Yesterday we started our second journey to make a little one. My mantra of the day has been "don't google...just don't google anything."
Today has been a great day with a weird twist. M and I went in town to search for a new mattress so we can get our guest room set up (hopefully because we'll need it soon). Then we found some decorations for our home.
Symptom wise, today I have a horrible sinus headache. I have been struggling with my sinuses for the past few weeks now and it has been horrible. I woke up this morning with slight cramping, probably still from the IUI and had some watery CM. All day today I've just felt tired and annoyed of my headache, but I highly doubt it has anything to do with the IUI that occurred barely 24 hours ago.
When we got home from running errands I decided to take an ovulation test just to make sure we had the right timing yesterday. It was mainly to reassure myself that everything went smoothly. Except it was positive???
To break this down. Thursday, I had a positive at 12:30, again at 1:15ish and then a negative later at about 3:30. I did not test yesterday because we were very confident that I was ovulating. But then...I tested today at about 4:30 and it was positive.
It feels like such a disappointment, and it makes me ask questions. Did we actually get the timing right? I just don't know. I was hoping to reassure myself and reality took the opportunity to smack me in the face. What else were we supposed to do when we saw a positive ovulation test? We're just hoping it was some weird fluke. Maybe the tests are sensitive to LH? That could be good or bad... Who knows.
Everything in me wants to google and look at message boards, but M is helping me stay in check. Remember the mantra! I will not google. I will let my body do the work.
If it's meant to be, it will be.