I'm at about 10 and 1/2 weeks pregnant today! It's pretty crazy to know in just about a week and a half I'll be through the first trimester. I'm not going to pretend that this pregnancy has been great so far. It's honestly one of the hardest things to handle personally. Emotionally and physically things have been rough. Physically really has not been so horrible although I've been going through ALOT OF nausea. It's gotten slightly better, I don't throw up everyday now, honestly it's winding down to once every 4-5 days. I'm constantly tired which doesn't help that I don't really ever get good restful sleep. I pee like every 3 hours and that's weird. I have some food cravings but more food aversions? Although today I craved more pizza, fried chicken, and fried rice more then anything else. My skin got really good for a moment but with stress, not washing my face the days I wear makeup and going to sleep with it on, and hormones it's a mess of acne *loud sigh* my boobs (which already were big) have gotten considerably larger. I have the noise of a fucking German shepherd and I can smell any weird smell which doesn't help the nausea either. I know my belly is just growing from the baby, but honestly I just feel fat. I'm kind of ready for the bump so I don't have to feel so thick in the middle. Emotionally, it's a lot. I cry and am over emotional a lot which doesn't help me at all considering all things. It's hard to try and get over someone you once truly cared about while being pregnant with their child. But I have to do it. It's not an option, unless I want to be really really unhappy for the next year or two. If I can get over it now, I'll be able to handle the feelings that might be there when the baby is born and I'm forced to see a lot more of him, and try and be a sane parent with him. If I can get over it now, I might not even have those feelings. Other then that being a big emotional hot spot for me, I cry at some ridiculous things, like in movies when something great happens, I mean I would do that before with movies I loved but now it's like all movies and shows. I'm becoming way to enamored with baby's and toddlers in general. I just want to hold them and snuggle them up in my arms but I'd probably start crying after that. I had the little scare with the bleeding thing on Friday but I haven't bled at all since, which makes me feel a lot better because it was just a little. Not enough to make me believe I miscarried. My next appointment is March 12th so maybe I'll get to hear the baby's heartbeat clearer and for longer, and I hope that maybe I'll get another ultrasound (I'll keep my fingers crossed). I'm hoping for better feelings in all aspects once the second trimester hits and I'm really hoping my parents will get my room together, if nothing else but a bed frame because those whole mattress on a hard ground isn't doing it for me.