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[ofmiceandmenkissingincars-blog]

Finishing my answer to that anon.

What would you do if your ex the one you're in love with texted you on yalls 2yr anniversary and said "happy 2yrs" and yall weren't even together...? But, Yes I hurt myself more by giving into her, but you can't help that when you love someone and want to make them happy. She took the best of me, so I feel bad for whomever I'm with next. I will not be easy for me to let them in. What I did was held on to the beginning of our relationship, when I was the center of her attention. Id do anything to go back to when she was nervous to kiss me, hold my hand, or even talk to me. But shit happens. I was hoping the more I showed her that I cared and the more that I did for her she would realize something, maybe that she did love me or wanted to work things out. But really it only pushed her away but also kept her around for when she wanted something. Or maybe she's just to oblivious or scared to admit she loves me. Who knows. There's something, because when she's feeling a certain way she wouldn't text me about it. I know for sure no one will ever understand her like I do and if someone is lucky enough to understand her like I do, then they'll be just like me after they break up.. a year later, still loving her. Because the more I understood her and figured her out, the more I fell in love with her.

[rinality]

January 18, 2012 (Wednesday)

Justine wore his uniform for the 2nd time. It was my first time answering in the recitation in Discrete math. When our prof cracked a joke, we laughed. I accidentally looked at Justine's side. I dunno if it was just a coincidence, we had an eye contact. I guess he just happened to look at my side too.

Justine sent a good night group message. I replied to him "Ui pare ..", "Oy. Baket?", "Nagalit ka kanina?", "Hindi. May problema talaga ako kanina. Hindi yun dahil sa kanila.", "weh? haha. mga adik kasi yung 3 yun eh. pasensya na.", "wala yun. Sige, tulog na ako. Wala talaga ako sa mood. may problema talaga ako e. Good night.", "o'cge. Good Night." and yeah, our conversation ended.

[daisychaindoll]

1/18/12

Dreams are linked to reality. Even the crazy ones that don't seem to make sense. Dreams tell us what we want, what we need to do, and maybe even who we need to make things right with. Whatever your dreams tell you, figure out a way to make sense of them, whether it's through dream dictionaries, talking it out, or just reflecting on the past few days and seeing that maybe your dream was a wake up call that is trying to save you from hurting the one person that means the world to you.

Dreams are gifts. Don't take them lightly.

[ohlehdewwwit]

January 18, 2012.

today was a pretty good day. :)

got my online math class book from the bookstore.  found out my other books were at the HL campus, so whatevz.  i'll get it tomorrow.  returned the stuff at party city.  returned the stuff at price busters.  had literally almost two hours to kill.  drove out to "food heaven" in moanalua and ate at taco bell.  sat and listened to music for a good 40 minutes or so.  wanted to go to the carwash, but it was closed.  drove around to look for another one. said "fuck it," and went back and sat in the shade to listen to music and cruise.  then it was time for all-stars.  talked to liz and sherly about concert and whatever.  had an argument with jean's dad (that was pretty ridiculous, i must say).  had math for hw hour as always.  talked to hip hop about the rest of the school year and some other things.  made headshots groups.  tried to teach sweet dreams and monster, but it was a little harder than i expected.  played knockout for rhythmic expressions.  that was bomb.  some farringtonians came down to join us too.  yayyy!  then we had a meeting, which was wayyy longer than it needed to be.  had some laughs and whatever.  drove in west side rush hour traffic to get to headshots.  made appointments for 22 kiddies.  bahaha.  ate dinner at denny's with remar and trisha.  saw kunius prime.  then dropped the kids at home.  came home.  recounted the DD money we have.  reimbursed myself for all the things i bought for concert.  sent out headshots messages.  sent out messages regarding money that's owed to me.  and now i'm just tumbling before i have to start reorganizing my bag and wallet (because i'm using my new stuff and getting rid of old stuff).  woooooop!

yay for productivity :)  love it!