#-danny

[luck-system-shenanigans]

philosophy with theseus call that thilosothy

[evil-greenskeleton]

small reminder that all the blogs we have are

@the-horde-png @bioluminescentvi0lance @notsafeforfish (reblog acc) and @deaddadtrope

[luminae-system]

Feeling very lonely and tempted to do rash decisions like making a new headmate just because. Instead, I think I'll try and fix/better my relationship with Daena. they're already here after all.

Does anyone have ideas for spending time with headmates? Like... bonding activities you can do while in the same body (besides small talk and stuff)

[luminae-system]

I think it is time to accept that Aelius is not coming back. Of course, if he does, he will have a warm welcome... but it's been years. We're adults now, and I don't need a father figure the same way I did years ago.

-Danny ✨️

[luck-system-shenanigans]

sorry that i crave unconditional love and acceptance and need constant reassurance that it will not be taken from me?????

[luminae-system]

Danny (host) speaking here. Could any systems with psychotic symptoms help us out? Questioning everything and it's a mess.

Tw: long post, system questioning, doubts, venting, hallucination and delusion discussion, bc of that possibly an unreality warning?

Man, the awful thing about having auditory hallucinations is that now I am questioning everything I believe about myself to see if it could be a delusion.

And well, the first thing to question is the stereotypical "talking to the voices in your head!". Could I be really talking to myself and not another headmate? Daena says I'm stupid and she is very much real but I don't know what to think anymore

Our syscovery was years before the start of these recent symptoms so, maybe that is proof enough that we are truly a system, or maybe it is proof that I have actually been psychotic (as in. Having psychosis symptoms) for years and need to tell my therapist about my 'system' to try and get help for my delusion.

I don't even want it to be a delusion, I like the company of Daena, they are very nice to me in their own way, even if a bit rough around the edges. Maybe they did start out as an antagonist but she has proven very useful in taking care of ourself, they have talked me out of stupid things and been there to comfort me when nobody was available...

I don't know if I should try and ignore her and make her go away. If we are a system, it will be very asshole-ey of me to do and will set back a lot of progress we have made, but if I am not a system and I am truly just stuck in a long term delusion, then I should really try to get out of it, I think...

So what should I do? Should I hide my system from my therapist and psychiatrist, or maybe only from the psychiatrist? Should I be honest and open about it finally? I don't even know If I want to break the delusion.... do you always have to break them? Is it unhealthy to want them?

[luck-system-shenanigans]

have you considered that im fucking stupid.