seen from United Kingdom
seen from France
seen from Panama
seen from Germany
seen from Malaysia
seen from Malaysia
seen from Panama
seen from United States
seen from Switzerland
seen from Malaysia
seen from Belarus
seen from Switzerland
seen from Panama
seen from India
seen from Switzerland
seen from United States
seen from Iraq
seen from Panama
seen from United States
seen from Russia
Happiness should be in reach
so close that I feel the heat radiating off my fingertips
It’s beyond my grasp
Is it light that I will never be able to touch?
If I make towards it, will I cast shadows on myself from trying?
Flames that burn upon contact?
A treasure that is not for my life?
It’s such a mystery
and this is such a pity party
but somehow
I feel that this is all a fault of my own.
Nov. 21, 2015
tba
Saturday, November 21, 2015
It’s been exactly 6 months since I’ve last seen him. I remember when I could see him nearly every single day. Oh, how I cannot even begin to describe how much I miss him and how much I love him. I truly hope he’s happy and smiling. I hope he’s staying careful and staying warm. Oh, how I miss his warmth soooooooooooo much. Anyone that gets to see his smile, hear his voice, hear his laugh, are honestly, seriously, the luckiest people on earth. I just wish I was lucky as well. I just wish I could have my Best Friend back... :’(
So I finally met my big brother today. My unofficial big brother, Josh. My older friend from Cali that I told you about. He treated me to lunch and we hung out for a few hours before he met up with his other friends. But before he left, I hugged him goodbye, and the way he hugged me back reminded me of how yours arms felt that night... and I stayed there, just hugging him, and I almost cried into his jacket, heh. I tell him about us, and he knows how hard it is for both of us, and I guess I was shaking thinking about you cause he started to hold me tighter. Later at dinner with APO, we were all buzzed and singing karaoke, and my voice was cracking while singing to a you that wasn't there... I really wish you were.... you could've sung so many duets with me.. I miss you..... Note to self: being drunk isn't a good thing when you're depressed....
I got a lap dance tonight. Very weird.
I wish I would of been a little more chill.
