#2-14-21

[sudokumaze]

Drew Sakaido for Valentine’s Day :33

[myystorysofar]

Gosh I love that man 🥰 He makes me feel so loved in a way I haven’t felt before. The little things are what matter the most to me and I love how we are together.

He gave me the sweetest card/gift for Valentine’s Day, we couldn’t dine in anywhere so he made us sushi at his house. We drank, we laughed, we stayed up till 4 am goofing off and having a great time.

We got a little bit drunk and I took picture in his hat as he was singing to me. My heart melted. He’s the sweetest, and I feel so loved. Not only did we have a great Valentine’s but just a great time together, just us 2.

[releasingkelly]

Shiiiiiit dawg. I've been trying to figure out for a miiin why i have such a hard time being seen and showing myself but i just fucking realized it's bc when i was a kiddo i would cope by hiding where i wouldnt be found (closets, under the bed, side of the bed) and being alone and then i would get sad and tell myself no one loved me or cared about me and like wow. No wonder i have issues w beinng seen. I literally would hide to feel safe, so exposing myself feels unsafe. Wow wow wow wow wowwww. The answers really ARE simple. (Also I'm not even high. What a bonus))

[releasingkelly]

Lol why do i even have mutuals if none of them are gonna support me (like my posts). Unfollow unfollow unfollow. Done giving energy and getting absolutely nothing back.

This rlly is coming from somewhere huh. Better heal that

[daydreamsofbeautiful]

Damn. You got cuter. I'll never understand how the heart works. Why it can hold on to the tiniest sliver of emotion. Why bring it up just as I'm about to fall asleep but be silent all day? I mean they've been out of my life for years and I've expressed several times that we don't know eachother, that we have both likely grown so much we would be unrecognizable. Maybe it's because they were a light in a VERY dark part of my life. Maybe it's because that was my last serious relationship. Maybe its because that was the first time "I love you" actually had meaning. I don't think I'll ever know or understand. The only thing I do know is that I don't want certain people back in my life. I don't want to comb through the lies and give explanations. I don't want the anxiety a repeat in history would cause.

[callmenaex3]

I’m not the type to ignore when the vibes or feelings are off. I know not everyone likes to talk things out and rather sweep it under the rug. I’m not that person. I’m very straight forward I’m not the passive type. I can only hold my thoughts in for so long.