-stark: “it’s an ugly business and i’m not saying it’s good but at the same time people outright demonizing people who have slaves in tevinter as always being bad people really don’t understand how tevinter is. honestly it’s not a good thing but if you’re poor and especially an elf in tevinter, you may actually be better off as a slave. no elf and no lower class person in tevinter is truly free." [12/29/14, 12:30:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: and then later krem literally tells you that he grew up poor as shit and lower class in tevinter [12/29/14, 12:30:30 AM] casimir reed-stark: and his dad SOLD HIMSELF INTO SLAVERY TO AVOID STARVING TO DEATH [12/29/14, 12:31:15 AM] winters: y eah. yeah [12/29/14, 12:31:42 AM] winters: it's a lot more complicated than just blanketing dorian's perspective w "supports slavery" [12/29/14, 12:32:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: yeah it doesn’t mean he doesn’t occassionally make unfortunate comments but he’s really self aware about it [12/29/14, 12:32:41 AM] casimir reed-stark: he outright says “i’m a fuckin rich tevinter mage kid my dad is a magister of course i don’t understand what it’s like to be poor or not tevinter” [12/29/14, 12:33:07 AM] winters: he knows his background and why he thinks these things. yeah [12/29/14, 12:36:15 AM] winters: dorian only wants to be better really, that's what he's striving for [12/29/14, 12:36:38 AM] casimir reed-stark: i just [12/29/14, 12:36:51 AM] casimir reed-stark: i love how worked up he gets sometimes when you’re talkign to him and he’s just like [12/29/14, 12:37:36 AM] casimir reed-stark: i’m FUCKING TRYING i’m trying to make everything better i’m here bc i want to make myself better and i want to make my country better and i want to make the world better and i want to prove to the people back home that i’m better but also that they can be better and also that we can all fucking work together and like [12/29/14, 12:37:45 AM] casimir reed-stark: i love my piece of shit country and it has so many problems and it doesn’t love me but i don’t care [12/29/14, 12:38:10 AM] casimir reed-stark: because i still love it and it still raised me and it can reject me all it wants and i’ll leave so i don’t get hurt anymore but i won’t back down [12/29/14, 12:38:21 AM] casimir reed-stark: wait what were we talkinga bout. right. tevinter. tevinter is what i was talkinga bout [12/29/14, 12:38:54 AM] casimir reed-stark: i was not talking about anything but tevinter and i’m sorry i yelled you don’t deserve that. you’ve only ever supported me and i don’t know how to deal with that bc no one ever has before [12/29/14, 12:39:01 AM] casimir reed-stark: “my best and only friend” shut UP [12/29/14, 12:39:38 AM] winters: goODBYE [12/29/14, 12:40:33 AM] winters: going into this i expected to fall in love with dorian but. not quite in all the ways i have. he's surprised me in the best ways and i love this asshole so much it hurts [12/29/14, 12:41:36 AM] casimir reed-stark: yeah [12/29/14, 12:42:00 AM] casimir reed-stark: yeah no i seriously wasn’t sure going in to things who was going to be like?? like in dao and da2 they’re all your friends and the difference in inquisition is that you [12/29/14, 12:42:13 AM] casimir reed-stark: you don’t have a ragtag band of misfits [12/29/14, 12:42:22 AM] casimir reed-stark: you don’t have a little group of friends u go gallavanting around with [12/29/14, 12:42:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: you have allies [12/29/14, 12:42:40 AM] casimir reed-stark: so i was really excited to find out who was going to wind up actually being my friends [12/29/14, 12:42:52 AM] casimir reed-stark: and i think it will vary a little for my other inquisitors [12/29/14, 12:42:58 AM] winters: yeah. like, i didnt really plan a best friend at all, but dorian slipped into the role so perfectly despite the character ianlen ended up being. [12/29/14, 12:43:01 AM] winters: yeah [12/29/14, 12:43:14 AM] casimir reed-stark: but i really. wasn’t expecting ru and dorian to wind up loving each other so much [12/29/14, 12:43:17 AM] casimir reed-stark: they’re such an odd couple lmao [12/29/14, 12:43:42 AM] casimir reed-stark: sometimes i just think about tinuverse and tintalle bringing dorian home with him and that’s when ru meets dorian and they just [12/29/14, 12:43:50 AM] casimir reed-stark: like they didn’t go through the same stuff but [12/29/14, 12:44:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: tintalle never shuts up about ru and dorian’s even seen letters from them and stuff [12/29/14, 12:44:32 AM] casimir reed-stark: and possibly met them once or twice bc while i don’t think tintalle comes to skyhold ever during the whole crisis bc he’s got to stay and support the keeper [12/29/14, 12:44:46 AM] casimir reed-stark: i think ru definitely does bc i mean [12/29/14, 12:45:20 AM] casimir reed-stark: ru is a hunter they have more place in the clan than. say. laurelin. but they’re still a disaster and the keeper is like “you already left once without permission so i seriously don’t think we can stop you from doing it again" [12/29/14, 12:46:03 AM] winters: "it's an ADVENTURE" [12/29/14, 12:46:22 AM] casimir reed-stark: i’m still laughing bc i had a hard time trying to decide exactly how and why ru has so many scars [12/29/14, 12:46:40 AM] casimir reed-stark: and why tintalle only has like. two. but why he has Any At All is still like. why would u have face scars u are a fragile nerd [12/29/14, 12:46:49 AM] winters: omg [12/29/14, 12:47:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: each of ru’s scars have a story to them that ends with “and THATS why the keeper wont let me do ___ anymore!” [12/29/14, 12:47:24 AM] casimir reed-stark: ru is forbidden from doing any kind of crafting [12/29/14, 12:47:53 AM] casimir reed-stark: tintalle has two scars. he got them at the same time. because ru snapped him in the face with a tree branch and it knocked him out [12/29/14, 12:47:53 AM] winters: i SAW U TALKING ABOUT THAT i cant beleive this child [12/29/14, 12:48:10 AM] winters: ah yes, siblings [12/29/14, 12:48:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: i mean…. they were like…. ru was probably about nine [12/29/14, 12:48:51 AM] winters: was it an accident or were they playing. this honestly sounds like something my brothers would get up to wow [12/29/14, 12:48:53 AM] casimir reed-stark: laurelin’s scars are similar to ru’s but significantly less triumphant [12/29/14, 12:49:01 AM] winters: nice [12/29/14, 12:49:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: they were playing but it was also an accident [12/29/14, 12:49:11 AM] casimir reed-stark: like [12/29/14, 12:49:19 AM] casimir reed-stark: ru did it on purpose but it wasnt meant to do any damage [12/29/14, 12:49:51 AM] casimir reed-stark: tintalle was just like “ru don’t mess with that get down from that tree youre going to hurt yourself” and ru was like “let go? ok” and tintalle was like “nO DONT LET G” and then he was concussed [12/29/14, 12:50:41 AM] winters: creators preserve me [12/29/14, 12:52:02 AM] winters: honestly in the elvhen clique where they all know each other ianlen is definitely that longsuffering silent cousin figure that just. patiently waits for someone to hurt themselves and then patches them up [12/29/14, 12:52:35 AM] casimir reed-stark: i can’t make as many jokes about laurelin bc every time i think about laurelin too much i get kind of :/ because honestly his life until the inquisition was like not bad but not great [12/29/14, 12:52:55 AM] casimir reed-stark: it’s rough living in a society where everyone has a role to play and you just. don't [12/29/14, 12:53:32 AM] winters: awh man [12/29/14, 12:54:35 AM] casimir reed-stark: he’s a mage but he’s not in line to be keeper, he can’t be a crafter (his “sight” only gets him so far), he’s rubbish with halla, he can’t hunt because they can’t risk mages on the hunt and also because he just can’t. see fast enough. to be much help. [12/29/14, 12:54:49 AM] casimir reed-stark: he’s good with kids and he’s good with stories [12/29/14, 12:55:03 AM] casimir reed-stark: so he mostly just. spends his time helping his dad out [12/29/14, 12:55:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: and babysitting [12/29/14, 12:55:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: but there’s still plenty of the clan that’s sort of unnerved by him and definitely pitying of him bc like [12/29/14, 12:56:23 AM] casimir reed-stark: he’s not old but. he’s not young anymore either. by his age most of the people would have had a role in the clan and. probably have picked a partner and settled down too [12/29/14, 12:56:35 AM] casimir reed-stark: he’s like. 33 or 34 [12/29/14, 12:57:04 AM] casimir reed-stark: and bc of the whole. like he can “see” but people don’t know quite how to be around him still sometimes [12/29/14, 12:57:08 AM] casimir reed-stark: and he’s kind of. weirdly quiet. [12/29/14, 12:57:30 AM] casimir reed-stark: except when he’s telling stories and then he just gets lost in them and seems almost like a different person [12/29/14, 12:57:35 AM] winters: oh [12/29/14, 12:57:47 AM] casimir reed-stark: but like a hahren doesn’t have a first the way the keeper does so it’s not like he’s in line for anything there [12/29/14, 12:58:03 AM] casimir reed-stark: there isn’t a role to fill by just. helping out his dad [12/29/14, 12:58:19 AM] casimir reed-stark: the keeper sends him to the conclave literally because like [12/29/14, 12:58:27 AM] casimir reed-stark: she just hopes it will help him find a place in the world [12/29/14, 12:58:39 AM] casimir reed-stark: like that some part of the journey will give him meaning? [12/29/14, 12:58:49 AM] casimir reed-stark: and it. does. the inquisition is the best thing that ever happens to him [12/29/14, 12:59:27 AM] casimir reed-stark: it’s so baffling when they ask him to be inquisitor bc here he is this blind mage kid in his mid thirties with no direction in life whatsoever [12/29/14, 12:59:45 AM] casimir reed-stark: and there are these incredible strong people and they want him to lead them??? [12/29/14, 1:00:03 AM] casimir reed-stark: and he’s like “i am not even remotely cut out to do this but i’ll try" [12/29/14, 1:00:16 AM] winters: what a darling. i'm so glad [12/29/14, 1:03:25 AM] casimir reed-stark: did u see the cap i edited of him [12/29/14, 1:04:32 AM] winters: yeah i did it was amazing he looks so good [12/29/14, 1:04:54 AM] winters: what a CUTIE [12/29/14, 1:05:18 AM] casimir reed-stark: i love my kids [12/29/14, 1:06:58 AM] winters: i love your kids too

[pimpmyaravel]

knight enchanter tint thoughts

basically just a bunch of meta abt tintallë re: his specialization and What That Really Means About Him

ok so i’m making him a knight enchanter bc i reALLY LIKE THAT CLASS IDEA ITS SO COOL

but he’s like. this gentle soft scrawny nerd so it seems contradictory BUT i started thinking about how it works with his character and i really like what i came up with?? so.

i like the idea that the inquisition and his role as inquisitor somehow Changes him and like. hardens him. and that once they put that sword in his hand he discovers that he like. he likes how it feels. he likes the power and the symbolism of that. and he likes the idea that while his magic can kill people without him getting close enough to them to see the life go out of them, that the sword forces him to see them die, to FEEL them die, and his biggest hesitation in the whole ordeal is that he like.

his purpose in life has always been healing and protection. to carry on the traditions. to guide and remember. he’ll be keeper some day. and a keeper is the opposite of a killer. or it should be.

but here is is! doing all this killing! and it’s the right thing it has to be done it serves the same thing he was serving before on such a mass scale he has to protect and save and fight bc no one else has this power, whether or not he likes it, he’s the herald, not of andraste, he doesn’t believe in the maker, he believes in his own gods, fervently, passionately, unquestioningly, but not quite as much as he believes in the world itself, in people and history and just like the idea of faith and loyalty? loyalty to oneself, to one’s people, one’s traditions, one’s purpose or calling, etc

so he believes the anchor ties him to the fate of the world and that whoever or whatever put him where he was to make that happen to him means that it’s His duty and that’s just what fate has in store for him and he has to follow that

but it doesn’t mean he likes the killing. it doesn’t mean the blood doesn’t stain his hands and his dreams, because it does. but the one thing that really gets to him, because he accepts the killing as necessity, and death as part of life and accepts all that, the part that gets to him is that when he fights with his magic it distances him

and he’s scared that he’ll lose, for lack of a better word bc he’s fucking dalish obvi, his humanity, because of that distnace

so having that sword in his hand when they declare him inquisitor, it makes him think, like what if i don’t put this down, what if i take this symbol of my destiny here and i use it, what if i bring the killing closer to my hands

despite what people like the bull might be able to do or tell him they do, he feels like it’ll be harder to forget that these are real people or real animals or whatever that he’s killing, these are real lives he’s taking, and it has to happen and it’s just death, but it’s real

magic gives him the ability to step away and stand at a distance and forget

but a sword is so tangible and the death you bring by a sword is so tangible

it puts him back in the fight hand to hand

it’s inescapable

and that’s exactly what he feels like he needs

he doesn’t believe he could keep being a true hero or follow his fate properly, and especially he doesn’t believe he would be worthy or able to return and fulfill his training to become keeper, which he fervently wants to and believes he will and must do, he doesn’t believe he could do any of that if he were to forget the reality of what his hands have done

and that means the killing, but it also means the sealing of rifts, the gentle touches on the shoulders of needing comrades, the wrapping of bandages around wounds, the movement of pieces on the map of the war table, the writing of treaties and letters, the harvesting of herbs and resources… the tracing lines of scars on dorian’s chest when they’re laying in bed together, fingers pulling at clothes or sheets or bedposts, scratching or stroking or just gently brushing over skin… all of it.

it’s a keeper’s duty to remember, even the bad things, but the good ones too, and things that are somewhere outside or in between

and he means to fulfill his duty

[pimpmyaravel]

"how did this start with 'haha dorian as a dad amirite' and turn into 'ok but let's get fucked up and doomed timeline'"

lmao a+ me. this is all about The Kids and stuff but it starts out cute and then slumps directly down into "haha here the worst possible thing that could happen in my genuinely happy alpha state postgame with petra and their fam"

this does touch on who has kids in general tho??

i haven't even started his save yet and my mind is already wandering off into "ok but what if... tintallë and dorian... had kids......."

i started thinking about da kids and now i can't stop i have already jumped past my alpha world state and straight into This

and like. obviously i think. at some point ruivë and josephine would probably have kids but they're too young to do so for Quite Some Time

leliana and tinuviel never have kids (too busy), heron and anders... adopt at some point probably, mostly definitely tho they own Many Cats cass and canary... i don't know

(update: cass and canary didn't work out, canary might adopt with bull at some point, cass and laurelin have like two or three kids eventually)

estel and zevran OBVIOUSLY don't have kids. but they would have. i'm sorry i didn't need to throw that in that was really uncalled for

naia and isabela decide they're never having kids and then they wind up rescuing a toddler from spiders & are like "welp guess we're moms"

casper and alistair obviously do not have kids either...... i haven't named the warden who hooks up with morrigan yet but they have a kid  sela and morrigan may or may not have a kid. i rly want morrigan to be a mom bc it's. yeah. but i literally won't be able to upload sela or casper to the keep properly so i don't know if it'll even let me and yeah who knows. loud shrug. maybe they have an ogb and then raise it together????

it's hard to think about ruivë being mellowed out and old enough for children bc they are a children but i know they eventually have some like at the end of inquisition for ruivë and josephine, they're p much just ready to go on an extravagent honeymoon adventure and then keep inquisit...ing... but at the end of inquisition for tintallë and dorian they are both like "well that's enough excitement for a century, let's get Domestic" lmao

ruivë just like "i can't chill now, i'm just getting started, cmon babe, also we have to find solas so i can kick his ass or whatever"

meanwhile their brother is just like "the only adventure i want to deal with for a while is convincing my in-laws to like you"

ruivë and josephine's life becomes a continuing romantic fantasy action-adventure, tintallë and dorian settled down to married sitcom life

also... i was thinking abt timelines and i think i've decided that petra is like 2 months pregnant with melia when they come to skyhold

idk if they know yet? definitely merrill and varric don't bc neither of them would've let them do any of that if they did. but yeah

haha wow tho it makes bad timeline au like. ultimate bad. holy shit. bc they tell varric somewhere in the middle and varric is like "please say you're joking"

they're like "aw and here i thought you'd be excited to be a father!" varric's like "yeah and i would like to stay that way, i would never have asked you or let you come if i had known!"

"i know that's why i didn't tell either of you. i'll be fine"

"YOU BETTER"

and in good timeline aka real timeline everything is ok and they're fine and varric's like. really torn up bc he just wants to go Home now, be with his family, for heck's sake hawke is gonna need him, merrill is gonna need him, and the kid is gonna need him. his kid!!! he's having a kid!!! what the hell

so damn straight he has to finish this inquisition thing but he spends the rest of the game being like "can we save the world faster i have a baby on the way"

i mean. of course he doesn't say that. to anyone. bc he just doesn't need or want to explain his family dynamics or their gender dynamics to everyone lmao

[warn: sad starts here]

but..... bad end au. bad end au obviously being. the. petra tells varric. he tries to stop them, but they go, and they. don't come back. so

varric's. letter to merrill. has to also force him to decide. whether or not to tell merrill. or to keep that knowledge. alone. forever.

BASICALLY EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE FOREVER IM SO GLAD THIS ISNT MY CANON LMAO

none of my hawkes die, but that doesn't mean i'm entirely get out of misery on that quest... bc alistair stayed warden w casper... so.... ow....

how did this start with "haha dorian as a dad amirite hoorah children" and turn into "ok but let's get fucked up and doomed timeline"

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lavellan siblings power force go!!

repost from blog talkin abt first big thing abt tint and ru being siblings and the timeline differences that lead them to each being at the conclave??

my lavellan inquisitors are actually siblings it’s just like. different timelines where one wound up at the conclave rather than the other… i really hope that there’s not like a later thing i haven’t heard about where you get a lot more details about the inquisitor’s family and past bc i have so much headcanon i don’t know what i’ll do with myself if there’s actual canon that totally messes with a ll this…. my kids….

either way, tintallë was the one who was actually supposed to go, aka he is who the clan ACTUALLY sent, bc he is both older and generally a bit more levelheaded about things than ruivë is, and like. he’s the first to their keeper and all that i mean he’s a very good choice of spy/diplomat, he has like, tact and subtly where ruivë mostly has inexplicable charm and dumb luck

in the case of ruivë being inquisitor, it is bc either way they convince him to let them tag along bc they haven’t gotten much chance to like interact with humans and see the world and stuff bc they are literally like. ruivë got their vallaslin earlier that year they are literally only just barely not a kid in the eyes of their people. they are like. seventeen years old they are completely not cut out to be in charge of anything 

but anyway, ruivë convinces their brother to let them tag along and he’s like “sure fine just don’t cause any trouble” and then of course. they do. or rather, in the timeline where tintallë becomes inquisitor the way it should have happened, he successfully convinces ruivë to stay at camp while he goes to the conclave so they won’t get themself into any sort of weird trouble

either way they both survive the conclave tho but think the other didn’t at first and don’t get a chance to find out bc suddenly one of them is inquisitor and can’t do anything about the rest of it until later

if ruivë becomes the inquisitor, then they are at the conclave bc they Really wanted to go and tintallë wouldn’t hear about it and they’re like “fuck this i’m tired of everyone treating me like a kid” and they slip a sleeping draught into their brother’s soup the night before so that he’ll just sleep through the whole thing

so in that timeline, tintallë wakes up, figures out what ruivë did, finds out what happened, and heads back to clan lavellan heartbroken and feeling very off and guilty and unsure of how to tell his clan and their parents that not only did he let his little sibling come with him, completely disobeying the clan’s decision in the matter, but he then did not attend the conclave and wound up letting them die on his watch

he spends time sort of wandering in the hinterlands on the long trek home and meditating on things and reaching out to spirits he senses and trying to figure stuff out and then he winds up in a tavern somewhere and finally catches wind of the inquisition and its unlikely leader, a tiny redheaded dalish archer who is managing relatively well despite being absolutely none of the things anyone wants them to be or expects them to be and tintallë is like “are you kidding me” like he’s hugely relieved that they’re alive obviously but he’s also like i can’t believe this i can’t believe i’ve spent a month wandering in the hinterlands not talking to anyone so i could try and find answers in the woods and in myself and in the beyond for why things transpired to keep me alive but let them die like this and not only are they not dead but they are also going around causing trouble, saving the world, and yelling “the maker isn’t real” at everyone who tries to call them the herald of andraste like of fucking course this would happen

ruivë spends the whole first part being like this is my fault this is terrifying what am i doing i’m not cut out for this tintallë would be so much better at this than i am he should have been there not me what the fuck am i doing holy shit what is that where is my brother i absolutely cannot believe he died but what if he died how will i know when will i know if he’s okay where is he can he come pick me up and take me home now this wasn’t the plan at all i have NO IDEA HOW TO DRIVE THIS THING IM GOING TO CRASH 

finally, several months later, they get word back that one of their agents spoke to clan lavellan’s first directly on a mission and ruivë freezes and is like WHERE IS THE AGENT ARE THEY HERE ARE THEY IN HAVEN WHERE ARE THEY SEND THEM TO THE WAR COUNCIL RIGHT NOW I NEED TO SPEAK WITH THEM RIGHT NOW and they’re all just like ??? and josephine’s like “OH. YES. LELIANA PLEASE GO GET YOUR AGENT IN HERE” and leliana’s like “ok sure” and cullen makes some sort of disgruntled noise while cass looks around for an explanation that is not there

the agent is brought in a minute later and ruivë is like YOU SPOKE TO THE FIRST OF CLAN LAVELLAN. THE FIRST TO THE KEEPER OF MY CLAN. TELL ME WHAT YOU TALKED ABOUT HOW. THEY LOOKED. DID YOU FIND OUT THEIR NAME

the agent is just like “uh. yes. um. your. uh. your heraldness. um. he looked fine? dalish? white hair, but kinda curly like yours is, bit taller than you but not much, is this really what you want to know about the mission” and ruivë like almost starts crying and then they’re just like “that shit lord i can’t believe he didn’t think to send me so much as a dream letting me know he was okay” and cass is like “is anybody going to fill me in on what’s going on here” and josephine smiles and is like “the first of clan lavellan’s keeper is our dear inquisitor’s older brother. they were both supposed to be in attendance at the conclave, but… circumstances kept tintallë at their camp. this is the first news we have had that made it clear he has made it home safely”

in the other version of events, things are more or less the same except ruivë finds out that tintallë is inquisitor a lot faster bc they do not do the “wander alone in the hinterlands seeking guidance” thing bc they are not a thoughtful magely type by any means and when they find out they turn around and head for haven to surprise him in his sleep (aka almost give him a bloody heart attack) by finding where they are and sneaking into his quarters and just showing up, subsequently teasing him about how he just can’t help but take on more responsibilities and making some like “what are you now, keeper of the inquisition? keeper of thedas?” and he’s like “i’m not keeper of anything yet i’m still the first there’s just some complications going on and why are you here i was asleep i. i’m so glad you’re here this is so much to deal with and i was terrified i thought you were dead i kept searching for you in the fade but there’s so much going on out there now since the breach and with this. weird stuff. going on with me. that i just couldn’t follow any of the old paths to get to you the way i used to i’m so sorry please tell dad and the keeper and everyone i’m ok ok you have to go back to the clan and tell them i’m ok and i’m sorry and that you’re alive and i promise i’ll come home when i can i love you ok but like fen’harel’s great furry ass don’t sneak up on me when i’m in bed like that how many times do i have to tell you not to do that” and ruivë’s like “at least one more time B)”

tintallë just rolls his eyes and wishes he could ask them to stay bc he’s kind of lonely and lost feeling really but a keeper is trained to be strong and do what they must to protect their people and this is a weird way to have to do that but it’s what the gods meant for him to do clearly bc like andraste my ass he knows that isn’t who gave him this power but dang is he looking to try and figure out who DID bc the gods aren’t supposed to be able to reach thedas really either??? he has so many questions that he can’t get answers to especially bc solas drives him nuts a lot of the time bc it’s like. yeah hi i’m the first to a dalish clan you can stop shit talking the dalish any time now you’re not better than us ya flat eared shit i don’t care if you’re a fadewalker dude you’re not actually all that special or different you only had to help me bc i was disoriented in an explosion ok i probably have some idea of what’s going on like a little bit or i could but not really any less than you do dude come on

their mum is a hunter and their da tends the clan’s halla but is also kind of a hedge mage? like he’s a mage but like. really lowkey and he’s not super trained bc their clan had a few magically gifted kids his age and he was never the most promising candidate for keeper esp bc he just doesn’t have all that much active magical power (and he just really doesn’t have the organizational mind or leadership skills for it, though he does have a reasonable amount of charisma, a very good memory for lore, and a lot of passion for it all, which like. he would’ve been a much better hahren, if anything, and he actually does do a lot of storytelling and is really good friends with the clan’s hahren and like is kind of considered hahren “second” almost bc he’s like not officially being trained and never was or will be bc him and the current hahren are around the same age, he’s like, maybe seven or eight years younger, but he’s the second best storyteller by general agreement, more or less)

i came up with him being a mage before i knew abt the three mages rule for dalish clans so i just. i figure he’s lowkey and important to the village and no one finds him at all a threat and clan lavellan is bigger and more open and has more mages naturally occurring in their bloodlines or smth so like they have five mages but tintallë and ruivë’s da and one of the others are just like really benign mages who’ve been around forever and like the other one was the keeper’s second for a while but she backed down when she had a kid was a mage so she could keep her kid?? so like her and their da are allowed to stick around bc they’ve been there their entire lives and nothing has ever run amiss of either of them so. the clan trusts them and feels safer, even, with them, bc they have a lot of knowledge between the two of them

also the keeper is their great aunt on their mother’s side so with magic on both sides it was kind of like inevitable that one of them would inherit it and everyone was actually quite worried what would have to happen if the second child was born a mage too bc that would mean six mages and one unproven and they would have been forced to give them up to another clan and no one wanted that so it was lucky that ruivë came out a magicless disaster

as i said i. really hope. the game doesn’t later have like. some kind of quest to give u a lot of extra info on your inquisitor’s family and backstory or smth bc i don’t want it i have my canon already u can’t take this all from me

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in which ruivë lavellan is Actually Kind Of Terrifying and estel mahariel shaped the course of the fate of the whole world forever

also stuff about tintallë and zev and petra and alistair/anora even and it's really everywhere but yea. alpha world state shit. everyone is pro elf. #elvhensupremacy tbh

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tint/vint nonsense

ft sexy sword magic and brief invasive cole + varric

casimir reed-stark: sidenote did u read the thing i wrote abt tintalle choosing the knight enchanter class bc i just started thinking abt it and just. sweats casimir reed-stark: i havent decided what to make second lavellan who u know what i am going to go name him right now winters: "there are limited mages u kill off the others i Know this" "haha yEAH totally dude im the only mage in my clan ; )" winters: TELL ME ALL casimir reed-stark: did u see the post first of all bc its long and says a lot of it im just casimir reed-stark: im just really fucking gay for magic and i started thinking about like winters: i think i read it?? but i've forgotten lmao i can go read it now so you dont have to explain it all over casimir reed-stark: dorian and tintalle fighting together and they’re back to back with their staves and then tintalle pulls out his magic sword thing and lets out this snarl in elvhen and charges the crowd and just fucks them up and dorian just pauses for a second and winds up getting an arrow almost hitting him in the shoulder bc he’s just like “holy shit” winters: o hhhhhh shit casimir reed-stark: tintalle is usually so level and calm and like I Am A Peaceful Forest Elf but like. he’s ruive’s brother for sure winters: that's h ot winters: and i DID see taht post winters: hecked up about it i LOVE MAGIC i LOVE MAGES casimir reed-stark: he comes back all panting and covered in blood that is mostly not his own and smiles at dorian and is just like “we won” and dorian is like “yes we certainly did” but his voice totally cracks on the yes winters: FUCK casimir reed-stark: tintalle is still residually just tingling all over with magic and energy from the anchor and dorian kisses him and he fuckin tastes like the fade and dorian didnt even realize the fade could taste like anything but its unmistakeable casimir reed-stark: and then he turns and bounds off again and is like come on we’ve got shit to do and dorian is like “urhhhh i. right. yes. stuff important things saving the world and all that. not to be a bother but isn’t there one of our camps near here? i think there is. we should stop i. i’m terribly injured and must rest probably” winters: """"i must rest"""" winters: well. they'll be using the bed for SOMEHTING casimir reed-stark: cole’s like “you’re not injured though, dorian. you feel… better than you have in some time. the things that hurt you disappear when he kisses you, and even if they come back, they feel like dreams when he’s with you. when you touch him, its like touching the fade itself, but he’s not just that, he’s… warmer. you aren’t hurt at all, but you need to stop fighting a while anyway… you’re… breathless, burning and bursting, blood boiling, rushing, pounding in your ears, hard to hear yourself think, hard to hear anything but your heartbeat, and his, that’s the ache, not a hurt, but a healing, still harsh, hard and hasty, and” “THATS QUITE ENOUGH COLE” “…sorry" winters: S HIT winters: COLE LET THE CAT OUTTA THE BAG winters: dorian is BLUSHING casimir reed-stark: varric’s like “damn kid you gotta let me write some of that down someday, i’m terrible at writing romance” cole brightens up and is like “really? i could help you with your stories? letting me in to the worlds in your head, through a door that goes both ways, sharing, shaping, shifting words together, you’d teach me new ways to be honest, that’s what you do, varric, you’re honest, but you tell honest things through things that aren’t true. i could help, if you want." casimir reed-stark: dorian’s just like “yes yes alright turn my thoughts into dinner and a show while we’re at it why don’t we"