mai i think dislikes babies but they like her a lot. also from a very very very very (unfortunate) young age she accepted bearing children as a non-negotiable part of her future so there’s both a sense of seamless resignation to it as well as disgust; this is why imo a pregnancy fic with her would be so interesting to explore. i want her to worry about being a horrible mother and i also want her to be a very flawed mother. i don’t want her to have a moment of ”ah, it was all worth it.” when she holds her baby for the first time. i don’t even necessarily want her to keep the baby. i want to explore what motherhood means for her and i want my fingernails to be dirty by the end of it because of how deep i dug to get there














