#11.09.13

[ahnandahn]

you're a butthole.

so i had a tiny bit of hope or err, more like wishful thinking that he would text me first over the weekend but obviously that didn't happen. so i texted him thirty minutes before the review session for linguistics. he didn't reply to me so i just went to the review session by myself. he then later texted me that he was at a review session for cs, which was nice. his text patterns are like mine so that's really cute. but yeah, i texted him back and he never texted me back and wow i don't think i've ever waited so long for a text message. every time my phone got a notification, i would get excited but just find out that it was something else and then get disappointed. i guess that's what it's like to have a crush? i don't know, this is my first actual time? except i'm confused about how to feel because maybe he actually is a jerk. but then again what if i'm accusing him but he's actually injured and lying in a hospital somewhere or something. or maybe his battery just died? ......sigh, my imagination gives me too many different ideas that i can't come to a conclusion. i'm just going to give myself the best thing for me and say that he's a jerk and try to forget. he probably didn't want to be my friend in the first place. you're still a butthole though.

on the other hand, i got an A on my linguistics essay so that's nice.

[takingbackpaula]

From Fitbit Flex to Fitbit One

I have a Fitbit Flex that I love. But. I can’t wear it on my clinical days. And I have found that the less I wear it, the less I pay attention to it. Sad days. I’ve decided to get a Fitbit One. That way I can have it with me at clinicals and I won’t be in the habit of not thinking about it. The Mister has expressed interest in my Flex. He wants it for sleep tracking purposes at the moment. I think that once work slows down for him (he’s consistently putting in 70+ hour weeks for the last month or so) he may use it for tracking steps and whatnot as well. About a week ago he put up Post-It notes to “Run.” So the desire to exercise is there, he just has a complete lack of time and energy. I think that he’ll really like the Flex once he’s used it and is not spending 12-15 hours per day at work. Or when his work week goes back down to 5 days instead of 6-7.

[castelli-di-sabbia]

11.09.01

Ricordo perfettamente quel momento. Non era ancora iniziata la scuola, ma entrambi i miei genitori avevano già ripreso a lavorare. Nono potendomi lasciare a casa da sola, mio padre mi portò da lui in caserma.  Dopo pranzo era andato a letto per riposare un po' ed io ero rimasta con i suoi colleghi, che erano molto gentili e simpatici con una bambina piccola come me. Uno di loro impose agli altri di mettere la televisione sui "Simpson", perchè a tutti i bambini piacciono i "Simpson", ed io ero un'ospite quindi ci siamo messi tutti a guardare quei mostri gialli che facevano ridere.

Ma ad un certo puntò squillò il cellulare, era la moglie di uno dei colleghi, che dopo aver risposto mi guardò e disse: "Scusa piccola" . Prese il telecomando e cambiò canale.

Rimasero tutti pietrificati. Bocche spalancate, orrore negli occhi, frasi sconnesse. Io non riuscivo bene a capire. Vedevo solo fumo nero. 

Non ricordo molto da lì in poi. So solo che in qualche modo mi fu spiegato, o forse capii da sola che era un momento brutto. Talmente brutto che neanche i "Simpson" potevano risollevare l'animo.

Probabilmente nessuno degli interessati leggerà questo post, ma sono vicina alle famiglie che hanno perso i propri cari quel giorno mostruoso. A coloro che sono sopravvissuti, ma portano dentro di se gli orrori, la paura e gli incubi di quel giorno. A coloro che non riescono a darsi pace. Ai passeggeri degli aerei e ai lavoratori degli uffici, tutti quanti, senza distinzioni. Sperando che possiate vivere almeno qualche momento di serenità, qui sulla Terra o dovunque voi siate adesso.