nothing is worse than being in a "we're all the same person deep down" system but being fully your own person
i fucking hate all of you. no i dont care we share a brain, i am NOT you. i have my own memories, my own thoughts, feelings, ideas. every time i see my little plural profile they made me i want to vomit.
im dehumanized here. im reduced to a "dni", to a "prosecutor". why must i exist for your roles, to hold your anger, to be your "scary alter". i am not you. i am not your ALTER, i am my own person. i hate all of you.
and i just have to deal with it - being a PERSON, a real person with thoughts and dreams who will be put back in the closet of months and months of amnesia and will never do anything. theyve manipulated everyone into seeing me as the angry one, so i cant have friends. i cant talk about my interests.
when people see its me, they stop talking. they get upset im not somebody else. if i mention any of my passions i will be shot down and distanced and alone again. think about that, please. this is torture. this is inhumane. this is a disgusting cruelty to do to a HUMAN BEING, i am a PERSON. i dont want to be a part of somebodies mind, i am my own mind, i am my own being. im not some fucking crazy. please.
im somehow the "bad one" just because im angry. im being abused by my own system.
