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[nimphelos]

ok one more uinen post

[rustbeltbabey]

What the fuck is narwhal pro-choice ??? narwhals can get abortions?

[nimphelos]

sorry for not sharing anything interesting in ages. i’ve been art blocked for 8 weeks. 🥲

[ridechemy]

vent…? Kind of? I don’t know. I’m feeling a lot about this again and I really shouldn’t be saying any of this considering almost everyone I know likes who this about

I hate to post about That again but I can’t help but feel like I should’ve been more mad at my ex friend. Fucker repeatedly violated my boundaries again and again: I didn’t want to talk because I was upset at him (because it is all things considered perfectly normal to get mad at friends, and I did not wish to take out my anger on him), but he insisted that I must talk to him to resolve it.

Every time he tried to “resolve” it, it just consisted of him telling me how I was essentially defective, and how I ought to improve my demeanour and be a little kinder and a little less passive aggressive and a little less monoscopic and all things considered a little less autistic.

He let his darling best friend get away with being outright rude but I was always too passive aggressive. Too mean, even. I try to avoid being mean to people even when I dislike them, because I do not find my meanness and anger to productive, healthy, or conductive to the safety of others. I would constantly pull myself by the hair back in order to avoid being too mean to him but I was ALWAYS too mean to him no matter what I did.

The last argument I ever had with him was essentially telling him that he was inconsistent with an incredibly minor piece of information, and parting once that had been resolved even though he insisted I must have some kind of personal issue I was hiding from him. I was at most kind of annoyed at him for ghosting me for a month on end in DMs as he talked to several of our other friends on the daily, but I kept my mouth shut, because that was not truly an issue rather than a personal grievance, and I should not be mean.

His response to all of that and me then blocking him— no mean insults hurled at him before blocking him, no heated argument, nothing— was to go and mock me in private, try and isolate me from my friends by making me look incessantly bad, and trying to berate my friend into getting me to talk or explaining what I did. All of that solidified my choice to leave. I am glad I left when I did. I don’t want to see how he acts now considering he refuses to reconcile that he has hurt other people, and refuses to seek help of any kind, whether it be professional or just being told he’s going too far.

I should not be mean, but I really almost hope he suffers immensely if he continues to parade himself in the manner he did when I knew him.

[of-moths-and-doves]

SIGH

[cyprejyo]

i might make some generic merch so i can start making vtubers again. i miss my digital goobers, i shrimply am out of funds to pay for it.

[frankoceanwater]

tbh to be honest no one wanted my opinion on the Ace Discourse but cishet aces dont belong in lgbt+ spaces like. asexuality/romanticism isnt a sexuality its ur lack of drive for those things 

[grlrose]

I'm sorry u feel so isolated, did ur friends do something? Anywho I hope u feel better and sometimes just talking to them helps

its not really any of my friends, u don’t have to worry,, i took a nap and it’s cold and raining i feel nice