To All the Kids
gift fic exchange with ad.gray
Synopsis: Your sister “accidentally” sent out letters your wrote to your crushes as a kid.
Warning: mention of death
Word Count: 3k
Pairing: fem!reader x Kim Seungmin, Yang Jeongin, Lee Felix
27 May 2008 Dear Kim Seungmin, I like you. Like, like like you. You might not know this, but I actually draw on your notes on purpose to get you to pay attention to me. I act angry when you draw on mine back, but I actually like them a lot and look at them when I’m not listening to Miss Park. Your glasses are so cute, and I really like your voice too. You sing very well, and it makes my heart go flip-flop. You’re very smart too, and that makes you HOT. AAAAHHHH forget I wrote that please. Anyway, I like you, and I want to kiss you. Okay, that’s enough. Bye. Love, L/N Y/N
10 December 2014 Dear Yang Jeongin, I wish I could have told you this before I graduated, but of course being the chicken I am, I can’t do that, so I’ll just say it here: I like you. As in more than a friend. I’m sorry I’ve been drifting away for the past few weeks. I know you must be sad, but I just can’t control my heart whenever you smile around me, which is like, all the time. Every time you walk into the room, all the colours get a little more vibrant, and every time you tell a joke, I crack up like a maniac. I must look very ugly doing that, so that’s also why I’ve been distancing. It’s kind of sad knowing I won’t see you at school next year, but hopefully that will give me enough time to mature and laugh properly by the time you get into high school. (You are going to JYPH, right?) Love, L/N Y/N
20 August 2016 Dear Lee Felix, I thought I am old enough to not have silly things like crushes anymore, but you’ve managed to destroy all my resolve. Honestly, I didn’t really like you at first. Well, not you, particularly, but how all the girls flocked over you the first day you transferred into class because of your accent and deep voice. However, the first time I heard you squeak in frustration when the vending machine ate your money, I immediately fell head over heels for you. Ever since that day, I haven’t stopped thinking about you and your freckle-dusted cheeks. Seriously, it’s like you have the entire galaxy there. Not to be creepy, but whenever you chat with your friends by the door, I try to count them. They’re extra prominent these days, aren’t they? I looked it up. It’s because of the heat. If that’s so, I guess I can tolerate the blaring sun. That’s two things good about the summer: your freckles and popsicles. If you’re not too weirded out by my strange freckle obsession, I hope one day I can share a two-stick popsicle with you. Love, L/N Y/N
03 November 2018 Dear Y/N, Well… This definitely was not something I was expecting. Is this a prank? I’m sorry if it is not; I do not mean to come off as rude and dismissive, but this is just so sudden, especially when we haven’t spoken much since primary school. If it is not a prank and you do have feelings for me, I hope to receive your reply. Sincerely, Kim Seungmin
04 November 2018 Hi Seungmin, I do not know how that letter got out! I wrote that when we were eight and childish. I’m so sorry to inconvenience you or make you feel weird about it. Please forget what you read and never speak of it. Again, I’m so, so sorry. Apologies, L/N Y/N
05 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, Don’t worry. I was not at all bothered by the letter. However, I am concerned that you have not replied to my question. Did you really like me? Or do you like me? Patiently awaiting, Kim Seungmin
05 November 2018 Dear Miss Y/N, I’m sorry if this letter is confusing. My Korean is still not that good yet. I am flattered that you feel this way about me. I must say I am a little shocked to hear something like this from you. I honestly think you are a very sweet person and would love to get to know you more. Yours truly, Lee Felix
06 November 2018 Hi Seungmin, I did like you back then, and you are my first crush, but I swear that is all over now. Please do not feel obligated or weird about all of this and just forget it. Again, I’m so sorry. I’m still tracking down who sent that letter. I am so flustered right now because I can’t find any of them, and I think they’ve been all sent out because someone else received one too. When I find the culprit, I’ll make sure they pay for your inconvenience. Best regards, L/N Y/N
06 November 2018 Hi Felix, Your Korean is very good! Please do not worry about that. That letter was sent out by someone else by mistake. I’m so sorry you had to read something so cringy like that. I would love to be friends, but only if it’s not because the letter makes you feel like you have to be my friend or anything. Cordially, L/N Y/N
07 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, You have other letters? Actually, that makes sense. I saw one of the underclassmen with a similar looking stationary earlier today. Anyway, please stop apologizing. You have not caused me any inconvenience, but I can see that all this is stressing you out quite a bit. If you would like, I can help you look for the letters, especially before they are received by the recipient. Warmly, Kim Seungmin
07 November 2018 Dear Y/N, I received something unexpected today. I must admit, I was rather hurt when you started ghosting me back then. I thought I did something to deserve it, but I’m glad I know why you did that now. Unfortunately, I cannot return your feelings right now in case you still have them. I just got out of a relationship, and I don’t think I am ready for another yet. With regret, Yang Jeongin
08 November 2018 Hi Jeongin, I’m so sorry about what happened to us in the past. I also apologize that you got sent that letter. It was never my intention for them to be sent. I hope you recover well from the relationship you just left. If you are willing, I am here as a friend for you if you need someone to talk to. Yours truly, L/N Y/N
08 November 2018 Hi Seungmin, Unfortunately all the letters have been received already, but I am very grateful for your offer to help. As for the stress, I will be okay. This will be all in the past some day, hopefully. Thank you for your support. Take care, L/N Y/N
10 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, Thanks for reaching out to me first at lunch today. I was a little awkward because I have never talked to you outside of these letters. I’m glad we were able to talk. You seem like a very cool person, and I am glad to have you as a friend. Kindly, Lee Felix
11 November 2018 Hi Felix, No problem! I guess this is one good thing that came out of those embarrassing letters. I’m so glad we are able to look beyond that incident. Actually, thank you so much for looking beyond that letter. It’s been stressing me out a lot, and knowing I can still be friends with one of the recipients is a huge relief. Thank you, L/N Y/N
15 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, I’ve deduced that the letters must have originated from your residency. The return address states your current house, but it came to me that you did not live there when the letter was written. I hope this helps you find the sender and that that helps relieve some of your stress about all of this. It’s been over a week now, and I can tell it still bothers you. If this doesn’t help, I hope the chocolate I left on your desk will do the trick. Sincerely, Kim Seungmin
20 November 2018 Hi Seungmin, Thank you for the candy. It really did boost my mood when I saw that. Also, thank you for your information. I’m suspecting it is my sister since the letters were received not long after I complained to her about not having a boyfriend to take me to the Christmas Eve ball, ahahaha. It’s silly, I know. I think she was just trying to help, but she made all this mess instead. Anyway, I’m glad some positives came out of the situation. With thanks, L/N Y/N
21 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, I’m glad to hear that there were some positives that you found in the midst of all this. If you don’t mind me asking, is it because one of the recipients accepted your feelings? Is it Felix? He is a good kid. I am happy for you. -Kim Seungmin
24 November 2018 Hi Seungmin, Felix is one of the positives, but just as a friend. I didn’t really know him before, so I’m just glad I got another friend from all this. No one’s reciprocated the thought, and honestly, I’m grateful for it. It is too embarrassing for me to endure, aha. Anyways, are you feeling alright these days? I’ve noticed you looked a little down. Bests, L/N Y/N
26 November 2018 Dear Y/N, Is that shoulder to cry on still available? Honestly, my breakup has been getting to me more than I thought it would. I’ve been trying to push my emotions aside, but all I’ve been doing is building them up. I really need someone right now. Would you mind if that someone is you? Gratefully, Yang Jeongin
27 November 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, I’m alright now, thank you. I am a little shocked you noticed, but I am grateful. I’m sorry to hear your sister did not solve your boyfriend problem. Is it still something that concerns you? Thanks for thinking of me, Kim Seungmin
28 November 2018 Dear Jeongin, Of course I am still here for you any time. Please don’t hesitate to reach out. Wishing you the best, L/N Y/N
28 November 2018 Dear Seungmin, Thank you for the chocolate again. You don’t have to worry about my boyfriend problem though. I understand that these things have their own time. Still, I appreciate the sentiment! Many thanks, L/N Y/N
01 December 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, You’re welcome for the chocolates. I’ve noticed how much you like them, and that makes me very happy. As for your “problem,” I hope you solve it before the ball since it is our last one. My best wishes are with you. Sincerely yours, Kim Seungmin
10 December 2018 Dear Y/N, I realized that today is the anniversary of when you wrote that first letter. Looking back, I am awed by how much our relationship changed over the years. Despite the downs, I can honestly say that I feel much closer to you now than I have ever felt before, Y/N. The way you’ve been there for me these past few weeks… They’ve really shown how amazing of a person you are. Maybe that first letter was a fluke. Maybe those were just some immature feelings, but I know that what I feel from you now is genuine, and it has touched my heart. That said, if there is any chance you feel the same way, or if those feelings from five years ago are still here, will you go to the Christmas Eve ball with me? With love, Yang Jeongin
10 December 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, I usually hate all this sappy stuff, but with the Christmas Eve ball approaching, I can’t help but feel more and more anxious, especially whenever I see another boy around you. I have been trying to be discrete and not push things out of your comfort zone, so I am sorry to spring this letter on you, but I just can’t hold it back anymore-- not when you are so beautiful and kind and everything I could hope for. Unfortunately, I know I am not the only one who notices this about you, so I must ask now before it is too late. Will you let me solve what your sister couldn’t? Will you let me take you to the Christmas Eve ball? Awaiting with all my heart, Kim Seungmin
16 December 2018 Dear Jeongin, I’m sorry for the late reply, especially on such a sensitive matter, but I have been giving your proposal a lot of thought, and I am even more sorry to say that I must reject your offer. I think you are going through a difficult time right now, but from our crying sessions together, I think you still have a very special place in your heart for your previous relationship. This is a spot that I will never be able to replace no matter how hard you want me to. I am still here if you need a shoulder to cry on, but I will never be a hand to hold. With sincere apologies, L/N Y/N
24 December 2018 Dear L/N Y/N, Merry Christmas. You have given me the best present ever and I don’t think you even understand how much I appreciate it. When I first received your letter in November, I was scared because I thought someone found out my deepest secret and was using it to prank me. Truthfully, I have liked you for a very long time, but never would I have thought that you’d be standing next to me like this with matching corsages. You’ve honestly made me the happiest I have ever been when you left that chocolate on my desk with “yes” written on the wrapping paper, so I thought, “what can I do for you in return?” It didn’t take me long to realize there is probably nothing that compares to the way you make me feel, so here’s something that hopefully shows you a bit of my gratitude. Coincidentally enough, it is a compilation of letters I’ve written since I was a child. I guess in this way, we really are fated, aren’t we? Happy readings. Always and forever, Kim Seungmin
24 December 2006 Dear Stupid Y/N, Look! I’m learning to write letters. I bet you don’t know how to do that. Ha! I bet Santa’s not going to get you any presents because you stole my crayon yesterday. Love, Kim Seungmin
24 December 2014 Dear Y/N, I don’t even know why I am writing this to you, but I found the letter I wrote in 2006 and thought, why not? I think I was supposed to send that one to you, but I guess I didn’t. Why did I write that anyway? I must have had a childhood crush on you or something. Oh, that was embarrassing to admit. I guess I won’t give you this letter too. Anyway, congrats on graduating! JYPH is not an easy high school to get into. My mom wants me to go to SMH instead, but I pleaded and pleaded, so now I’m going to JYPH too. Not because of you, of course! Still, I hope I get to see you around. Merry Christmas, Kim Seungmin
24 December 2015 Dear L/N Y/N, It’s been a year since I last wrote, and still, I have no idea why I’m doing it again. I can’t believe how much we’ve grown in the past 365 days. Especially you. High school has really changed you, but in a good way. There’s a new sense of confidence in your step and a spark in your eyes that I find very… attrac-- interesting. Anyway! Moving on. Merry Christmas! Cheers, Kim Seungmin
24 December 2016 Dear L/N Y/N, I guess this is going to be a yearly thing now. It’s actually a good way to remember the past and compare it to the present. Once again, you’ve grown, and this time, I’ve noticed a change in me too. There’s a certain grace about you now that just captures the eye and holds it there. You’re really unique, you know that? As for me, I’ve matured enough to finally admit that I do indeed like you. To myself, at least. I can’t imagine saying it to you quite yet. If I see you around today or tomorrow, I’ll try to wish you a merry Christmas at least. Wait for me, Kim Seungmin
24 December 2017 Dear Santa Claus, Are you there? I haven’t thought about you in forever. Usually, I write a letter to this girl named L/N Y/N around this time. However, this year, I can’t. Why? Because I am ashamed of myself. Really, I am. For a whole year, I danced around, trying to get my confession for her out, but alas. I only have one more year to get this right before we move on to college, so the clock is really ticking. Santa, if you’re up there, will you grant me the opportunity and courage? Please. She means the world to me. Sincerely, Kim Seungmin
“19 May 2028 Dearest Y/N, Much of our journey together has been literally written in paper, yet all I can see is more and more pages waiting to be filled by us. I promise to fill each and every single one of those sheets with more love than the one before it without condition and without regret until death do us part. Love, Your Husband”
‘01 February 20XX My Dearest Y/N, At last we have arrived at the final page of our book. Though this story is finite, my love for you is infinite. Remember this always. Love eternally, Kim Seungmin
22 September 2000 - 02 February 20XX’
~ ad.gold
A/N: Merry Christmas, ad.gray! Though we can’t meet this year, I hope this brings a little of my warmth over to you. I hope you like what I turned your gift request into! (Prob not, but :P)
Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone! I hope y’all find peace and stay healthy this winter season.
