Enough
I could be hurt
Or angry
Or sad
Because it was something new
New information that I didn’t already know deep down
But it wasn’t
I always knew we were meant to be something
But sometimes that something isn’t forever
That something isn’t necessarily a relationship
Or a lifelong fight
Sometimes it’s just a lesson
Right now it’s a little hard to see
Just what the lesson from this is exactly
Besides that I need to stop jumping in too early
Allowing myself to be happy before I know what’s happening
Letting myself feel what I want
Because that’s a luxury that is hard to come by
And is very rarely a good idea
That’s not to say that you’re a bad idea
Just allowing myself to see a happiness
That was never actually there
You’re not entirely correct about everything you say
Being broken doesn’t mean you’re worthless
It doesn’t mean you can’t love someone
Because we’re all broken
In all our different ways
Some of us are more noticeably broken than others
And it shows when we allow ourselves to feel
Whether that’s happiness or pain or whatever
Don’t mistake your brokenness for lack of value
You’re still worth everything
And you deserve the world
Something I can’t give you, but I’ve accepted that
Someday you’re going to find the one who can
And when you do, it won’t feel like being tied down
It will be stability
Not an anchor to keep you stuck where you are
But to keep you on the ground as you roam
You’ve made me happier than anyone ever has
And for that, thank you
All I want from you
Is what you want to give me
You don’t want commitment
So I don’t expect it
That was different in the beginning, before I understood
All I want is for you to be happy
And often that comes across the wrong way
And for that, I’m sorry
I’m territorial because I can actually see your worth
And selfishly want to keep you to myself
But that’s not you
And that’s not me
And wherever we go from here
I just want you to know
Whether you believe me or not
You are enough
You deserve all the love in the world whenever you choose to look for it
I will be here for you in whatever you choose to do in life
Whether that involves me in any way or not
I’m sorry for letting my emotions get in the way of us
And that I expected more than you could give without realizing it
But for now
Please just hold me
Because even though it won’t end in a relationship
I love spending time with you
I love getting to be a dingus with no judgment
I love our random noises
And even if we keep it platonic
That’s totally fine
Because all I’ve ever wanted was you
It was never about the kisses
Or getting to stay over
Or borrowing your clothes
It was you
And that’s more than enough