Jun 28, 2016
Ok so someone told me that the reason why I felt like I wasn't the "protagonist of my story" was bc I was dissociating, which is another symptom (?) of bpd fuck me
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Ok so someone told me that the reason why I felt like I wasn't the "protagonist of my story" was bc I was dissociating, which is another symptom (?) of bpd fuck me
2 Advil, 2 Tylenol and 2 ibuprofen Basically, I took double the recommended dosage for ibuprofen, and the normal dosage of Tylenol. The worst that could happen is being late for school or missing it entirely, so just stop worrying about me for now. I'm sorry to anyone I hurt or scared, I'm sorry I can't control myself anymore, I passed up the opportunity for bleeding out of my stomach, so at least be happy please. I'm going to bed. Also, 11 days until my parents meet with the person that they are considering as a councillor, so hopefully I can hang on until then :/ I'm sorry guys I'm trying my hardest
I don't want people to care about I me I don't want anyone to worry I've been trying so hard to just brush it off because it won't matter when I'm dead but please just leave me alone I can't handle life anymore and you are making it so hard to leave
I DONT FUCKING CARE IF YOU THINK IM "giving up" IM GPING TO TAKE ALL OF THEM IF SOMEONE DOESNT TELL ME WHAT I CAN AND CANNOT HAVE TOGETHER I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF LIVING IN ANGER AND FEAR AND SADNESS DO YOU REALLY THINK I GIVE A SHOT ABOUT WHAT ANYONE SAYS OR THINKS ABOUT ME ANYMORE? I DONT CARE IF YOU THINK IM A COWARD OR THAT IM GIVING UP BECAUSE I AM. I AM GIVING UP AND I AM A COWARD,
Friday, October 2, 2015
As each second goes by, I miss him and love him more and more. I’m thinking about him and missing him each second of every day. Honestly, it’s very painful. It’s so painful to miss someone and love someone with all of your entire being and not be able to be with them. But if you truly love someone, you will never give up on them. Even if they give up on you. I will never give up on him. I will never give up on us. Even if he has. But regardless of how I feel, what’s most important to me, and what always will be, is his happiness. Life is honestly too short to be anything besides that.
I loved that concert oh dear lord. It was AMAZING. Im so glad i went.
I bought a shirt and a poster plus i helped a girl lift their friend and it was honestly not a bad experience for a concert. I had a great time over all that i dont mind not being able to see 85% of the time
I cant sleep! Hayy
Bakit hindi ako makatulog, kakainis, pinipilit ko nman e, pero bakit ayaw, bukod sa masama ang pakiramdam ko gusto ko na din magpahinga para maaga ako magising, pero hindi parang kulang yung araw, parang sumaya ako nung umaga, kinilig ako hanggang hapon, pero bakit ang lungkot ngayong gabi, parang magkakasakit ako na sinabayan pa ng walang pwer knina kaya damng dama ko ung dilim at pagiisa. Sobrang natakot ako nung nag cr ako as in first time tumakbo after ko magcr, sabay kumot na sa kama na parang takot na takot. Hindi ko maintindhan, kung paano ko papasayahin or papakalmahin ang sarili ko. Hindi ko alam yung gusto ko. Hayyy. Its been a long time na din hindi ko nakakasama ang mga ibang mahal ko sa buhay, nakakamiss din silang makawkentuhan at maksama. 😔 Lord help me po.