#102415

[cripplinganxietydepressionhaha]

[barebonesxdryeyes-blog]

One of the hardest things I've ever done was to let you go. I hope to find you again some day but right now I'm too young and stupid to love you the way you should be loved. Why you chose me? I have no fucking idea. I'm a piece of shit who is scared of love and scared of being loved. I've been hurt so much that when someone is genuinely being nice to me and loves me, I fuck it up because I don't think I deserve it. Because I don't think I deserve you. How could I deserve you? The most beautiful girl I will ever see. Inside and out. I miss you every single day but I don't know how to love and you deserve all the love. How could I keep holding you down and not give you 100% of me? I can't give 100% at this time because I don't even have 100% of myself.. I'm fucked up and I know it. I just try to fix it by hiding it and lying to myself saying its not there when it is. My brokenness is there and I don't know how to fix it. When I figure out how, I'll let you know. I hope our story doesn't end here but that's in our futures hands, not mine.

[acutestyle]

10.24.15

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[oshdeluna]

Birthday of Nica 🎈

Saturday after work I went to Nepo mall to meet Sheena and Crik to buy Nica a cake. After that we went straight to Nica’s house. It was so epic that we walked from Malboro to Hacienda Royale because we thought it’s just near even though it’s too dark. Hahaha we were very paranoid while walking that something might happen to us. But thank god nothing did. ☺️

Jared volunteered to fetch us in front of the Subdivision so it’s okay that we just walked and didn’t rode a tricycle. So upon reaching Nica’s house a lot of batch mates are there of course and our other friends. Few hi-hello’s and How are you’s. More like of a reunion. 😂

Then we ate dinner already and the of course chitchats!! Missed this! ☺️ And Aivin came to fetch us so we went home already. 😁

(Wasn’t able to see Gidong since I went to Nica’s birthday and he also needed to attend a birthday party so we went separately. And also we’ll be seeing each other at the Market later.)

[booksandambitions]

10.24.15

I finally tackled some things and found that I wasn’t as bad at them as I had thought I was going to be.

-I worked on my SSI essay

-I studied four sections of math for my exam Monday

[ealfredo29blogs]

Someone special Sunday goes out to my cousin Nikki because it was an awesome night yesterday & she looked Great😀 #someonespecialsunday #Quince #specialday #102415 #GomezandEstradafamily (at Doubledays)

[asianmclovin]

[366sunsets]

I-235 #102415 #366sunsets (at Des Moines, Iowa)