Jul 3, 2018
Begriffe, vom RECHTschaffenen Bürger ins BLAUE hinein halluziniert :
KONTROLLE
ANGST
SICHERHEIT
seen from Canada
seen from Singapore
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from Canada
seen from Brazil
seen from United States
seen from Canada
seen from China
seen from India
seen from United Arab Emirates
seen from United States
seen from T1
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from China
seen from France
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
Begriffe, vom RECHTschaffenen Bürger ins BLAUE hinein halluziniert :
KONTROLLE
ANGST
SICHERHEIT
I found this adorable selfie of me from a few weeks ago on my phone today.
My appointment went well. My doctor totally understood why I wanted to come in early and ended up double my dose of Effexor again and renewing my Ativan perscription. She even reassured me that it's okay for me to take the Ativan when I need it and not just before bed, which is really nice to hear because I usually don't take it twice a day unless my brain is completely fucked up.
I seriously have the best cats. We have 5 of them, and 4 of the 5 are siblings. They hardly ever fight and they all frequently ask to be cuddled. It's rare that I'm sitting at the computer and don't have a cat of one color or another in my lap. And for the most part, they're very polite. One in particular comes up to me while I'm gaming and puts his paw on my leg until I tell him it's okay to come join me. All of them break the stereotype of 100% aloof and bitchy cats.
July 2, 2018 - Day 13
Some roses to brighten the apartment.
2 July 2018
27 minutes at bedtime
There is just one thing that stands out from last night’s meditation 🧘♀️ session : The calm and unperturbed manner in which my breathing movement would pause to a longish halt. That was nice to witness during the session.
After meditation, I caught myself drifting off into thoughts that have nothing to do with God. And God is the reason I meditate. It was good to catch myself letting go of my meditation technique and into a non-God memory. I found myself thinking that how deeply I get sucked into one mundane memory or the other. Again, I felt that it was good to have a thought like that. It’s healthy to notice how intensely attracted I am to some memories.
Resting the breathing activity is so refreshing. It’s worth all the meditation you know. And it never ceases to amaze me that meditation can calm the respiratory system along with the mind !
I'm in the waiting room at the doctor's office. I've been here 3 times in two months and my appointment was supposed to be on the 16th. Why am I so scared that she won't believe me? Or tell me I'm making stuff up? What if she doesn't take me seriously?
365/93: Wasserlilie
365/79: Wassertropfen