#2015 post

[ladyshrimp]

Some words need two capital letters at the start to really get the point across. PAper. CRime. DInosaur. STuff.

[bottlesofpop]

2015

Basically a summation of 2015 for me. Maybe I’ll read this post in a year and see how much I’ve grown (or not? we will see) maybe I’ll forget it, but here goes!

In the beginning of the year, I was depressed as hell because my ex had broken up with me in December 2014. I don’t even remember much from January and February. We had actually gotten back together the day after Valentine’s Day (huge mistake). We broke up again before summer break had started. It was after I broke up with him that I realized how much of a liar he is, and how much a lot of what he did to me was abuse (manipulating me and using me). Even after we broke up, he continued to do horrible things to me. It’s unfortunate that it took me too long to realize that the person who I loved and trusted more than anything didn’t do the same, and lied to me throughout our relationship. Basically, the year and a half that we had spent together was a waste of time, money, and energy for me.

I guess it was not totally a waste of time, because it was through him that I made one of my best friends, and it all started with seeing Mad Max over the summer. I was so worried that this summer was going to be awful. I had to take classes again and thought that I would be alone in a college town, but it was nothing like that. It was one of the best summers of my life, despite having to take 12 hours of classes (but I made A’s in my grad level classes whoop). I made a great friend (and through him, other great friends) that I really hope I will continue to be friends with in the future. I’m so thankful that he was there for me when all that stupid stuff with my ex went down. Him and his girlfriend are just such awesome people and I’m so thankful that I know them (even if they are total weebs).

I also ended up getting an internship with one of the accounting firms that I had recruited with as part of being in the accounting program at my school, made a shit ton of money, and even received a full time offer to come back when I’m done with school in 2017. It was also during the internship that I started to really take care of myself. One of my beliefs is that I think that everyone should always be striving to be a better version of themselves; whether improvement for them means picking up hobbies, being healthy, etc. I started working out and eating healthy and I have lost 10 pounds in the past few months. I want to continue to be healthy (and hope to lose another 10 pounds) so I’m really excited about keeping up with it next year. 

Besides the usual getting my grades up, being healthy, etc. type stuff, I really want to focus on building long lasting relationships and focusing on hobbies in 2016. Maybe this will be my year, maybe it won’t. But I’m ready 2016. Let’s do this shit.

[whatismorissey]

A death, a rebirth, and...

What a year 2015 has been, and seemed to have found a way to swoosh itself out of my life. It all happened so fast, more like a blur yet felt like everything’s stuck in my head. A rollercoaster-ride of mixed feelings, adventures, and emotions. This would be the first time that I’ll actually do this, you know, to talk about how my year went because the past years were a fucking waste (well, not completely) and I find this kind of stuff very ‘cheesy’ but I can’t help but to write something about my year’s chaos (and indeed chaotic in the greatest and awesomest way possible). 

This year was the busiest, most productive year ever. That’s why maybe everything felt like they happened all so fast. From school to work to making music to adventures with friends and random people and parties to returning home with my family. I did explore a lot of things, places, among other things.. Met a lot of new and interesting people, discovered countless artists, songs, and great books, and I’ve been writing more. Colored my hair (which was either the greatest or most disastrous thing I did to it) with different shades, numerous shoots and captured moments, played countless and exciting gigs, hosted different events, lots of sleepless nights (technically, sleepless days) and died in between them.

For obvious and intoxicated reasons, I can’t remember them all so I guess I’ll just have to mention my favorites (again, most probably I can’t mention all of them but what the hell)

One of the happiest yet heartbreaking moments in the history of my sight and feels was this one, definitely.

Our first ever music video, and our first ever music video launch! (and if I’m not mistaken, the first ever serious (music) video I directed and written, of course with the help of my bandmates and friends) And I can say that we’re truly humbled with all the people who supported us all the way, since day one, who helped us make this video and the launch possible, who shared the video on their social media accounts, for the love and to those who came that night. A night filled with friends, family, and even people I don’t know personally. Went on stage wasted and so it really was one of the highlights of my year. Again, thank you all folks!

Of all the experiences that happened this year, travels were the most unforgettable and I must say the craziest!

An all day no-sleep adventure in Baguio for the nth time was also one of my favorites. Definitely planning to go back there again and hopefully, with a lot of rest and money! haha

And I must say out of all the travels I could remember, our trip to Baler was definitely the most of the most. 

Why? Because we hiked for almost an hour and a half just to get to this paradise, almost an hour to go back down, searched a nice spot along the seashore to chill, and then big tides came in and took my wallet, not knowing, all along it was Signal Number 3 and we didn’t have the slightest clue. *sigh* but it was a great experience, you know, fearing for your life (and I really don’t know why... haha)

Forestille, my eternal brothers, from another womb. The people I share the most painful feels with, and then turn it into our music. My favorite way of expressing myself. Truly thankful for them for being with me in our band. 2 years, and hopefully we’ll continue this for countless more years. This year has been solid for us, lots of fun and interesting gigs this year! Let’s hit this on the road, folks. Next year will be the most interesting one, an album launch tour perhaps? ;) 

Numerous shoots, but this one is definitely the most productive and challenging of all. I cannot thank 21:9 Multimedia, and Bruno Tiotuico enough for a crazy year, my friends, “fam”, and definitely bros for keeps. A great starting year for us, and I’m expecting that the upcoming years would be harsh, yet rewarding. Thank you for the adventures, and for the most wonderful moments, folks. 

Lots of fan boy moments (HA! but I’ll only mention what I can) and one of them was I got to see, meet, and talk with Joyce Pring and Patty Tiu! It was definitely one of the most exhilarating moment I’ve ever been to, and most of the time I’m trying to catch my breath because I’m running out of them just by simple looking at these lovely ladies. Thanks for the hugs and the moment, my love. This wouldn’t be the last time. And I’m glad (or sad) to say that I’m ending my year infatuated with you, again, Dear Joyce.. Hahaha

Fanboy moment number 2! Damn, had a conversation with the most interesting person in the local scene today, Jacques Concepcion of BRICKCITY. Great guy, but shy in person haha. Thanks for the brief conversation! We’ll do this again sir! (If you’re not familiar with him, I suggest you go and check out his band!)

Favorite fanboy moment number 3! (And definitely not the last one)

Urbandub! (Or at least Gab and John only)

A rare moment, and definitely honored to share the stage with you guys and a heartbreaking one because 2015 would be your final year as Urbandub.. A sad day for our music industry, indeed. Thank you for the music, thank you for the feels, and thank you for the inspiration. Hope to see you again.

These are just some of the highlights of this year’s chaos. I want to say that I was happy the whole time, but I can’t and that’s the beauty of it. Solitude and the loneliest moments; these are the factors that’ll shape your soul, or at least in mine. Definitely a year to remember. I can’t wait to start the next, (or end). Lots of plans for the next one but knowing myself, they won’t happen haha! But definitely be doing ‘more’ of the stuff I mentioned (well, hopefully) 

Thanks for shaping me up, 2015. And cheers to what could’ve been..

[euphorica-smiles]

Wow... 2015 is almost ending.

It’s been....I think 3 years for me here? Ever since I started out as sunnydewdew (still thinking about whether to revert back to that name or not). Catch up with some old contacts, met new lovely people, good memories, bittersweet memories, bad memories; fun times, not-so-fun times, more otome, more biases... 

Lots more to look forward to. 

[readytowin]

I just went on my first mile run (without stopping at all) in like a month and I'm so happy.😊😊 I mean it was a pretty easy jog but I don't usually run outside and I did today and I went by myself and I'm sorry but I'm pretty proud of myself tbh.

[readytowin]

10.05.15

i had another one of those "i need to recommit" moments yesterday. it seems like a weekly ordeal but as long as i keep going i don't mind it. i went for a run and usually on Sunday's i just do a 10 minute run but i pushed it a little and did a mile instead. sounds dumb but it was nice to go a tiny bit further than i had planned. good music is key. i started counting calories again on MyFitnessPal. I've been on track for two days now which is no big deal but im happy with what ive done. Endurance is my biggest objective right now. I want to increase my distance. I'm also trying to minimize my after school naps lol. i find that i get home and immediately crash and waste all my time. I'm trying to stay awake after school now. Anyway, just a quick update. Hope you all have a good week.

[sexysmeagolshitposting]

My dad brought me back a black pearl ring from Thailand because Pirates of the Caribbean was one of our favorite movies when I was little.