Wow, 2018 was something else, wasn't it? The first half of the year I didn't get much accomplished and was pretty much lost. By June is when things slowly but surely started to lighten up. I came to accept the fact that I have bad anxiety and mild depression because of it, and as such, I got help. I started seeing a psychiatrist, and though I was nervous beyond words at first - thinking of myself as a freak, like I wasn't "normal" and was getting judged for it - I actually really started liking the sessions. It was nice being able to vent out my thoughts and feelings and figuring out some ways to handle it all a bit better. I got talked into getting out of the house and hanging out with people at least twice (meeting people I didn't know as well), and I actually had fun. I chose to start expressing myself and letting out my inner goth girl - the part of me that's been there since 2011 but was evidently too afraid to shine through - and learn to except that this is who I am and there's nothing wrong with it. Overall, while the first half of the year was disappointing, the rest of 2018 became a year of embracing who I am, knowing it's okay to seek help when needed, and slowly but surely taking steps to make me happier in life. 2019 is going to be my year, I can feel it. It'll be challenging - getting out of my comfort zone, going out and hanging out with friends and meeting people, applying for jobs, being more independent - but as long as I push myself to take baby steps forward, it'll be worth it. I've got PMA on my side and 2019 is going to be my bitch! #topnine2018 #top92018 #memyselfandi #myface #gothgirl #cutegothgirl #alternative #alternativegirl #greenhair #cutealternativegirl #newyearseve #2018review #2018reflection #pma #positivementalattitude https://www.instagram.com/p/BsEn9-JFbqy/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=cqy37ocu94vt
