#2.18.19

[alltheselights]

the people who work at the late late show not knowing the title of julia and niall’s song is exactly the level of dumbassery i’d expect from them

[missinvisibleandco]

"Day By Day/ Minute By Minute"

(2.18.19)

[edo-vivendum]

2.18.19

So guys, something really cool just happened.

I was chillin with my friend R after class, and her friend from class also came over. We were all chilling, half studying, me eating my lunch, for a bit (excuse my grammatical structure please). And after a bit, there was something about him that just seemed familiar, and I got that feeling like I knew him. He had mentioned some mutual friends from the high school R and I went to, so I thought for a bit he was probably a grade above or below me. Then it hit me, so I asked his name, and sure enough, my guess was right—he went to my middle school. He wasn't exactly the nicest kid to me in sixth grade, but he was far from the worst.

Once we realized the connection, he was like, "is your name Molly?"

And he said "people were pretty mean to you then" and I was like, "yea", and he's like "was I ever?" and I was like "idk, tbh probably" (he was tbh, but he'd been nice through this whole conversation and so I was just trying to be honest but not rude about it). and then he says, "if I ever was, I'm sorry" and that was pretty cool that he just like, acknowledged it and apologized like that. I thanked him and told him it was okay, that he was just a kid and I'd forgiven the kids but was mostly just mad at the administration who just let it happen. He nodded in understanding and said something about how he had a similar experience at a different school (takes a bully to make a bully). Anyways... The whole situation was really powerful to me.

I texted my friend R afterwards to say, "It honestly meant alot to me that he acknowledged people were mean to me and apologized for any involvement he had with that. I struggle alot with telling myself it wasn't that bad, and I was just dramatic and overly sensitive, so to hear someone else acknowledge that ppl were mean to me was incredibly validating and I rlly appreciated him saying that."

I just.... I feel really emotional right now, but not in a bad way. I'm really grateful that he acknowledged it. I've run into people who've bullied me before, and he, by far, handled it the best. Granted, he was really more of a kid on the side who just sort of cheered on the bullies, but still... It's all about the same if we're being real.

(the other two incidents were 1-the kid saying hey and acting like we were friends which is awkward af but I did pretend like we were friends in 4th/5th grade after i finally stood up to him, and 2-the kid just being like "haha u used to be so annoying it's cool that ur not anymore" which is... Not nice.)

Anyways, I respect that he apologized for and acknowledged the pain I endured. It was extremely validating. Like, powerfully so. I spend alot of time doubting myself and my story tbh, and this feels like strong evidence that it was real.

[igotatinyneostay-blog]

the8: so seungkwan sneezed earlier and I said, "shut the fuck up" instead of, "thank you"

Vernon: . . . how does that even happen??

[dmsilvisart]

art to do 2.18.19

My kids are off school today.

It’s an emotional up and down day again here (for me, the kids are fine lol)

I’m like

and then

and then

and unfocused as all get out, like a dog in a room of tennis balls!

So I’m making tea, stoking the fire, waiting for a friend to stop by to pick up a computer disk, then hoping I come back in an hour or refocused and ready to color some bang artwork.  Cuz i’ve done almost nothing so far today and i’m fighting cabin fever BAD.

How can one have cabin fever but not want to leave cuz it’s snowing at the same time

[you-are-my-neverland]

2.18.19–clouds

[itsmyonlydaytobefancy]

I am SAD AND I DONT FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING BUT SLEEP AND COMPLAIN

[edo-vivendum]

2.18.19

So guys, something really cool just happened.

I was chillin with my friend R after class, and her friend from class also came over. We were all chilling, half studying, me eating my lunch, for a bit (excuse my grammatical structure please). And after a bit, there was something about him that just seemed familiar, and I got that feeling like I knew him. He had mentioned some mutual friends from the high school R and I went to, so I thought for a bit he was probably a grade above or below me. Then it hit me, so I asked his name, and sure enough, my guess was right—he went to my middle school. He wasn't exactly the nicest kid to me in sixth grade, but he was far from the worst.

Once we realized the connection, he was like, "is your name Molly?"

And he said "people were pretty mean to you then" and I was like, "yea", and he's like "was I ever?" and I was like "idk, tbh probably" (he was tbh, but he'd been nice through this whole conversation and so I was just trying to be honest but not rude about it). and then he says, "if I ever was, I'm sorry" and that was pretty cool that he just like, acknowledged it and apologized like that. I thanked him and told him it was okay, that he was just a kid and I'd forgiven the kids but was mostly just mad at the administration who just let it happen. He nodded in understanding and said something about how he had a similar experience at a different school (takes a bully to make a bully). Anyways... The whole situation was really powerful to me.

I texted my friend R afterwards to say, "It honestly meant alot to me that he acknowledged people were mean to me and apologized for any involvement he had with that. I struggle alot with telling myself it wasn't that bad, and I was just dramatic and overly sensitive, so to hear someone else acknowledge that ppl were mean to me was incredibly validating and I rlly appreciated him saying that."

I just.... I feel really emotional right now, but not in a bad way. I'm really grateful that he acknowledged it. I've run into people who've bullied me before, and he, by far, handled it the best. Granted, he was really more of a kid on the side who just sort of cheered on the bullies, but still... It's all about the same if we're being real.

(the other two incidents were 1-the kid saying hey and acting like we were friends which is awkward af but I did pretend like we were friends in 4th/5th grade after i finally stood up to him, and 2-the kid just being like "haha u used to be so annoying it's cool that ur not anymore" which is... Not nice.)

Anyways, I respect that he apologized for and acknowledged the pain I endured. It was extremely validating. Like, powerfully so. I spend alot of time doubting myself and my story tbh, and this feels like strong evidence that it was real.