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[whisperinglillies]

Lavender is associated with my favorite memory of you. On our first date, you took me to a lavender field where we could pick our own lavender in baskets. This is my favorite place on earth, you told me with a big grin, because lavender is the happiest colour. I had never thought of associating lavender with happiness, it had always been yellow for me. You turned my sun purple that day. Suddenly, I began to see everything in lilacs and violets.

After you were gone, I couldn't smell lavender without crying. I threw away every purple thing in the house. Your name was a cotton ball in my throat that I could neither swallow nor spit out. It was as if someone had taken a spoon and scooped out the flesh of the sun, leaving only the edges; a purple ring, stacked with your name. I'm standing at your grave, with a basketful of lavenders I picked from your favorite place, and as I plant them all around your tombstone, a purple streak slowly burns through the sky. We loved with a love so loud it could fill a whole room. Now, the rest of my life must be lived in silence.

-Rupali Jeganathan (@whisperinglillies) • Lavender

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[absinthetears]

B I R D  B O N E S

The world has dropped dead, Come over.   Come break my hollow bird bones, Pull out the feathers and dislocate wings. I think I've got nowhere to fly anymore. 

This world has been cracking us open Like bloody cherries on a hot summer day.   Fingers tearing the flesh of the fruit to expose   Tender bones and spilling red juice.   Red, like blood and like hearts.   Dislocate my wings, just like I dislocate   Every beautiful thing that falls within my reach.  

Come break my hollow bird bones. I've been born with a terrible wanderlust, But years have taught me that this is not it, For what I call wanderlust sounds more Like what people tend to call a deathwish. Also not it.   Let's start over: a getaway.   A getaway from thoughts that prey on my flesh, A getaway in the form of strangers and cigarettes.   Rome happened again in Berlin and in Paris,   Waking up to caress a face I'll never attach a name to, Another bouquet of flowers to mask the ashtray scents In a hotel room where it says it's forbidden to smoke.  

The world has dropped dead, The world where I strengthened my wings   And promised that I'll never settle down,   That I'll never keep anything and expect it to last.   Disposing of favorite shoes and elegant porcelain cups Because it's time to go, time to go again.  

The world as I knew it dropped dead.   I don't think I need my wings anymore. I might never settle down Or keep my porcelain cups, But I'm done with the getaway.   I faked my death and changed my name For the evil voices that used to call it.  

Pull out the feathers and dislocate wings. The dreamworld is finally quiet.  

[madelinescatharsis]

here are some random facts about me:

the first time i ever wrote anything, i was seven

and i changed the lyrics of the hyms they taught

in my catholic school.

this was also the year i had my first ever crush;

he was a boy who sat

on the desk behind me.

on my ninth birthday i went to school

wearing a pair of pretty white heels

that were too small for me and when a

teacher noticed me walking painfully,

i said i was okay.

that was also the year i finished most 

of dickens’ work and subsequently got 

sick of his characters forever.

i was twelve the first time i really

got obsessed with a book

and wondered if it would be a good idea

to kill myself;

thirteen when i first cried

over a boy. 

i had seen him with another girl

and i also had a sprained ankle

but one clearly hurt more than the other.

i was fourteen when i had my first kiss

which was truly nothing special

and sixteen when i was told for the first time

that my poetry was too painful and

much older than i was.

that was also the age when i thought 

about what it would be like to kill myself

for the second, third and the 

five hundreth time.

now, at seventeen, sometimes 

i still find myself forcing out laughter

and excitement at some things

my friends say and i still

wish i didn’t cry so easily

and stopped thinking in philosophy

that is beyond my years.

but i no longer reply to

“how are you?” with “good”

when i’m not and i’ve

learnt to stop carrying burdens

that are not mine and i

try to be grateful and keep faith in 

my god and i now know that 

arguments can end with

“i respect your opinion even 

if it’s not mine”

but above all, i have learnt this:

the universe is always watching

and i am in good hands.

[followcb]

Beautiful Butterfly

here, take my hand, take my love, take my...

stars to keep you brilliant company

the sun to light the moon at night

arms to engulf, surround and hold you tight

golden skies to set the world right, tonight

here, please be gentle, my love, as i give you

this heart, this trust that has been broken too

many times, let your warmth shield me from

this endless winter's night,

let the obsidian

darkness be pierced by your light,

let the warmth of your love

surround me as night

surrenders to dawn

here, between my fingers, my trembling hands,

my grasp

might I keep you free to be the beautiful

butterfly, you are, without a clasp

born from a dormant cocoon of love

your kisses alight my lips, flutter my heart

like stained-glass wings

your angelic magic is a choir that sings

let us be united with twin emerald rings

here, nestled in this heart, our nascient hopes

grow, while the color of a thousand rainbows

dance through the leaves as we lie together

under the sky, free to love, free to soar

together, oh my love, hold me tight, bring your

lips to mine, seal with a kiss what has been

yours from the start ,

when you ignited this fire in my heart,

the first time you took my hand

never to part

here, in this dream within reality, love

is every drop as magnificent as it seems

emotional passion between you and me

high together, floating, soaring naturally

stars and moons, sunset skies ignite fiery seas

spending the splendor of foreverness

hearts entwined for eternity

This is a first collaboration between:

@heartofmuse & @followcb

Copyright March 20, 2020

I'm blessed to have had this opportunity to write alongside the amazingly talented and super-kind Eva:))

[autumnsunshine10]

We do not have to talk every day or even at regular intervals for me to hold you dear and near to my heart. Once special to me, you always will be...unless you have treated me so rottenly I have had to perform surgery to excise you from my life, like taking scissors to trim a best-forgotten figure from pictures.

But time and distance? Ha, they are nowhere near strong enough to erase anyone's place in my book of love.

Mis(s)placed

[pplaidshirt]

Ending Lines

.

As the anvil weighs harder on my chest

With each passing moment I know

I will never find the moment that's best

To scream into the brimming void

And let everyone know that it's high time I let go.

.

Let go of the bonds that connect me

To infinitely entangled phantom lines

Which apparently only I can see.

The knotted strings hang above the crowd

Invisible to the unsuspecting people walking around.

They will someday walk into the noose

Bringing yet another story to a close

Whose ending they didn't get to choose.

.

The realization of every fatal end

Gets me closer to ideas of insanity

Where it'd get impossible to pretend

That I don't see everyone around me dead.

The sunken faces which I can't get myself to forget

The eyes filled with sorrow, misery and regret.

.

My own piece of wire used to hang loose around my neck

But recently it has slowly started to tense.

Constraining my veins blue

Challenging me to save myself

While there still is something possible to do.

I would let go of every end that tie my fingers together

Only if I could make sure I will be out of this treacherous cycle forever.

.

~ aranya

[dolores-hazy]

Sunken ship

I am an anchor

Barnacled bulk

Dragging down

You attested I kept you

Afloat, sailing toward

Shores of gold gleaming sand

I said that was all you

It is all you

I only cheered you on

Believed in you, still do

Always will because you

Are more incredible than

You know and I hope you

Can forgive me for

Never learning to

Swim

Unmoored

[nikithathampy]

May be there is no future for us, no happily ever after,

It's not in your fate to love me for the rest of your life perhaps,

It's not in my destiny to bind us together in trust, happiness and bliss,

But neither this destiny nor this fate, future are obligations of my love.

I love you now, this very moment ,when I say you mean the world to me,

I loved you in my yesterdays when my nights were spent in sweet memories of you,

I will love you in every tomorrow to come even if all the love runs out of me, rendering me incapable to feel.

Every minute I succumb to will have your name in my breath,

Even if I'll hate you for not standing by, I'll still love you for choosing to lose

Even if the world will hammer this love to smithereens, my heart will still beat endlessly for you,

And if a day comes where my love will disappear from within, I'll believe it has all come resided in you.

~nt

_ If all this love runs out of me _