To My Youth
Translated into English from 나의 사춘기에게 by Bolbbalgan4.
나는 한때 내가 이 세상에 사라지길 바랬어 At some point in my life, I used to wish that I was gone from this world 온 세상이 너무나 캄캄해 매일 밤을 울던 날 The whole world seemed so dark and I cried every night 차라리 내가 사라지면 마음이 편할까 Will I feel better if I just disappeared? 모두가 날 바라보는 시선이 너무나 두려워 I was so afraid of everyone's eyes on me
아름답게 아름답던 그 시절을 난 아파서 During those beautifully beautiful days, I was in pain 사랑받을 수 없었던 내가 너무나 싫어서 I hated myself so much for not being able to receive love 엄마는 아빠는 다 나만 바라보는데 My mom and my dad, they're only looking at me 내 마음은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가 It's not how I really feel, my heart keeps getting further away
어떡해 어떡해 어떡해 어떡해 What do I do? What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
시간이 약이라는 말이 내게 정말 맞더라고 The saying time is medicine was really true for me 하루가 지나면 지날수록 더 나아지더라고 As the days went by, I really did get better 근데 가끔은 너무 행복하면 또 아파올까 봐 But sometimes when I'm too happy, I'm afraid I'll be in pain again 내가 가진 이 행복들을 누군가가 가져갈까 봐 I'm afraid that someone will take away this happiness I have
아름다운 아름답던 그 기억이 난 아파서 Those beautifully beautiful memories were so painful 아픈 만큼 아파해도 사라지지를 않아서 I hurt to the point where I could hurt no more but the pain wouldn't go away 친구들은 사람들은 다 나만 바라보는데 My friends, all these people, they're only looking at me 내 모습은 그런 게 아닌데 자꾸만 멀어만 가 This isn't how I really am but I keep getting further away
그래도 난 어쩌면 But still, maybe I could be 내가 이 세상에 밝은 빛이라도 될까 봐 A bright light in this world 어쩌면 그 모든 아픔을 내딛고서라도 Maybe even after going through all that pain 짧게 빛을 내볼까 봐 I can shine a light even if it's short 포기할 수가 없어 So I couldn't give up 하루도 맘 편히 잠들 수가 없던 내가 The me that couldn't fall asleep peacefully for a single night 이렇게라도 일어서 보려고 하면 Because maybe if I keep trying to stand up like this 내가 날 찾아줄까 봐 I might be able to find myself
얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까 How painful must it have been? 얼마나 얼마나 아팠을까 How painful must it have been? 얼마나 얼마나 얼마나 바랬을까 How much did I hope for it?
