Both 2010 Dan and Phil go into the future this time. What could happen?
Warnings: Smut and a lot of it, mentions of depression/suicidal thoughts
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Read part ONE
November of 2010
For the past week or so, Dan had been struggling with his mental health. His anxiety was at an all-time high and his depression was so bad that he couldn’t force himself out of bed and into class most days. When Phil found out just how bad it was and that Dan hadn’t been sleeping, he put his foot down.
“I’m coming in a taxi to pick you up in thirty minutes. You’re going to spend the entire weekend with me so that I can help you sleep and feed you. Don’t argue, just pack your duffle bag, I’ll see you soon. I love you.” He had said as soon as his boyfriend had picked up his phone. Phil didn’t even give Dan time to respond, not wanting to be argued with.
Dan had groaned, but he pulled himself out of bed and packed his bag. He hated ccwhen Phil treated him like a child who couldn’t do anything for himself. Though he knew that he needed to be taken care of sometimes, he hated feeling weak in that way. It wasn’t often that Phil would order him around, he wasn’t controlling or anything, but when he did it made Dan feel stupid.
As Phil had promised, he was at Dan’s dorm in about a half hour and knocked on his boyfriend’s door. The younger man opened the door slowly, knowing that he looked as awful as he felt. His hair was curling and sticking out in random places, his eyes were red and puffy from crying and he hadn’t showered in a week. Surely, he smelled terrible.
“Hey love, ready to go?” Phil asked, taking Dan’s bag before pulling him into a bone-breaking hug.
Normally, Dan would push him away since they were in public. They were beginning to become more popular online and he didn’t want to risk being outed online. This time, however, he was so exhausted, so done with everything that he just melted into the warm blanket of Phil’s arms. More tears filled his brown eyes and splattered against Phil’s green hoodie like raindrops.
“Let’s get you home,” Phil whispered, leading Dan down the stairs of the stale-smelling building. It was all so dull, so lifeless. It was no wonder that Dan’s mental health was hurting.
Dan smiled a bit at Phil’s words. Home… Dan didn’t live with Phil yet, but nowhere else felt more like home. Phil’s apartment had all of Dan’s favorite things, good snacks, cozy blankets, good movies, and of course, his Phil. Whenever he spent a few days with Phil, he always went back to his dorm feeling refreshed. It was like a clean slate each time.
“I can’t wait until my home really is with you,” Dan whispered when Phil opened the taxi door for him to climb inside.
Phil blushed at Dan’s words and climbed into the other side of the taxi, “soon bear, soon.” he had promised.
~
Phil walked into his apartment, lugging Dan’s worn-down black duffle bag over his shoulder. He propped the door open with his elbow and allowed his boyfriend to walk in behind him. When Phil set the duffle bag onto the floor, he pulled Dan over to the couch, “Let’s watch a movie. We can order pizza!”
Dan blinked and smiled sleepily, “Pizza sounds good actually, but I don’t want you to spend money on me. You already paid for the taxi.”
“Don’t worry baby, I just got paid from my video sponsor. The rent is already paid and everything. You deserve it.” Phil explained, cupping his boyfriend’s cheek softly.
Dan wanted to argue, he really did, but he knew Phil was just trying to help him. He struggled with letting himself be loved, he didn’t deserve it. He never felt like he loved Phil enough. He knew his feelings for the other man, he knew that he would bend over backwards just to make him smile, but he wasn’t sure how to show it.
This was the first time in Dan’s life that he had fallen in love. Sure, he had crushes and partners in the past, but it was never anything like this. This relationship felt different, it felt like something strong and everlasting. Even when they had spats, they never felt serious or harmful; and that scared Dan more than anything. What if Phil was too good for him? It felt like it more often than he liked.
“Do you want your usual?” Phil asked, kissing Dan’s cheek.
The brunette nodded and smiled, looking Phil up and down. He couldn’t wrap his head around Phil’s beauty, it was otherworldly. Dan could go swimming in his eyes, but he knew deep down that he would never come back up for air. Phil had somehow become just as important as breathing to Dan, maybe even more so. He so desperately wanted to tell Phil the words in his heart, but he just… couldn’t.
Phil placed the order for pizza excitedly, “I haven’t had pizza in a few months now.” He chuckled, “that’s gotta be some kind of record for me.”
“You had pizza without me?!” Dan asked in a joking tone, shaking his head in mock disbelief.
The older man blushed deeply, “no, well yes, but still no.”
Dan raised an eyebrow and sat up straighter on the sofa, “what do you mean?”
Surely he would remember having pizza with his boyfriend. They didn’t eat pizza together often, it was a treat. More often than not, Phil would make Dan scrambled eggs and toast when he came over. The last time that they had pizza, Phil was still living with his parents.
“Well… um, so you remember I said I was going to make that video a while ago, trying out one of my grandma’s spells?” Phil explained anxiously, his words blending together a bit.
Dan nodded slowly, “yeah…”
Phil played with his hands, rubbing his fingers together as if he was going to snap them, “so, it worked. But I didn’t get to film it. I met you in the future. And myself too.” He rambled, looking at his feet. “They fed me pizza.”
The brunette blinked a couple of times before doubling over with a laugh, “Phil, you really had me thinking that I lost my memories or something for a minute. You spoon! Why are you pranking me?”
“It’s not a joke or anything Dan. I promise- I swear! It really happened, I even have proof.” Phil explained before rushing into his bedroom.
Dan was left sitting on the sofa with his mind running a thousand miles a minute. What was Phil on about? Phil knew that Dan was a skeptic. When Phil did the tarot reading, pulling the knight of wands was just a coincidence. Fate, soulmates, magic, ghosts, none of it was real. To Dan, everything that couldn’t be proven with his own eyes and science was just something made up by other humans to give them some kind of comfort.
Phil came running back into the lounge with a folded up piece of paper in his hand, tossing it to Dan excitedly, “when I got back from the future, I thought I had dreamed it and I was upset. But then, I found this in my pocket. Look, it’s your handwriting!”
“This is ridiculous Phil, time travel isn’t real. Magic isn’t real.” Dan argued dully, unfolding the piece of paper. The paper was a bit worn down, having obviously been opened and closed many times before. As Dan looked at the writing, he felt his blood run cold. It was his handwriting, there was no doubt about it. If he didn’t know better, he would’ve thought that he wrote it himself.
Dan blinked a few times, trying to make sense of what he was looking at, “Phil… what the hell? This has to be a joke.”
Phil shook his head lightly, “it’s not bear, I promise! They said something about you being with me next time, so maybe we can try the spell together? I can prove it to you. And if it doesn’t work, I’ll blow you. You’ll get something out of it.”
Despite his annoyance, Dan blushed at Phil’s words. He didn’t want to try a spell that he knew wouldn’t work, but the promise of a blow job made it worth it in his eyes. He heaved a sigh and nodded in agreement, running his fingers through his admittedly greasy hair.
“Great! Why don’t you go shower before the pizza gets here? I’ll get everything for the spell set up.” Phil offered softly, placing a soft kiss to Dan’s forehead.
Dan huffed playfully, “Yeah, that’s a good idea. I know I smell like shit.”
Phil chuckled and nodded in agreement before pulling some sweatpants and a shirt from Dan’s bag, “there’s a towel set out for you already and a clean washcloth in the shower.”
“Oh… thank you babe, I love you.” Dan whispered, feeling his neck and ears heat up at his own words.
Phil smiled brightly, “I love you too silly, now go. Get nice and clean.”
~
A little over an hour later, Phil and Dan were sitting across from each other holding hands. Phil had already lit the candles and rehearsed the familiar words of the spell with Dan. Since both of them were trying to travel into the future, it made the most sense to Phil that they say the spell at the same time.
“Are you ready?” Phil asked with a small smirk, sending Dan’s heart into overdrive.
Dan truly didn’t believe that the spell would work, but he was feeling nervous. His mind was filled with the possibility of it actually working. What would happen? Would he actually be able to see himself in the future? Did he even have a future? What would Phil be like in the future?
“Yeah, as ready as I’ll ever be.” Dan hummed teasingly.
Both men counted down from three before saying the spell outloud three times, one after the other. As before, nothing seemed amiss in the room around them. Nothing looked or felt any different than before.
“You know Philly, if you wanted to suck me off all you had to do was ask.” Dan teased, moving to stand out of the circle only to be pulled back down by Phil.
Suddenly, the strong scent of cinnamon and pine trees surrounded both men. Phil giggled and winked at Dan knowingly, “it’s working!”
Dan froze and clung to Phil’s hands, “what?! Wait, what’s going on?!”
A bright light flashed in front of them both, making them shut their eyes tightly.
~
Dan opened his eyes with a soft groan, his vision still blurry from sleep. What a weird dream. He yawned and rubbed his eyes, Phil curled up into his side. He heard voices, had Phil left the TV on? No… Phil was talking to someone.
The brunette sat up quickly, his eyes widening. He and Phil were sitting on the floor of a place that he didn’t recognize. A large, real christmas tree was perched carefully in the corner of the room, decorated in a variety of different ornaments. He quickly recognized one, the our first Christmas ornament with his and Phil’s name engraved. A gift that Phil had given him just a week ago because he couldn’t wait until December.
“Looks like someone finally woke up.” A deep voice said with a laugh, startling Dan.
He peeked around Phil and gasped. On the large couch in front of them were two men. One with curly brown hair and uncomfortably familiar brown eyes. The other man was curled into the curly haired man’s side, obviously not wanting to be talked to. No… the spell had worked?
Dan stuttered a few times before rubbing his temples, “I… I’m dreaming. This can’t be happening.”
“I told you Dan, that’s what you get for not believing me.” Phil giggled, pulling his boyfriend into a hug happily.
The older Dan laughed, “I was always such a skeptic. Welcome back Philly, and welcome to you Danny. Phil here isn’t having the best mental health day, it’s just been a lot today. Meetings, video calls, editing videos, it takes a lot out of him. I’m going to run him a bath, you two are free to join us.”
“When I was here last time they decided to call me Philly so that we wouldn’t get confused or anything. While you were asleep we decided to call you Danny for now.” Philly explained to Danny softly, kissing his cheek.
Danny nodded slowly before looking at his older self in awe, “Um… I don’t want to invade your privacy. We can stand down here.”
“None of that. Come with me and help me run the bath. I know you have a lot of questions for me. The Phils can stay down here.” Dan explained, gently laying Phil down on the couch completely before kissing his nose.
Danny bit his lip and nodded, hugging his Phil before standing up nervously. He looked up at himself from the future, shocked by his height. He never expected to be taller than Phil one day. He wasn’t sure that he liked it, he always liked feeling small next to his boyfriend.
Dan led Danny up the stairs and into a large master bedroom with an ensuite bathroom. Dan went to the walk-in closet and pulled out a soft looking, deep blue robe and some fuzzy socks before walking into the bathroom to start the water. Danny followed him nervously, feeling like he was in trouble, though he did nothing wrong.
“So, I’m assuming this is your house? Like you and Phil own it?” Danny mumbled, chewing on his thumb nail.
Dan chuckled and nodded, “we had it built just for us. A new build. We live on the outskirts of London, just like we always talked about.”
Danny nodded slowly, looking at his feet, “so, you know how to take care of Phil.” he whispered.
“Yeah, fifteen years with someone teaches you a lot Danny. It took him a long time to actually accept that I wanted to take care of him. You know how he is, he always wants to be the strong one. But now, he lets me treat him like royalty, especially when he needs it. It took a lot of time, patience and communication. Trust me, it didn’t happen overnight.” Dan explained with a smile, tossing two towels onto the countertop.
Danny rubbed his arm with a sigh, “I just feel like I don’t love him properly. Like I love him so fucking much but I don’t know how to show it. I feel selfish and stupid because I can’t figure it out. He’s my partner but I feel like I take more than I give.”
“Danny, you’re barely nineteen. You’ve got years to figure it all out. It’s all about give and take. One day you take more and the next he’ll take more. Some days he’ll give seventy five percent and you can only give twenty five. It’s all about balance.” Dan explained with a chuckle, “but since you and Philly are here, I can show you one way that I take care of him. I think you’ll like it.”
When the tub was halfway full, Dan dropped in a bath bomb and led Danny back down the stairs, “Come on bubby, the bath is nearly ready. It’s okay if young Phan joins us, right?”
Phil giggled and nodded, “that’s okay. As long as they don’t mind seeing me naked.”
Both Danny and Philly turned bright red at Phil’s words. Danny held onto his boyfriend’s hand nervously. He didn’t want to admit it outloud, but older Phil was one of the most gorgeous men he had ever seen in his life. Phil definitely aged like fine wine.
“I’m okay with it, I mean it’s just myself.” Philly giggled, “are you okay with it?” He asked, looking down at his boyfriend.
Danny nodded shyly, “Yeah… nothing I haven’t seen before.”
Dan chuckled and led all three men back up the stairs. He had Phil sit on the edge of the bed before carefully unbuttoning the man’s shirt and sliding it off his shoulders. He did the same with Phil’s socks before turning his attention to his pajama pants. Dan placed a soft kiss to Phil’s lips before helping him move his hips, pulling his partner’s pants and underwear off in one fluid motion.
Danny hid his face in Philly’s neck, feeling his entire body heat up. He knew that if he looked for too long, he would get a boner. He didn’t want to embarrass himself today, especially not in front of himself.
“Damn, I’m pretty hot.” Philly laughed softly, holding Danny protectively.
Dan chuckled softly, “you have no idea.” He teased, leading Phil into the bathroom and helping him sit in the tub.
Danny and Philly sat on the floor of the bathroom, while Dan grabbed a washcloth and used it to wash Phil’s shoulders and neck, occasionally pausing just long enough to kiss Phil softly. Danny couldn’t help but watch in complete awe of the situation. Phil was the one being pampered, but he couldn’t deny that his older self looked relaxed too.
After Dan rinsed the suds from the body wash off of Phil, he used his soap covered hand to rub Phil’s tummy and down to his crotch. Phil moaned so quietly that Danny barely heard it, but it sent his blood straight down to his cock. Beside him, Philly tensed up, watching the scene in front of him intently. He felt like he was looking at something he shouldn’t be, but he couldn’t look away.
“I like to work him up in the tub. It helps him relax, especially with the warm water. The gentle touches get him the most. Like, if I stroke his cock with just the tips of my fingers, like this.” Dan explained, petting Phil’s hardening cock with just the tips of three fingers, “He’ll start to lose his reserves.”
Phil whimpered in the tub, biting his bottom lip softly as Dan continued to stroke him with soft touches. Danny watched intently, making mental notes. He and Philly had only ever gone fast and hard, always too eager to feel each other. They didn’t have the patience to take their time. Maybe he needed to try it.
Philly panted softly beside Danny, the view in front of him making him melt. He could feel himself hardening in his jeans, but he was too far gone to care. If someone saw him getting worked up, so be it. This was one of the hottest things he had ever seen.
“Here Danny, give it a try.” Dan offered, standing up and drying off his hands.
Danny looked at Philly, silently asking permission before moving.
“It’s okay with me, bear.” He blushed, “I want to watch.”
Danny kissed him softly before standing up and kneeling beside the tub, nervously lathering his hand with body wash. He had never touched a man so much older than him, and the thought alone was enough to make him full with want. With nervous fingers, he began to stroke Phil slowly.
“Mmm, just a bit more pressure love.” Phil instructed softly, a smile on his face.
Danny nodded and applied more pressure obediently, earning a soft moan from the man in front of him. Danny felt himself surge with pride.
Dan sat next to Philly on the floor with a smile, leaning to whisper in his ear, “you like this, don’t you? Watching your boyfriend learn how to pleasure you? I see how hard you’re getting. It’s turning me on baby. I bet you wish I was touching you right now.”
Philly whimpered and crossed his legs, trying to hide how turned on he was. Dan was right, he wanted to be touched. He wanted to be worshiped. He wanted to be the one in the tub, exposed to the other men in the room.
“Don’t hide your pretty body, love. That’s it, just relax.” Dan whispered, pushing Philly’s knees apart gently.
Meanwhile Phil was panting and writhing in the tub, wanting nothing more than to thrust his hips for more friction. He knew that if he did, that this feeling would end too quickly. So he stayed still, allowing the inexperienced nineteen year old to strong him.
“Alright, that’s enough for now. Let me get Phil dried off and dressed, then I can show you how to give him a massage.” Dan hummed, standing up to let the water out of the tub.
Danny blushed and stepped away from the tub, moving into his boyfriend’s arms. He leaned against Philly, feeling embarrassed and a bit shameful. He had touched another man in front of his boyfriend. Well, not really another man, but someone who wasn’t the same man he was cuddling up to. It was devious and wrong, but it turned him on greatly.
“I never imagined something like this would happen.” Philly whispered with a soft giggle, “well, maybe in my weirdest fantasies.”
Danny gasped softly, “you’ve thought about this?” He asked in a whisper.
Philly nodded, pushing his black fringe from his eyes, “a few times. The thought of being fucked by you in the future while you suck me off has come to mind a few times. I’ve also thought of you fucking me while I suck future you off and older me fucks you.” He explained, hiding his face in his boyfriend’s hair.
Danny stuttered a few times, his cock fully hard in his sweatpants now. He couldn’t fight it off, no matter how many times he tried to ignore what was happening around him. He tried desperately to think about the essay that he needed to be working on, but nothing could possibly distract him.
Dan walked out of the bathroom, with the two towels that he had used to dry Phil off with. He was back within a minute without the towels and grabbed Phil’s hand, “you know the drill bub, hands and knees on the bed. I put the pillow down for you. Make sure that you’re over the towel.”
Phil nodded and kissed Dan deeply, “yes sir. Thank you sir.”
Philly blushed deeply as the words his future self used. Sir… it had a nice ring to it. He and Danny hadn’t used any names like that in the bedroom or anything before, but maybe they should.
“Alright Philly, would you like to join my Phil on the bed? He’ll show you how to position yourself. If you decide to, I’ll be touching you. Is that okay? With both of you? Phil and I have already talked about it, but we all have to be okay with it.” Dan explained, kneeling in front of his past self. He squeezed Philly’s hand in reassurance.
Philly looked at Danny with a shy smile, “I think I want to try. If it’s okay with you.”
“Of course it’s okay with me baby. As long as I get to help.” Danny smiled, nuzzling his boyfriend’s neck.
Dan stood up with a smile, “okay let’s get you naked first.”
Philly nodded and bit his bottom lip before going to pull his shirt off. Dan grabbed his wrist gently to stop him, pushing his hand to his side.
“No love, stripping you is our job. Danny, watch and learn.” Dan chuckled, using one hand to pin Philly’s hands above his head.
Slowly, Dan used his other hand to pull Philly’s shirt up just enough to show his tummy, “pull his pants down just enough to show his hips. Then I want you to bite his hips. Bite, lick, suck, kiss. It will ruin him. Won’t it beautiful?” Dan smirked, nuzzling the younger man’s cheek with his own.
Danny nodded and got onto his knees, pulling Philly’s pants down just a bit. He smiled when Philly took in a sudden deep breath. He quickly placed a soft kiss on his boyfriend’s hip, sucking the skin just enough to leave a mark. Above him, Philly was whimpering pitifully, his legs beginning to shake. Danny used one of his hands to massage Philly’s other hip, all while Dan placed gentle kisses on his neck.
“See? He loves it. Don’t you Philly?” Dan asked, releasing the younger man’s hands before pulling his shirt off completely, “I can’t wait to show you what I’ve learned. Things you can’t even imagine, beautiful. And I’m going to teach Danny here everything, so you can be treated like a princess.”
Philly whimpered and rubbed his thighs together, desperate for something to relieve the pressure that he felt. Danny smirked against the soft, pale skin of his hips before biting down suddenly, eliciting a loud moan from his boyfriend. Danny stood back up and kissed Philly deeply while Dan pulled philly’s pants off completely.
“Alright Philly, go into the bedroom. There’s a towel and pillow for you. Phil will show you what to do. Just relax with him for a minute, we’ll be right out.” Dan chuckled, sending Philly on his way.
Dan looked down at Danny with a smirk, “see how sexy he is? How sexy he stays? That’s all yours and he knows it. He belongs to you, and you belong to him. Show him that you want every piece of him. Tonight I’m going to show you how to milk him.”
Danny’s eyes widened, “but… what if I’m not good enough at it? I’ve never done it before. What if it’s not good for him?”
“Ah, I forgot how much I used to doubt myself all the time. It won’t be perfect the first time, it takes practice. But at least I can show you how to do it. It will be the best orgasm of his life.” Dan explained.
Danny nodded and took a deep breath. Dan grabbed his hand, pulling him into the bedroom easily. On the bed were both Phils, laying down on their chests with their asses up in the air. They both rested their heads on pillows and a towel set right beneath their cocks. Danny felt his cock twitch in his pants once again, precum wetting his underwear.
Dan walked to the closet again and grabbed a large bottle of lube. Danny recognized it easily as the same cherry lube that he and Philly used all the time. It was his favorite as it worked well and tasted nice.
“Surprised? Don’t fix what’s not broken.” Dan chuckled, leading Danny over to the men on the bed.
Danny looked at his boyfriend shyly, taking in his flustered face. Philly was holding hands with Phil as if he were nervous. Hell, he probably was nervous. Danny and Philly had sex regularly, but it had never felt quite this intimate.
“Go ahead and take your shirt off Danny, you know how messy this lube is.” Dan instructed, pulling his own shirt off.
The younger man quickly pulled his shirt off, tossing it to the carpeted floor with a soft thud. He looked up at Dan expectantly, trying not to look at his toned stomach and arms. It was the body he had dreamed of having for years, but he never had the motivation to go to the gym.
Dan caught his eyes and smirked, tilting his chin up with the tips of his fingers, “oh Danny, see how hot you get when you take care of yourself? It’s worth it, trust me.”
Danny felt his jaw go slack as he stared into the eyes of the man he would become. The man that he would grow to be, all because he didn’t give up. He suddenly felt more at ease, more comfortable with his life.
“Alright, just follow my lead.” Dan instructed, walking over to his partner on the bed.
Danny walked closer to get a good look as Dan began to kiss Phil’s inner thighs, sucking the skin softly while using his hands to spread Phil’s cheeks. Phil whimpered beneath him, squeezing Philly’s hand softly as he did. Dan chuckled and grabbed the lube, rubbing it between his fingers to warm it up.
“Come on Danny, open Philly up. We can’t milk him if we can’t get inside.” Dan laughed softly.
Danny walked over to his boyfriend and shyly peppered his cheeks with soft kisses, only pausing for a moment to pull at the skin with his teeth. The breathy whimpers that he earned made warmth build up in the bottom of his stomach. His cock twitched again in his underwear, making him shudder.
“Good boy, now here’s some lube. You’re going to use your tongue too. I’ll show you first.” Dan explained softly, his voice sounding deeper than before.
In a moment, Danny’s fingers were covered in the cherry lube. The smell penetrated his nostrils, making him lick his lips. He watched intently as Dan used his lubed up pointer finger to trace around Phil’s rim. Phil trembled from the touch, his jaw completely slack as he panted softly. Dan slipped his finger in slowly, twisting it around the tight muscle.
“Good job bubby, just relax. Think of how good it’s going to feel. Three fingers inside you, right against your prostate. Tasting you with my tongue. I can’t wait to taste you baby. Danny here is watching. He’s going to see you melt against my touches, he’s going to see just how fucking beautiful you are when you cum.” Dan purred, thrusting his finger slowly before adding another.
Phil moaned loudly, “Dan, it already feels so good. Please… I need more.”
“Soon my love, soon. We can have Philly left out. Go ahead Danny, give it a try.” Dan ordered, still thrusting his finger gently.
Danny nodded eagerly and traced his lubed finger around his boyfriend’s rim, applying just a bit of pressure. Philly whined beneath him, wiggling his ass a bit. Danny licked his lips, slowly pushing his finger in and thrusting it gently.
“Mmm, oh god.” Philly moaned breathily.
Dan hummed, “good, now add your tongue Danny. Like this.”
Dan continued to finger Phil, speeding up the pace just a bit. He leaned down, tracing his partner’s rim with his tongue before adding it beside his finger. When Phil moaned beneath him, Dan thrust his tongue and finger in time together.
Danny blushed and took a deep breath. He wasn’t against rimming, not in the slightest, but he was inexperienced. Blow jobs, he was good at. He had given and received plenty. What if he wasn’t good enough?
He nervously bent forward and swirled his tongue around Philly’s hole before sliding it in next to his finger. He tried to get a rhythm, a good timing but it seemed impossible. Though Philly was panting and wiggling, it didn’t seem like enough.
Dan hummed, “good try. It’ll take a lot of practice to get it right. Here, let me try.”
Danny hung his head in embarrassment before nodding, switching spots with the older version of himself. He stood in between the men on the bed, being sure to stay out of the way.
“Make yourself useful Danny. Stroke them, suck them, do something.” Dan scolded softly before licking around Philly’s hole.
Danny blushed deeply, watching how his boyfriend’s hips thrust at the feeling of being touched so intimately. Just watching the man he loved so dearly in so much pleasure sent a jolt of electricity to his cock. He took a deep breath before sliding himself on his back, onto the bed. He quickly took his boyfriend’s cock in his mouth, using his right hand to stroke Phil slowly.
Both Phils moaned loudly at the touch, making Danny whimper. His sweats felt too constricting. His cock ached against the fabric, and he felt like he could cum any minute.
Dan pulled his mouth away from philly’s hole and smirked, “now this is fucking hot. Look at you, pleasuring two men at once. You’re getting off on it huh?”
Danny whined against his boyfriend’s cock, rubbing his thighs together in desperation. He felt like he was going insane. He was so turned on that his mind was an array of nothing. All that Danny could focus on was the taste of precum on his tongue, the moans of the men beside him and Dan’s words.
Suddenly, Dan moved in front of Danny, pulling off the younger man’s sweats and underwear in a fluid motion, freeing his aching cock. Danny pulled off of his boyfriend’s cock to moan at the freedom. He reached his spare hand to touch himself, only to be stopped by Dan.
“Not yet, this is about them right now. You’ll get your chance. I’m going to milk them both at the same time. Your job is to stroke them while I do.” Dan ordered, sliding two fingers into both Phils.
Danny nodded eagerly, taking a cock in each hand and stroking. His boyfriend moaned his name softly and thrust his hips, while future Phil whimpered and stayed in place. Dan expertly thrust his fingers, finding both men’s prostates with ease. The room was filled with loud moans and pants suddenly, making Danny stroke faster.
“Fuck… Oh fuck!” Philly moaned out, his cheek buried into the pillow.
Dan chuckled, “are you going to cum already baby? Danny, get your mouth on his pretty cock, take his cum.”
Danny smiled and nodded eagerly, moving his head to suck his boyfriend’s cock. He sucked softly on the head while Dan thrust his fingers harder before using them to rub Philly’s prostate. Danny sucked harder, bobbing his head up and down slowly, using his tongue to focus on the tip.
“I’m gonna… I’m gonna cum.” Philly cried out, tears glistening on his eyelashes.
Danny moaned and suddenly cum shot into his mouth, making him choke a bit before swallowing it. Above him, Philly was still whimpering and crying, clearly overwhelmed with pleasure. Danny pulled his softening cock from his mouth gently and cupped his boyfriend’s cheeks, wiping the stray tears.
“Are you alright love?” Danny asked, feeling worried.
Philly nodded and closed his eyes with a smile, “that was the hardest I’ve cum in my life.”
“Alright baby, lay down and rest for now. Danny, it’s Phil’s turn. You’re going to take his cum like a good boy, and maybe you’ll be rewarded. If you can’t handle it, then no reward. Got it?” Dan asked with a smirk, pulling his fingers from philly gently.
Danny nodded, “I can do it.” He promised, crawling underneath Phil and taking his cock in his mouth.
The young brunette moaned around Phil’s cock before bobbing his head slowly, taking more and more of him in with each movement. Phil whimpered above him as Dan added a third finger into his, thrusting without mercy.
Phil’s legs shook violently as Dan held pressure on his prostate, watching his face carefully. Danny sucked harder, taking all of Phil down his throat proudly, his nose buried in his pubic hair. All he could smell was cherries and musk.
“He’s about to cum, be ready.” Dan ordered, suddenly thrusting his fingers hard and fast into his partner.
Phil moaned loudly and thrust his hips, though he had nowhere to go. Danny’s mouth was suddenly filled with a second load of cum which he swallowed more easily than before. He continued to suck Phil’s cock until it softened and he pulled off shyly.
As soon as Danny moved, Phil collapsed completely on the bed beside Philly who was already asleep. Both men looked so at ease that it made Danny bubble with jealousy. What would it be like to have such a hard orgasm that you felt that relaxed?
“Alright Danny, you did good. Stand up.” Dan chuckled, pulling him off of the bed.
Danny stood on shaky legs, his cock still red and aching. He bit his lip and watched Dan closely, unsure of what he was planning.
“I’m proud of you. You made two beautiful men cum and swallowed all of it. You took care of them, just like they needed. Now you know, you can love Phil, even if you think you don’t know how. It’s not that hard, just do what feels right. Now, how about a little bit of self love?” Dan asked softly, getting on his knees in front of Danny.
For the first time, Danny realized that Dan wasn’t wearing pants anymore either. His cock stood at attention, precum glistening on the tip. Danny couldn’t help but lick his lips at the sight.
Before he even had time to react, Dan’s lips were wrapped around his cock, making him throw his head back. Danny pushed his sweaty fringe from his forehead while panting. He fought the urge to thrust his hips, instead burying his fingers into Dan’s curly hair.
Dan looked up at him with hooded eyes, swallowing his cock down entirely with practiced ease. Danny moaned, “you keep that up and I won’t last long.”
Dan pulled off slowly, a string of saliva connecting his mouth to Danny’s cock, “you won’t last long no matter what I do.”
Danny rolled his eyes, “lay on the carpet.”
“Oh, bossy are we? Okay fine, I’ll humor you.” Dan laughed, laying on his back on the plush carpet.
Without thinking too hard about it, Danny straddled Dan’s hips, lining their cocks up together. He reached for the discarded bottle of lube on the floor beside them and lubed his hand up before wrapping it around them both. He slowly thrust his hips, moaning at the new sinsation.
“Oh fuck, I haven’t done this in years.” Dan moaned, grabbing Danny’s shoulders tightly.
Danny panted and thrust his hips feverishly, stroking his hand clumsily as he moved. The room was filled with the filthy sound of skin on skin and their broken moans. Suddenly, Dan grabbed Danny’s hips and helped him thrust, making the both of them shake.
“That’s it, just like that. I’m going to cum, fuck, fuck!” Dan moaned, shaking with the orgasm that overtook him.
Danny panted and thrust his hips a few more times before cumming as well, the cum landing on Dan’s chest. Danny collapsed on top of his future self with a whimper, the orgasm causing his legs to shake. Wordlessly, Dan held him, rubbing his back until he came down from his high.
“You took control. That was surprising, but nice. Let’s get all of us cleaned up, yeah?” Dan whispered with a smile, watching Danny stand up.
Danny nodded and looked over to the bed where both Phil and Philly were fast asleep in each other’s arms. He couldn’t help but feel a bit jealous. He should be the one holding his boyfriend like that, but instead he was getting off with another man, even if that man was himself. Was it technically masturbation?
“Stop thinking so hard. Trust me, Phil knows how much you love him. He’ll always know. And if he ever forgets, you’ll always be able to remind him.” Dan promised softly before leading Danny back into the bathroom.
Danny sighed and shook his head, “It’s not that… Well it’s part of it. I’m mostly just in shock you know?”
“That this time travel thing is real? Yeah I was too. Phil remembers his travels, we don’t remember as much. I didn’t remember this happening but I’m glad it did.” Dan laughed, wetting a clean washcloth with warm water.
The younger brunette blushed, “um, no. I mean I am shocked and I’m still not completely convinced it’s not a dream. But I’m mostly surprised that I have a future. I always thought I would’ve killed myself before I could have a real future.” Danny whispered, sitting on the toilet lid.
Dan froze and looked at his younger self. For the first time in years, he saw the hopelessness, the anger and the hurt in those brown eyes. He sighed and used the warm cloth to wipe off his chest before doing the same to Danny.
“Sometimes I forget how hard it was. But trust me, it gets so much better. Things happen that you couldn’t even imagine! Sure, bad things happen too sometimes, life isn’t perfect. But it’s so worth it. Hell, you go on to write a mental health help book! You do get better, you don’t become normal but you get better. And trust me, it’s hard. But you do it. Phil helps so much and you both grow as people, as lovers and as entertainers together. Drop out of law school. It’s scary but do it. I know you’ve thought about it.” Dan rambled, squeezing the younger man’s hand.
Danny sniffled and nodded, “I believe you… this is just a lot I guess. I never thought I would do anything worth while. I never thought that Phil could love someone like me, especially this long, it’s-”
“Dan? What’s wrong?” Philly asked, running into the bathroom and pulling his boyfriend into his arms, “are you regretting what happened? I’m sorry. Maybe we shouldn’t have done the spell. I’m so sorry-”
Dan kissed him softly to shut him up, cupping his cheek, “It’s nothing like that babe. I’m just in my head right now. I’m just happy that we stay together and make a name for ourselves.”
Philly relaxed slowly and nodded, kissing his boyfriend’s cheek, “I always knew that we would.”
“And, I love you. I love you so damn much Phil, I know I’m not the best at showing it or saying it even. But I love you more than I ever thought I could love another person.” Danny whispered, tears springing in his eyes again.
Philly froze, staring into his lover’s eyes before flinging himself into Danny’s arms, “I love you too. So damn much.”
Beside them, Dan wrapped his arms around Phil happily, “Let’s all go to the lounge and watch a movie or something. It’s getting close to midnight and the spell will wear off anyways, right love?”
Phil nodded and chuckled, “yeah, so we should make the best of it. I’ll make popcorn!”
~
A few hours later, Dan woke up next to Phil on the sofa, wrapped up in his arms. He sighed happily, staring at the Christmas tree with a sleepy smile. Phil stirred in his arms and yawned, turning to look at him.
“They went back home, eh?” Dan asked, a yawn overtaking him.
Phil giggled and nodded, “they did. It’s almost three in the morning now. I’ll miss them, but hopefully things will be easier for them this time around.”
“Do we ever see them again?” Dan asked, rubbing his nose against Phil’s with a content sigh.
The older man chuckled, “for a skeptic, you sure seem hopeful that we do.”
Summary: In 2010, AmazingPhil decided to make a video trying to time travel. He ends up meeting his boyfriend Dan in the year 2023 as well as himself, and he has a lot of questions.
Genre: Time Travel au, 2010Phanx2023Phan
Warnings: Sexual tension/undertones
Read on AO3
“This is a stupid idea,” Phil laughed at himself as he collected everything that he needed for a spell.
“My grandma was a psychic woman, and apparently, she passed the gift on to me. The last time I tried something magic was the tarot reading I did for myself, which you all think was about Danisnotonfire! Well, I thought I would try something more interesting today. My grandma used to tell me a story when I was a kid, about when she was trying to time-travel into the past, to see her husband as a teen. But, there was a mistake and she ended up in the future! She knew the exact date of my birth years before my mum was even pregnant with me. And I happen to have the same spell that she used!” Phil said in an animated voice to the camera.
Phil grabbed three yellow candles and made a large triangle. He lit each candle carefully with a match before turning off his bedroom light. He heaved a sigh and sat in the middle of the triangle he had created, using salt to link each candle.
“I’m going to try to take my camera with me into the future. I want to film all of it if it works. I think it would be fun to see my friends when they’re older. Or if I meet my older self! How awesome would that be?” Phil rambled, looking at the old piece of paper in his hand.
Phil smiled at the camera, grabbing it in his hand. “Alright, here goes nothing.”
He looked carefully at the piece of paper, wanting to be sure that he said the spell correctly. After reading it three times, he felt no different than before. The flames of his candles didn’t move or change, nor did the salt that surrounded him.
“Well, that was a complete failure.” He giggled, shaking his head at himself.
Phil sighed and went to turn his camera off, only to feel a sudden gust of cold wind. He shivered and looked around nervously. It was the middle of summer, there was no reason for the cold temperature. He swallowed nervously and focused on the candles, the flames growing larger and larger right before his eyes. Phil opened his mouth to scream, just before everything went completely black.
~
The first thing that Phil became aware of was the cold drops of water hitting his back and the sound of cars racing by on the road. He swallowed thickly and whined, willing the cold feeling to stop. He breathed in deeply and smelled autumn leaves and something sugary. An odd smell for the middle of summer, he decided.
“You alright there lad?” A voice asked, someone touching Phil’s shoulder.
Phil cringed at the feeling, whimpering pathetically as he was turned over onto his back. He blinked a few times against the rain before searching for the source of the voice. His stomach lurched a bit when his eyes met with another pair that made him think of hot chocolate. He felt almost like he might vomit, but his stomach was empty.
“Am I dead?” Phil asked weakly, trying to sit up and failing miserably.
The brown-eyed man’s laugh reminded Phil oddly of a hyena, but it was charming nonetheless. He looked the man up and down, taking in his curly hair, dripping from the rain. The man looked a bit familiar, his dimples making Phil’s heart flutter like the wings of a bird.
“Nah mate, but you might be if you don’t get out of this rain.” The man scolded, holding out a hand to help Phil stand.
Phil took the hand thankfully and pushed his black fringe from his eyes. The man in front of him gasped suddenly and moved closer to Phil. Phil was surprised that the man was taller than him, not many people were. He raised an eyebrow confusedly at the oddly familiar stranger.
“Wait… Phil?” the man asked, sounding worlds away.
Phil blinked and wrapped his arms around himself. He was still in just a T-shirt and black skinny jeans, not proper for this kind of weather. “How do you know my name?” He asked brokenly as his teeth chattered.
The man laughed again, shrugging out of his expensive-looking jacket and helping Phil put it on. It smelled amazing and it was comforting, familiar even. The arms were a little too long and they gave Phil sweater paws. He giggled and wrapped his hands with the loose sleeves, feeling warmer by the second.
“It’s me, Dan. I always thought you were insane when you talked about meeting me in the future. I wonder if my Phil is still here? Would he move into the past while you’re here? Or would he still be here? How does all of this work?” The man- Dan, rambled on while absentmindedly rubbing Phil’s arms to warm him up.
Phil blushed darkly as he listened to Dan. It seemed like Dan still didn’t know how to stop yapping, even in the future. “Wait… the spell worked?! I did it as a joke, there’s no fucking way it worked!” Phil argued, reaching for the camera that he had tucked in his jeans pocket. Nothing was there…he had to be dreaming.
“Your camera didn’t come with you. I remember you, well my Phil, telling me that. Here, follow me. I don’t want you to get sick. I’ll bring you to ours.” Dan offered, leading Phil away from where they were.
He somewhat recognized where they were, somewhere in London, definitely near a Starbucks as Dan had a still-hot cup in his hand. Phil looked longingly at the drink, wondering idly how far they had to walk. Dan noticed and smiled, showing off his dimples again. Wordlessly, he pressed the hot drink into Phil’s hands.
Phil blushed again and took a sip, nearly moaning as sweet caramel coffee coated his tongue and throat, “a caramel macchiato, my favorite.”
“I know, you spoon. I got it for my Phil but I’m sure he’ll understand.” Dan shrugged, pulling a car key from his pocket and clicking it.
Phil’s eyes widened in shock when the headlights of a suave-looking black car blinked on and off, “wait… We have a car in the future? I can drive?!” he asked eagerly.
The older man laughed at Phil, shaking his head, “Yes we have a car. Most of the time we still take cabs or whatever, but we live on the outskirts of London so it’s sometimes good to have a car. And no, you don’t drive. You’re my passenger princess.”
Dan opened the passenger door for Phil before hopping into the driver’s side and turning the heat up nearly all the way. Phil sat in awe of the touchscreen on the dashboard but didn’t ask any questions about it. He focused hard on trying to warm up while Dan drove them away from the city.
“What year is it?” Phil asked, nibbling on his thumbnail.
“It’s 2023, it’s the beginning of October. From the looks of you, you’re from sometime in 2010?” Dan questioned, driving carefully down the rainy streets of London.
Phil blushed deeply and nodded, “Uh… yeah, how’d you know?”
Dan chuckled, “I’m Phil trash number one. I know you inside and out if you catch my drift.”
“I…uh, well…” Phil rambled, trying to make sense of what was happening. He felt his cheeks burning and hid his face with his hands.
“Sorry dear, I forgot how shy you used to be. Well, are. Do you have any more questions right now?” Dan asked, smirking a bit at Phil.
Phil pouted a bit at Dan’s teasing tone, “I’m not shy. I’m just not used to talking to someone like you. So, we’re… still together, right? You said we have a place on the outskirts, so we live together? We’re still together?” He asked softly, pushing his black fringe from his eyes nervously.
Dan smiled kindly, “You’ve always been intimidated by older men. And yeah, we’re still together. We built a career together on YouTube and we still have a pretty large audience. A few years ago we started having our house built.”
A rush of pride swept through Phil’s chest at Dan’s words. They made it through all the odds. Sexuality had always been a struggle for Dan and though Phil was as supportive as he could be, he knew all too well that the internet could cause issues when it came to secrets. He smiled to himself while he watched out the window.
“So… are you out of the closet now? Am I?” He asked shyly, turning to look at Dan.
Dan chuckled, “I came out back in 2019, in a forty-five-minute long video. It was one of the scariest times of my life, but I knew it was time. Then, a couple of weeks after my video, you- well, my Phil, came out too. Wanted to give me time to take in all the love and support before he got involved too.” He smiled and blushed, winking at Phil.
Phil giggled at him, “Wow… that’s amazing. I’m proud of you bear.”
“Oi, none of that. You’ll make me emotional.” Dan scolded lightly.
The younger man giggled again and watched curiously as Dan drove towards a somewhat large house. He could tell it was relatively new because of the paint job. He felt cozy just looking at it, the house of his dreams truly. It looked similar to the house that he and his Dan had designed over Skype during one of their late-night conversations. It didn’t feel real.
“Welcome to the phouse.” Dan chuckled, parking the car and climbing out. He shuffled around the car quickly, opening the door for Phil, “Let’s get you inside and out of those wet clothes.”
Phil climbed out of the car nervously. He gnawed on his lip automatically, his anxiety taking control of his actions. Dan linked their elbows and led him up the stairs leading to the front door. There were two pumpkins by the door, sitting on a simple wooden bench. Dan pulled his keys from his pocket and unlocked the door, leading Phil inside.
“Oh honey, I’m home!” Dan called, taking his shoes off and setting them to the side, “And you’ll never guess who I found out in the rain!”
Phil copied Dan’s actions clumsily, setting his shoes by the older man’s. He realized quickly how fancy Dan’s shoes looked beside his own worn-down converses. It suddenly hit him just how successful he would be in the future and he felt overwhelmed, a slight dizziness blurring his vision slightly.
The loud sound of heavy footsteps going downstairs filled the hallway, and Phil hid behind Dan. He nervously buried his face between Dan’s shoulder blades. Though he couldn’t understand why, seeing himself in the future felt terrifying. Would future him even recognize who he was? What if this Phil was mean? Could he ever be mean?
“Who’s hiding behind you bub?” A voice asked, making Phil attempt to appear smaller.
Dan chuckled, “You know who it is love. You’ve told me for years that this was the day you traveled to in 2010. I never really believed you until now though.” he shrugged.
“Come on out now. You’re me, you should know I’m not going to hurt you.” future Phil smiled, walking behind Dan.
The younger Phil pulled away from Dan slowly and looked at his future self with a gasp, jumping back and stumbling in shock. He tried to catch himself against the wall but failed, falling towards the hardwood floor with his eyes clenched tightly shut. Dan caught him easily and steadied him again with a smile.
“I… uh thank you, Dan” he whispered, looking into Dan’s brown eyes with a blush.
Dan laughed and wrapped his arm around future Phil’s waist, “I’ve had years of practice. Unfortunately for both of us, you never stop being a clumsy oof.”
Future Phil scowled and shoved him playfully, “You’re just as clumsy, we’re just too long! Anyway, it’s good to see you, Phil. I knew it would happen, Dan! He was right where I said too, wasn’t he?”
Dan groaned and nodded, “Yes Philip, he was. Now go get him some clothes before he freezes!”
Older Phil rolled his eyes playfully before running back up the stairs, his footsteps loud and clumsy. He was clearly excited to have been right about the time travel. Younger Phil however, was very much on edge. He was in a strange place with the love of his life who was suddenly older than him, and the older version of himself that was so attractive, Phil couldn’t process it. Was that weird to think?
Dan snickered beside him, pushing Phil’s black fringe from his eyes carefully, “You’ve always been gorgeous, but damn, your thirties make you look delicious, yeah?” He asked teasingly.
Phil stuttered and turned his face, trying desperately to hide his blush, “I… no, well yeah… but no, that’s weird isn’t it? Like I can’t think things like that.” he rambled nervously.
“You can think whatever you want Philly. Anyone with eyes can see how pretty you get, how pretty you’ve always been.” Dan whispered, leaning closer to the younger man.
Suddenly, footsteps sounded from upstairs, and older Phil appeared, holding a hoodie and pajama pants in his hands, “Dan stop flirting with him and let him get changed.” He scolded playfully, handing the clothes to his younger self with a laugh.
“Um… where can I change?” Phil asked quietly, trying to ignore the teasing between the men in front of him.
Dan chuckled, “Well you can change here… it’s nothing we haven’t seen before, right bub?”
Older Phil groaned dramatically and took his younger self’s hand, leading him to the downstairs bathroom, “Sorry about him. He’s always thinking with his cock, that never changes.” He chuckled, holding the door open for the younger Phill to walk through.
“It’s okay. It’s just he’s so hot and older men… and fuck! Why am I telling you this? Sorry…” Younger Phil whimpered, shuffling into the bathroom.
The older man laughed again, “It’s okay Philly, I am you. I know he’s hot but so are you. So are we I could say. And just so it doesn’t get confusing we’re going to call you Philly until you leave, sound good?”
Philly nodded slowly at that, “Yeah…that’s fine. Thank you.”
Phil hummed and shut the door, “We’ll be on the couch in the lounge where we just were. Just come find us. I gotta make my adorable, loveable partner stop thinking with the wrong head, wish me luck.”
Dan looked up when Phil walked back into the room, “I’m ordering some pizza for us all. You said he’ll be here until midnight, yeah? I’m sure he’s hungry.”
“Oi, don’t distract me with food. You’re in trouble, mister! Stop flirting with the younger me! Do you remember how shy I used to be?” Phil scolded, laying on the sofa and resting his head in Dan’s lap.
The brunette absentmindedly ran his fingers through his partner’s hair, smiling mischievously, “Yeah mate, I do. I also remember how horny you would get. But I’ll back off. You said nothing sexy would happen this time anyway. I’m not making you uncomfortable, right? Or him? I don’t want to be a creep.”
Philly walked back into the room, the spare clothes hanging a bit loosely against his pale skin, “you’re not making me uncomfortable… just flustered.” He explained, walking over to the two men.
Dan smiled sheepishly, “Sorry about that. It’s just exciting to have two Phils around.” He explained, patting the space next to him on the couch.
“Yeah, I imagine I would be acting the same way if I had two Dans walking around.” Philly giggled, sitting down carefully.
Phil and Dan snickered and looked at each other knowingly, “Trust me, you would act even worse.” Phil explained, sighing happily as Dan continued to play with his hair.
Philly froze, “You say that like you know…” He whispered, staring at the older version of himself. He couldn’t help but admire how Phil’s shirt was rolled up just enough to show off his pale hips and part of his tummy. The light brown hair that moved from his belly button and down into his sweatpants made Philly nervous. Was he thirsting after himself?
“Well, yeah. You really think we only time travel once? Morbid curiosity tends to get the best of us, and of Dan.” Phil explained with a chuckle, nuzzling his cheek into Dan’s thigh.
Dan shuddered, “don’t do that unless you plan on doing something about it bub.” He scolded, playfully pinching his partner’s cheek, “I just ordered some pizza for us all, should be here in like twenty minutes now.”
Philly nodded thankfully, nervously letting himself get comfortable on the couch. The house was nice and warm, it smelled slightly of cinnamon and vanilla, a scented candle was clearly nearby. He looked around contentedly, trying not to miss his own Dan. They hadn’t seen each other since the YouTuber Jamacian holiday, which had been just a week ago. It felt like a few lifetimes for Phil. What if Dan was trying to call him now?
“Hey, don’t stress about your Dan. He won’t even realize you were gone until you tell him. Time stopped passing in your realm and won’t start again until you go home.” Dan explained, squeezing Philly’s hand in reassurance.
Philly smiled at the touch, “can you read my mind or something?” He asked halfheartedly.
“Feels like it sometimes. I guess when you find a love like ours, you just learn how to read your partner like an open book. I can normally understand how Phil- well, how both of you, are feeling at any time just by the faces you guys make.” Dan explained with a shrug, turning his attention back to his Phil who had fallen asleep.
Philly looked at his older self again, feeling warm, “Do I fall asleep like that a lot?”
Dan paused for a moment, turning to look at Philly again, “Only sometimes really. Yesterday was a bad migraine day, so he didn’t get much restful sleep. He only does this when he’s exhausted or just really comfy. It’s probably both this time. He’s been so excited for you to come, to prove that he wasn’t joking with me. I knew he wasn’t joking, but I still have a hard time believing in this magic bullshit.”
“How else would I be here?” Philly asked quietly, frowning at the migraine comment. He had always gotten migraines here and there, but never so bad that he couldn’t sleep. The thought scared him .
Dan chuckled, “there isn’t any other way that I can think of actually, so I just accept it. Go on now, ask your questions. I can tell you have a ton.”
Philly blushed, not used to being so transparent with his thoughts and feelings, “um… was it hard? Being together I mean. I know you always struggled, especially as we got more popular. Seems like we get famous or something, so how hard was it to be… well, us?” He rambled, playing with Dan’s fingers anxiously.
“Oh dear, it was the scariest and most difficult thing of our lives. We always felt like we had to hide, not just because I didn’t want to be outed, but because what we have is so fucking important and special, we wanted it to be private. There were a lot of scares, a lot of anger between us and fights. We took a break but it didn’t last long, we couldn’t be just friends and we sure as hell couldn’t hate each other. Mistakes will happen to you soon, to both of us soon and it will be hard. It will feel like the end, I will turn into a dick for awhile and hurt you. And I’m sorry, even now. We will hurt each other, worry and hurt our fans and especially worry your family. But we always came back to each other. I don’t like to say soulmates, I don’t think souls exist. But I guess people would say that we are soulmates.” Dan rambled softly, squeezing Philly’s hand again.
Philly chewed his lip nervously, “you can tell me what happens and I can fix it you know? So we don’t have to go through that pain.” He suggested.
Dan shook his head, “No. It was scary, and so fucking hard but it made us realize how much we needed each other. If I had to go back and relive it, I would. And I know one day you will feel the same way. No matter what we go through, how scary it gets, we always find out way back to each other. Back home. Don’t forget that, okay?”
“Oh… okay, I believe you. But I’m a little scared.” Philly whispered, “what if I’m not brave enough? Or strong enough to take care of my Dan when this happens?”
Dan paused and pulled his hand away from Philly’s, using it to cup the younger man’s cheek, “my best piece of advice is to remember that you don’t need to take care of him. You both need to take care of each other. It takes a lot of time, but you will learn to be doted on and taken care of.”
Philly leaned into the touch, closing his eyes as tears ran down his cheeks, “you promise?”
“Yes you spoon, I promise.” Dan smiled, gently moving his Phil’s head from his lap, “bubby, the pizza is here. I need to go grab it.”
Phil groaned and shuffled away from Dan, curling into a ball against the side of the couch. Dan stood up with a hum and ran to the front door, grabbing the pizzas with a thank you.
“Wow. I didn’t expect him to get up and grab the food.” Philly laughed softly, making eye contact with his future self.
Phil smiled, “oh yeah, he spoils me. It’s nice to be his princess sometimes.”
Philly turned a deep red at Phil’s words, “don’t say stuff like that. I’m no one’s princess.”
Phil laughed and sat up completely while Dan shuffled around in the kitchen, the sounds of plates and glasses clattering and the smell of fresh pizza wafting into the lounge. Soon, Dan came walking in with three plates, three glasses and two bottles of Cola.
“We have a meat lovers and a supreme, and some chips of course. I’ll bring the bbq sauce and ketchup in a minute. Lemme go grab the food and some kitchen roll. One Phil is messy, I can only imagine how messy two will be.” He teased, running back out of the room.
Philly sat stiffly, shock painting his features, “Is he always like that?”
“Yep. He spoils me just as much as I spoil him. He’s a bit extra though. Our fans love it though.” Phil smiled, seeming proud of himself.
The three men ate quickly, with Buffy the Vampire Slayer playing on the tv as a way to keep Philly’s nerves at bay. It wasn’t long befor Philly found himself dozing off between the two older men. His head was buried against his future self’s neck and his legs were draped comfortably across Dan’s lap. Both men were holding his hands, thumbs moving across the skin soothingly.
“Is it bad that I don’t want to leave yet?” Philly asked, sleep lacing his voice.
Dan chuckled, “not at all. We like having you here too, but your Dan will miss you otherwise and you will miss him.”
Phil nodded at Dan’s words, “besides, we’ll see you again. Sooner than you probably think too. Next time will be less scary. And you won’t have to worry about your Dan.”
“Wait… Dan will come with me next time?” Philly asked shyly, his cheeks painted pink.
Phil laughed, “I think it’s next time, yeah. You’ll be back, I promise. Now, get some sleep. We’ll see you next time.”
Philly nodded sleepily, a floaty feeling overtaking him as he felt two kisses press against his cheek. Everything went black.
After what felt like hours, Phil woke up, back in the same circle that he had performed his spell in. He was wearing the same clothes that he had been before, not the clothes that he had borrowed from his future self. Everything was completely the same as before and he felt his excitement diminish. It was just a stupid dream. Of course the spell wouldn’t work.
He sighed and heaved himself up from the floor, stumbling a bit at the sudden movement. He put his hands into his pockets and frowned, feeling a folder up piece of paper. Phil pulled it out carefully and unfolded it,
“It wasn’t a dream Philly, I promise you that, We will see you again soon. Next time, wear something warm. It’s close to Christmas when we see you again! Take care!”
