066 /// 13.03.2026
I love my job and am having fun today :-)
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066 /// 13.03.2026
I love my job and am having fun today :-)
There is a moment in every empath’s life That no one notices It isn’t loud It isn’t dramatic It isn’t announced It is silence And when an empath goes quiet It’s already over...
Silence is rarely the beginning of an empath’s withdrawal It is the end of an emotional journey that most people never see Before the quiet comes effort Before the detachment comes devotion Empaths are deeply invested in the people they care about Their minds are wired for attunement They notice micro-expressions, subtle shifts in tone And the emotional temperature of a room They sense what is spoken and what is withheld Because of this sensitivity Empaths often overfunction in relationships They anticipate needs before they are voiced They apologize for tensions they didn’t create They adjust their behavior to preserve harmony But without strong boundaries Empathy slowly becomes self-sacrifice They begin carrying emotional weight that was never theirs to hold At first they communicate They explain how something felt They try to repair misunderstandings They hope that if they express themselves clearly enough The other person will meet them with the same depth When that doesn’t happen they try again Softer. Then clearer. Then with visible hurt. Emotional exhaustion doesn’t come from one argument It grows through repeated moments of being unheard, dismissed or minimized Over time the empath’s nervous system stays on alert Constantly scanning for connection and repair When repair never comes Devotion slowly becomes depletion Eventually the empath recognizes the painful truth: The emotional exchange is unequal They are pouring empathy Into someone who cannot or will not reciprocate This realization hurts deeply Because empaths believe in growth, in conversation, in healing Letting go feels like failure So they stay longer than most people would But the body keeps score Chronic emotional strain leads to an internal shutdown They stop initiating difficult conversations They stop correcting misunderstandings They stop explaining their hurt Not because they no longer care But because speaking no longer feels safe or effective Silence becomes a boundary when words no longer work To others it may look like distance or moodiness In reality it is a nervous system choosing stability over chaos By the time silence appears The relationship has already shifted internally The empath has moved from hope to acceptance They begin to understand that empathy without reciprocity Becomes self-abandonment And once that awareness settles in Their quiet is not confusion It is clarity. Before an empath leaves physically they often grieve the relationship privately They replay conversations They question themselves They search for ways things could have been better But when patterns repeat… When apologies change nothing, when promises fade When emotional availability remains inconsistent Reflection slowly turns into realization And realization becomes grief Not grief for a person’s absence But grief for the relationship That never became what they hoped it could be Empaths attach not only to who someone is But to who they believe that person could become Letting go of potential Can hurt even more than letting go of reality So they grieve quietly They grieve the conversations that never happened The effort that wasn’t matched The intimacy that felt one sided This grief often happens while they are still present Still smiling. Still responding. But internally they are loosening their attachment Their expectations lower Their emotional investment becomes cautious By the time an empath finally withdraws They have already processed the disappointment That is why their silence Can feel sudden to others But it was never sudden It was gradual acceptance And once an empath accepts That their emotional needs will not be met Persuasion loses its power Promises feel late Dramatic gestures feel reactive Because internally The goodbye has already happened When an empath grows quiet You are not witnessing confusion You are witnessing completion They are no longer fighting for the relationship They are returning to themselves…
March 13, 2026
13.03.2026 Harry is MIA / Louis is MIA
[L via Insta story, and via Twitter (X/X) and answering fans (X/X/X/X), likes SoccerAids Insta post]
I am going to make a midnight meal now and I will *not* fuck it up. I will eat a good meal and I'll be happy about it
I am happy about the really good tea I drank today
I am so tired rn
I am happy about being brave. I am continuing to take on my fears of being alone at night in the dark, of being afraid of the shadow creature that actually totally exists. I am brave ^^
Sabah zar zor ayıldım, saçım bir türlü şekil almadı filan ama en sonunda hallettim. Kombinim çok tatlıydııı, bir sürü iltifat aldım. Sabah 8 ben yanlışlıkla yanlış binaya gitmişim. Ya bakıyorum o derslik asla yok. Merdivenleri in çık. Sonradan fark ettim ki yanlış yerdeyim. Tekrar asıl gitmem gereken yere yürüdüm ve derse baya geç kaldım. Bu derse daha ilk defa girebildim. İlk hafta zaten evdeydim, ikinci hafta o diploma çevirisi mevzularıyla uğraştım. Bu hafta artık gitmek zorundaydım. Hocası yaşlı bi adamdı. O kadar zarif ve güler yüzlüydü ki sabah kendimi çok kötü hissediyordum. Hoca boyle güzel davranınca hüngür hüngür ağlamak istedim. Lady and gentelmen diyo hep ahahahah. Adımı doğru telafuz etmek için çok uğraştı, çok duygulandım ya. Tertemiz bir insan gibiydi böyle enerjisi. Yaşı da baya büyük. Dede vibe veriyor. Sakince anlatıyordu, çok zarif biriydi, çok sevdim. Burada dersler lecture, lab ve practice diye ayrılıyor. Lectureda hoca anlatıyor, labda kod yazılıyor, practicede de soru çözümü, serbest çalışma ya da sunum. Her biri haftada 2 saat. Lecture bitince kahve molası vericem size dedi. Gidip kahve için ve kendinize gelin filan. Ben peki nereden kahve alabiliriz deyince bizi o binanin kafeteryasına kadar götürdü😭😭😭😭😭😭. Sonra ben bu kahveyi Lehçe sipariş ettim, hic İngilizce konuşmadan aldım. Önce ne istediğimi söyledim, sonra içerde ya da takout diye sordu, onu da cevapladım, sonra teşekkür edip ödedim 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. Kadın yabancı olduğumu biliyordu ben sipariş verebilince tebrik etti zuanxauxnsi çinli arkadaşım da woaaaahh yaptı xusndjsndjsndjsjd. Ay çok güzeldiiiiiii. İçtiğim en iyi kahve ilan ediyorum. Tastes like successss🥺🥺🥺. Sonraaaaa yeni biri gelmiş sınıfa onun evrak işlerine yardım ettik. O arada bana mail geldi öğrenci kartınız hazır diye. Öğrenci kartımı almaya gittim. Verdiklerinde o kadar duygulandım ki ya ah. Sonra yurda gelip hızlıca bi makarna yaptım ve yedim. Birazdan kütüphaneye gideceğim. Yetiştirmem gereken tonlarca proje var. Gece kareoka partisi var eğer o zamana kadar ölmezsem ona da katılacağım. Geçen gunki partide bunların çilekli tekila shotlarını denemiştim yine ondan istiyorumxjsndjsm. Çinli arkadaşımı da ikna ettim pazar günü okul binasının önünde foti çekimi yapıp linkedine salıcaz🤞🤞. Ay kütüphaneye de ilk defa gideceğim. Şehir merkezindeymiş bakayım nasıl olacak kart filan gerekiyor mu bilmiyorum. Koskoca şehirde 2 3 tane kütüphane var ve insanlar hiç çalışmıyor gerçekten. Bazen bizim emeklerimize o kadar üzülüyorum ki. Türkiyedeki gençler ciddi manada masa başında dirsek çürütüyor. Buradakilerin rahatlığını ve umursamazlığını gördükçe hem üzülüyorum hem de şartlarımıza sinirleniyorum.