#-kcr

[leolithe]

I know we said we'd talk about Warframe's TOP but sorry we started playing Horizon Forbidden West -- and the taste of a story that can realize, has realized and WANTS to fully realize its narrative potential is just too difficult to let up. Sorry Slopframe I think we're gradually resenting you and your writing team lol

Content island after content island, brick after brick of groundwork for stories that won't continue until after the following 4 years. Incohesive sloppy fanservice trash from the team behind the newer Protoframes. The Slopframe experience we don't need to miss.

[leolithe]

It really is a humbling experience tho, being a lesbian writing for lesbians and other yuri enthusiasts because we knew from the start we were never gonna write/draw/post for big numbers. It is a futile effort to aim for popularity when u like women exclusively lol.

Edit: it's a futile effort to aim for the same popularity that menlikers get when u like women exclusively, but i see the more girl-dominated casts' fandoms healing the balance of the world. Now we need to take a fuckin shower and logg off oh my god we always get angry when we're rotting on our chair for too long

[leolithe]

I miss Leo i would like her to come back to blogging about Lotus. I feel like im kinda boring lol and Kace has been very difficult to stop from being confrontational and vehement. We're not as fun as Leo is but i miss her energy. We haven't even drawn anything in months.

She feels a bit distant from us as of late (probably cuz we're building our life as a responsible adult and shit), but she's still here. Glimpses of her peek through us when we're excited and happy. Hell we've heard from her just today, she just doesn't really feel present when we call for her internally. Our memory issues and mental barriers definitely aren't helping with making us feel connected. Lol.

Otherwise though our body is doing very well. Safe and happy and healthy.

[leolithe]

Can't reblog your most recent post since a mutual hasn't done 1999 yet but YEAH! RIGHT?!?! Like they couldve done that entire thing so much better oh my god

This ask was in response to this post we made a little while ago

DE has shown that they are capable of weaving secrets and mystery in a way that unravelled in the narrative naturally and in ways that didn't even feel contrived

The entire Lotus' arc where she was constantly positioned as someone to distrust still had that layer of plausible deniability that hey, maybe something isn't right here. Other characters and other quests had a certain mellower tone to them that 1999 did not want to tap on, and really. I think the lack of tact and rushedness of 1999 just makes sense when you think about how the protoframes are just looking like a conventionally attractive sex appeal marketing tool to make big money aka keep the game alive.

Anyway all this to say: I don't like 1999 and I'll happily choose to opt out of its content.

[leolithe]

"lotus gave me a praise kink!" so valid . Lotus gave us a 2 year old alter and solidified our fractured pieces of the self

[leolithe]

Good news: yayyy we have a lot of followers and we know there are lots of people who enjoy our art no matter if they're longtime followers or just passing by ^w^

Bad news: in my states of unwisdom i have already revealed my interest in agere, [x]cest, controversial topics and there's now a ghost pressed into my shoulder telling me there's definitely people itching to put my head on a stake. Or just have generally unpersoned me and dropped me like a hot iron.

Best news: in these one and a half ish years, i have grown into the perfect niche i wanted, made undeniable impacts to the sweet people of this fandom, have gotten to learn about ourselves and grow so much as people...

Pretty damn good for a zoomer in the middle of the sea 😎

[eidolotus]

in therapy we learned that some people think and come to conclusions better when we verbalise it out loud rather than try to comb through it in our head

Henceforth it is important that we keep this blog and resist all urges to nuke it. Because unlike the average tumblrina we are growing and learning with every post. Thank you.

[eidolotus]

my sympathies to other survivors of csa/incestuous abuse/rape but i don't really understand the talking point of "these freak shippers are fetishizing MY trauma"

my trauma is specific to me and my life experiences. no one but me knows it.

like it's normal and expected to have triggers for these things, being reminded unwittingly can be very distressing and unfair. i am not advocating for anyone to expose themselves to dangerous porn.

But to claim that it is MY trauma that people are mindlessly jacking off to is a bit ridiculous when other people are also survivors of the same type of abuse, or when the average incest shipper is getting off to their own idealized concept of incest.

I feel like I'm missing something in this discussion. I have an inkling what it may be but I can't articulate it yet. Maybe someone else will look at this post and go "damn ur a daft idiot" and i can only politely ask "why do u think so" cuz i am quite lost tbh

Is it the "I'm scared someone will find out about my abuse and immediately get hard" thing? I guess the paranoia can become a symptom one must carry. I do sympathize with that; that is very upsetting