“as long as we argue the that means i still have feelings for you..so don’t be upset or afraid if my anger and my harsh words, they’re just a cover to the affection inside me”
Yo so I started this fic (“All the Things You Prayed For” on ao3) and now I’m on chapter 14 and I’ve been reading it for the last mayyyybe 3-ish hours and I should probably go to sleep because it’s nearly 2am now so ¯\_(🙃)_/¯ and goodnight
Also. Shoutout to @anonymousalchemist and @marywhal , ‘cause y’all’s fic is amazing so far
i am an astoundingly lonely person. i’m alone in my head. i’m alone in the morning. i’m alone at night. the air is cold, my bed is cold, time is cold. i want a person. anybody. somebody i can talk with, maybe then i’ll say something worth listening to. why do my hands lay idle? why must i read to myself? why do i dance alone? why is my only companion the girl who stares back at me in the mirror?
you ever sit back & realize how broken of a person you truly are bc of your entire life up until this point w/ nothing else to do about it except let it be what it is & know that youre gonna wake up tmw to live another day bc that's how it has to be .
i mean i’m also thinking about how my ex boyfriend doesn’t know a single good goddamn thing about me but that haunts me every night and the sea three are way more important
“Eren, don’t cry.” His hand reached up touching my face, soft skin wiping away the tear as it rolled down my cheek, “I’m just a guest like everyone else on this planet and my time is over. Accept what it is and let it go, don’t think about me…” Marble steel grey eyes stared up at me before slowly losing their strength to stay open for any longer.
“Wait! Captain, I have-” smooth, warm skin slowly lost it’s temperature as I held on tighter, “I have something to tell you..” It came out as a whisper as i realised that the body I held now was cold and lifeless and all I could do is let tears stream down my face again.
I opened my eyes to glowing red numbers displaying the time. 1:56am. Every night the same dream of a person I’ve never met before at the same time of night. I can never remember what I wanted to say or how we ended up there but the feeling of that person’s warmth was real and the vivid image of his face could never leave my brain. 1:56. I wonder why I woke up every night to the same glowing red numbers.
I closed my eyes and shivered as I remembered his voice. Why was I the one holding him and why didn’t I wanna let go? And why do I never get to finish that one dream? Maybe that’s it. Maybe it’s just nothing more than a stupid dream.
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I groaned as I opened my eyes to the sound of rain drops hitting against my window. I realised it was dark but the numbers displayed in front of me told me it’s time to get up. I was already dreading the day ahead and the weather surely would make it more difficult to deal with everything I have planned.
I lost my job not so long ago but you can’t blame me for having an old pervert as a boss (or ex-boss whatever). Who would decide to stay and deal with an oldy who purposely drops things for you to pick up just so they could stare at what’s down there? Well not me. He had that kick coming the moment I decided I’ve had enough and if you ask me, I honestly don’t regret it. I regret losing a job, yes, as I really need money at the moment but that kick was one thing I’d never regret. In fact it might of been the highlight of my experience working there.
But tonight it was different. I had a job interview (which by the way was hard enough to get) and I wasn’t prepared at all. I hated interviews and talking to people. Don’t get me wrong, I mean I’ve got my group of friends whom I love very much and I talk to people all the time, it’s not like I’m anti-social or anything. But being completely honest, if i had a choice to not speak to someone and get asked a bunch of questions I’m not ready for, I’d happily take that option and stay far away from the trouble. However, like I said before, I needed a job as soon as possible.
I got up and slipped my slippers on before standing up and stretching. I could already smell my mum’s cooking so I decided I’d better hurry up and shower. Wouldn’t want to miss an amazing breakfast now, would I?
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As I stepped a foot outside my house, I felt the sudden change of temperature from warm to freezing cold. I also noticed the rain as it started to pour and I shivered. At that moment I made the stupid decision to run instead of heading back for an umbrella. Only 10 minutes can’t be that bad, right? Wrong.
I ran as fast as I could towards the coffee shop where I normally met my friends, Mikasa and Armin. I decided it’ll be nice wasting a few hours with them to put my mind off the interview I’m having later and as a plus, Mikasa offered to give me a free ride there which is great. Surely she’ll help calm me down on the way there.
I didn’t realise I was finally near the coffee shop until I looked up and tried focusing on my surroundings. The rain made my vision a blur and just when my eyes started to focus, I felt myself bump into a smaller figure causing them to spill whatever they were carrying all over the floor as well as their clothes.
“Watch it, brat!”
“I’m sorry, si-” my words stuck in my throat as I recognised the familiar voice. I swallowed back as they looked up and I was met with those same eyes. The same eyes that looked like steely thunderstorms just waiting for someone to come along so they can strike. I was met with the same small frowning figure looking up at me and I felt my heart skip a beat. I suddenly was no longer aware of anything else other than the small man in front of me; it was as if the world stopped moving right that second. This is the same man. I guess you could say he’s…the man of my dreams…
Those dreams slowly started coming back to me. Dreams that are filled of memories from another time, another life. Dreams of a spark of warmth in a world infinitely colder and more cruel than this one. Dreams which caused an ache I have felt down to my bones for as long as I could remember. Does he also remember? Please remember.
“You better be able to pay for that.” He spoke again causing me to snap out of it and realise what was happening. No way he’d remember. Why would he remember that in the first place? I’m the crazy one here.
Before I knew what was happening, he was already pulling out a pen and paper before scribbling something and very roughly pushing it towards my chest, not waiting for me to grab a hold of it before pulling back his arm and pushing past me.
I looked down and stared at the paper to see numbers staring back at me before realising what i was looking at. How the fuck does one outfit cost that much and why would anyone wear that on a rainy day in the first place?! More importantly how am I going to pay for that?! I spun around looking for him but I was only met with umbrellas and people minding their own business. I looked back down at the paper and noticed another number under it, a phone number.
The same man I’ve always dreamed of disappeared like a speck of dust just as he always does when I wake up every morning at 1:56am.
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Author’s Note:
hey guys! Basically I just randomly decided I’d post this on Tumblr as well as wattpad because I just want more people to tell me their opinions on this.
I am clearly not the best writer out there and I’m still a beginner so I’d love to hear your feedback through comments, messages, asks or whatever. It would be amazing if you repost this or left a note and it’d mean a lot to me to have any sort of support.
Just like I did on wattpad, I’d like to credit @dreamxxdream because their work is amazing and it’s actually what somewhat inspired me to start writing this (I might’ve used like a few lines from their reincarnation au but dw I asked for permission). This fanfic is clearly not following the lines of their reincarnation au exactly as Levi did not react to seeing Eren the same way but their work is what really inspired me to actually start writing so yeah
If you want to read this on wattpad my account is @moavsiex and the story is called 1:56am just like on here! Thank You so much for reading!
