"you can't be in (x) much pain, you're not crying!"
One time during a flare up, I cried from trying to get from my bed to the dining room table. I told my parents, I'm just so tired. I'm just in so much pain. They called my fucking psychiatrist. My psychiatrist who is known to try to convince me my physical disabilities are all from depression. My psychiatrist who has tried time and time again to force me on SSRIs to "help with my fatigue" when I have told her NO time and time again.
I cannot be vulnerable because, as a mentally ill person, they think I am being irrational. They say I am in a depressive episode, when really, I am reacting how any normal person would to debilitating pain and fatigue. Any person, regardless of mental health diagnosis, would be as upset as I am to be in the position I am in.
But no. Crying is irrational. Vulnerability is depression. Crisis is suicidality.
