( 애인 ) when you get dating rumors with seungmin because you both love pochacco. thank twitter. or don't.
💭 :: 28ss fluff illit member!rea changbin being a freak no one thinks seungy/n can pull one (1) tadc reference
𑣲⋆ note ⸝⸝ @kloversung & @yawwni cameo in there #girlfriends
“We should do that trend where you wipe lipstick off the bottom of my lip and I pan to your face covered in lipstick marks,” you suggested. You were lying on Seungmin’s chest, doomscrolling. He was on his phone too. His hand rested on your head, and his thumb swiped over the crown of your head absentmindedly. However, when you said that, he stopped abruptly. He looked up from his phone with wide eyes.
“That’s… wow. I mean, yeah, I’m down,” he said. Seungmin was your shy boyfriend. You two had been dating for a few months now, but you’d never really done anything more than hold hands. Not because it was weird or anything, you two were fine with physical touch, but you just… never got around to it like that. But now… that was going to change. He swallowed once, and you got up from his bed.
You smiled mischievously. “I’ll go get my lipstick.” You left the room in search of your bag and lipstick.
When you came back to Seungmin’s room, your red lipstick in hand, he looked scared. Well, okay, not scared, but he was definitely afraid of what you were about to do to him. Which was nothing bad! Probably.
“Don’t ruin my face, please,” he said, backing away from you until his back hit the headboard.
You sat down next to him, the mattress sinking slightly. “I won’t, I won’t…” you promised. Oh, you were so messing up his face. You opened the lipstick and applied the first layer to your lips. “I’m gonna kiss you now, okay?”
Seungmin’s breath hitched. “Yeah. Yeah, okay.”
You scooted closer to him and cupped his face gingerly. You looked at your boyfriend. Really looked at him. His cheeks were flushed already, his lips parted, and his eyes were fixed on your mouth. You smiled to yourself before you pressed a kiss to his forehead.
Seungmin whined. Like a dog (affectionate). “Hey… that’s not fair.”
You laughed softly. “Patience, Minnie.” You reapplied the red tint to your lips and kissed his right cheek next. Then his left.
Seungmin’s eyes fluttered shut. “This is actually torture. Please, baby. Just… just kiss me already.”
You ignored him. Once again, you reapplied the lipstick and pressed your lips to his nose, to his chin, and then trailed down his jaw, peppering kisses along his hot skin. His breathing became more labored.
“Baby…” he started, and your heart stuttered at how he looked. His cheeks were pink, and he was looking at you with such intensity that you felt butterflies. His eyes were hooded, and he tried again. “Baby, please.” That was what set you off. You leaned in and finally, finally gave him what he wanted.
You pressed your lips to his, and he let out a groan into your mouth. He pulled you closer, moving his hand to your neck. He was desperate, you could feel it. Seungmin deepened the kiss. You two were intertwined, lips moving in tandem, and you couldn’t get enough. Now you felt guilty for not kissing him sooner. His nose bumped yours as he tilted his head to kiss you harder. You felt his fingers tug at your hair, you felt his teeth nip at your bottom lip, you felt him. All of him. Why the actual heck hadn’t you kissed him sooner????
Seungmin broke away first, his breaths coming in sharp pants. “Wow,” was all he said. You couldn’t have said it better yourself. Wow.
You cleared your throat. “I’m, uh, gonna finish marking your face now. For the video.”
Seungmin nodded, too quickly. “Yeah. Okay, yeah, you do that.”
You placed a few more kisses on his cheeks for good measure and then sat back to admire your handiwork. Seungmin’s hair was tousled, like someone had run their hands through it several times (Yeah, someone had. You.), his face was covered with red, but what really stood out to you was his mouth. God. His lips were swollen, smeared with a crimson tint, and you could see the smudges on the skin around his lips. He looked very thoroughly messed up, you thought.
You grabbed your phone from your pocket, smirking. “Wanna see yourself, Minnie?”
He groaned. “No. I’m scared of what I’ll see.”
You opened your camera and showed him the marks on his skin, and he whistled. “Damn. You really just went to town, huh?”
You felt your face heating up. “It’s for the trend!!!”
He rolled his eyes playfully. “For the trend. Sure. You know, if you wanted to kiss me that badly, you could have just asked like a normal person.”
You swatted his shoulder. “Shut up! You were the one who was kissing me like you were dying!”
The tips of his ears turned red. “Yeah, well you kissed me back!”
You huffed. “Let’s just record the video now.”
He nodded, and you hit the record button. You picked up your lipstick once more, swiped across your lips, and made a messy line outside of your bottom lip. Seungmin’s thumb gingerly wiped off the red from your skin, and you panned the camera over to him. To his face, covered in your lipstick stains. He was looking at you with stars in his eyes. A gentle smile spread across his face, and you stopped recording.
He touched his forehead to yours, and you ran your fingers through his hair.
“We should do this more often,” he said, his voice low.
You laughed and replied, “What, I should cover your face with lipstick more often?”
Seungmin pouted and rolled his eyes. “No. You should kiss me more often. God, you’re such a little-”
You cut him off with a kiss, which he reciprocated instantly. You broke away with a smirk. “I’m a little…?”
Seungmin flicked your forehead lightly, sighing. “You should be thankful I like you,” he said with no animosity in his voice. He pulled you into his arms again, and you nuzzled into his neck.
“I should probably wipe off all of this, huh?” you asked, poking his cheek.
“In a minute. I just want to hold you like this for a while longer,” he whispered into your head. And you were content with that, in his arms. His hold remained tight around you, and his face stayed covered with lipstick stains.
᭙ʜᴇɴ ⸝⸝ girl scout season comes around it’s another season Kim Seungmin hates more than anything, until walking by your booth he makes it apparent thin mints might not be the only cookie he wants.
₊˚⊹ ᰔ │ smau, crack, fluff, cursing, sex mention, reader is helping her niece,
⟶ [ 𝐤𝐚𝐢’𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞 ] happy birthday to me , got no plans but love me some cake 😛 ♡ ︎ [ 𝐧𝐚𝐯𝐢 ]
the moment he got you alone, he's all over you. warm, scattered palms and lips firm against yours. like he's trying to slip through the cracks and be a part of you. hungry but savoring.
at dinner, you were so polite. a small fundraiser for charity seungmin brought you to where you'd eventually leaned over and raked your hands in the back of his scalp. you hadn't said anything but you threw an innocuous smile his way. it knocked the wind out of him. soft, dinner ambient lighting in a warm hue. the room was full but it felt like you were the only one there.
he's carefully running his hands down the back of you dress, fishing for the zipper. his lips are swollen from his little display of having you flush against the hotel door. security inside, privacy where he can cherish you like you deserve. seungmin laughs to himself, voice low as he presses his fingers into the seam where the zipper is hidden.
"i consider myself to be a very patient man. you just— god, i couldn't stop watching you, everything you do is so... fuck, this stupid zipper..."
you hum softly with the corners of your lips raising, "need help there, casanova?"
his reply is instantaneous, pressing his forehead against yours as he finally finds that little piece of metal he was searching for. "first of all... you’re not lifting a finger tonight—" he drags the zipper down, the corner of his thumb just barely touching your skin with every inch he reveals. he feels you shiver and listens to the way you stop a breath from coming out in full.
"second of all, don't call me that... casanova. like i'd dare love and leave you."
seungmin's hands push the sleeves of your dress down as he flattens his tongue against your pulse on your neck. moaning a small noise at the taste before closing his mouth down to suck a mark into your skin. something that'll send a message to others if they dare get a glimpse. your own hands are working to tug off his own clothes after you let the dress fall to the floor. he'll give you that one task tonight, being polite.
he pulls from your neck and lets his eyes rove over you. you're a vision wrapped in lace. his hands find purchase around your waist, thumbs rubbing back and forth over your skin. you're exceedingly warm and ready. "all for me, angel?"
and just because you're a tease, you reply, "no, for my other boyfriend."
seungmin is secure. confident and content and happy with you, why would he ever have a reason to be jealous of a stupid, cheeky joke? he just grins, glad you can keep up with his playful nature even at a time like this... and lifts you off of the ground to make you squeal so joyous.
"ah, your other boyfriend?" he muses against your neck as he sets you on the bed, clambering over you. seungmin thinks you look gorgeous laid out on hotel room whites. he shrugs off the now unbuttoned white dress shirt he was wearing, thanks to your handiwork earlier while he was preoccupied. seungmin burrows his head back into your neck. you smell like a perfume he bought you, one he swatched against his hoodie so he could have your comfort all day.
"does your other boyfriend know how beautiful you look like this? yeah?" he leans back a bit to pull at his belt, the soft clinking of metal filling the room as he stares down at you with a humored look. you just lie back against the pillows like something out of a painting. "does this... other boyfriend make you feel good? does he know how to get soft whimpers out of you? talk to me, angel..."
"only you do," you whisper as seungmin's body comes down onto yours, as he's stripped to his boxers, his arousal unable to stay hidden with the tent in his pants. your hands come around his neck as he kisses between your collarbones. your words make him hum and roll you both onto your sides, so he can spoon you. his hold on you is of desperation but also, tenderness.
"yeah... only me... kinda feel bad for your other boyfriend, though."
"idiot..."
"one more time, lovie...?"
he doesn't let you finish in his game of teasing, seungmin's hands are already pulling your panties off like the wrapper to his favorite candy. he thinks you're sweeter though. that got you silent really quickly as one hand is splayed on your shoulder blades to keep him pressed against you, the other sliding down the curve of your ass and down your thigh to prop it up over his hip. seungmin's eyes flit down so he can capture your lips into his, which you gladly accept.
with his arm at such an angle over your side, his fingers naturally find your wet heat, chuckling into your mouth as he eats up your soft whine. not teasing. he loves that he can unravel you like thread from a few words and touches.
seungmin lets his fingers slide through the mess of your folds, sinewy strings of arousal that makes his cock jump. when you part breathless from his lips, your tongues are connected in a string of saliva. seungmin likes the mess. it's human, carnal.
his forehead comes down onto yours as he brings his middle and ring finger to rub tight and slow circles over your sensitive clit, letting out a condescending gasp when you mewl into his neck. such a pretty sound. your hips are twitching, mimicking the motions of grinding against all but two of his fingers.
"let it out, lemme hear it..." he brings his middle finger down your slit, lithe digit pushing past the initial ring of muscle and eases his way in. curling, pulling out as many choked out sounds from your lips as he can. "you're so wet... were you thinking about your other—”
"not now. please."
"yes, ma'am."
seungmin slips a second finger in, curling and prodding against familiar spots that make stars shoot up your spine. his other hand presses firm against your spine, you're not going anywhere. you tend to do that, run from your own pleasure. he thinks its cute. a sentence to tease you is right on his lips, but falters when he sees you panting and looking up at him with your best puppy dog eyes. damn you, woman.
"c-can we... can we do it like this, m-min?"
seungmin hisses out a curse under his breath, only because he's so unbelievably filled with love and his desire for you. he nods his head rapidly, kissing your cheek and panting into your ear as he scissors his fingers in deep to your cunt, grinding his palm slowly against your clit. each drag across your bundle of nerves when he pulls away fills his ears with the creamy sound of your wetness.
"any way you want it, i'm yours, angel."
he's parting his fingers from you, regretfully. but with the way you're clinging onto his shoulders, it easy to see that the only thing either of you wants and needs right now is him to be inside of you. he lays on his back for a moment to pull his boxers down, unceremoniously throwing them across the room in a way that makes you giggle.
never was there such a perfect woman. he spoons you again, your leg over his waist as seungmin brings you in close. his nose skims you cheek as his hard cock twitches against the inside of your thigh, making him gasp sharply. his forehead finds yours again, and your eyes are already on his.
"you really are an angel," seungmin whispers as if anyone else can hear. it makes you whine when he takes the soft tip of his cock over your clit and rubs over it. like he's making sure you still want him. and when he finally sinks himself into your sopping hole—
"just like heaven— fuck, that's it... c'mere. closer, angel..."
seungmin's arms hold you in a bear hug, chest to chest, impossible to separate. he wastes no time bucking his hips up into yours, sliding his wet cock in and out of your plush and tight walls. your panting and gasping whimpers bounce around his head.
"m-minnie!" you cling to him as his movements jostle you, praying that the hotel has good enough walls to support hiding the sounds of you and the bed. seungmin presses a firm kiss to your temple as he lets out a sound deep from his diaphragm.
"good girl, good fucking girl... be a pretty angel and l-let me do everything... ngh— pretty princess... you smell so good! like cake— fuck! just l-let me fuck you..."
seungmin's more chatty than usual, whining and whimpering into your neck as he thrusts up into your pussy. but every other breath is met with an almost animalistic sound from his chest. he can feel every clench and ridge, and if he were to look down between where you two connect, he would see a creamy ring forming at the base of his cock from how much pleasure he's giving you.
while his pace may be fast, the motions and strokes are gentle. seungmin knows balance, he knows control. "is that the spot, honey? right there? talk, angel, please... 'm losing my mind—"
"please don't stop!"
"don't even ask."
with a little extra help of his hand coming between your bodies, his palm splays on your navel, thumb slipping out of his control from how wet you are on your clit. the sound you make sounds like pure ecstasy, your head thrown back and allowing for seungmin to nip and lap at your skin. seungmin could come right then and there, listening to the sounds your lips and cunt make with every slap of slick.
but you’re close. he can feel it with every spasm and pull in further of your warmth snug around him. his own neck bends back, bangs sticking to his forehead. as much as he doesn’t want this to end, he needs to bring you to the height of your orgasm. needs you to go boneless and limp.
seungmin’s teeth graze your ear, breath hot and wanton with sharp, punched out growls and whines.
“come for me, angel. can f-feel you… gah— fuck, i love you—”
that’s what makes you cry out. you go silent before you do though, before the wave finally hits you. ears ringing, seungmin holds you as tight as he can and glides in and out of your twitchy hole with the goal to let your ride your high and bring himself to the edge as well.
“oh my god! you’re so beautiful, fuck, fuck, fuck! i-i’m coming, honey, i’m…”
his dick pulses once. then twice in rapid succesion, before you can feel him spill deep inside you. seungmin’s words falter as he gives a final deep thrust, rolling over atop of you with his weight and sobbing out a high moan into your neck. you gasp sharply at the pleasurable feeling, his cum practically leaking from deep within you. there’s no other sound besides that of your breathing intermingled and heavy panting.
your hands run through his hair, his face brought down to your chest where he tugs at the lace cup of your bra to kiss hickeys and lick mindlessly at your skin.
“fuck… sorry i made a mess… ruined your makeup… i can… i can clean you up though…”
not a single thought in seungmin’s mind reflects anything about cleaning. not really… seungmin’s cleaning involves his head between your legs for the remainder of the night until you decidedly go down on him to make up for it (which he will profusely be a brat about).
he raises his head and you see how red his face is. eyes glossy and full of love, before he huffs out a breathless laugh.
you smile tiredly at him, biting your lip, before kissing his own forehead. seungmin sucks in a breath and deflates against you, letting his eyes close as he rests his head to hear your heartbeat coming down. he lets out a sigh, the same way a puppy does when you're unsure why its sighing in the first place.
"yes, min...?"
"tell me you love me."
eyes softening as he props himself above you on his elbows, lips almost tugged downward on his face. lovelorn despite being naked against you. you grin, one akin to the same he'd given you earlier as you cup his cheeks in either of your palms. after all that, he still needs to hear those words from your soothing voice. even if it's a bit wrecked. it's his favorite sound.
"i love you, minnie."
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author’s note: another request from an anon! getting into the swing of things with the smuts ^-^ shout out to the seungmin yearners out there! many other requests are in the works!
⟢ genre: friends to lovers, slight angst, fluff, college au
⟢ word count: 3.1k
⟢ summary: getting to kiss your crush during a spin the bottle round sounded like a dream. when your crush just so happened to be your best friend, however? things could maybe get a little bit complicated…
⟢ author’s note: i couldn’t come up with any proper title for this story so this one will have to do. cliché. straight to the point. anyway, this was a request from this prompt list and i had a lot of fun writing it! i hope you enjoy it<3
In all the years that you and Seungmin had been friends, there had not once been an awkward moment between the two of you.
Being with each other was like breathing—natural, easy. You didn’t have to think of what topic to bring up in order to keep the conversation going, because just seeing one another was enough for your words to flow freely. And, even then, you didn’t need to talk in order to fill the silence at all, because even if silence took over, it was always a rather comfortable one that could never turn awkward between you and him.
Until that night.
You knew nothing good could come from playing spin the bottle when your crush was sitting right there next to you. Even worse, when said crush of yours sitting right there just so happened to be your best friend.
You had turned it down immediately, actually. The moment one of your friends brought the idea up, you were fast to shake your head in disagreement—not even dreaming of playing and either getting to kiss Seungmin and put your friendship at risk, or possibly seeing him kiss someone else right in front of you.
But then you looked next to you, to your quite eager best friend already standing up to join the circle being formed by everyone else sitting down on the floor, and suddenly the image of him kissing someone else weighted more than the one of you ruining your friendship, and before you could give it a second thought, your legs were already pulling you up and dragging you towards the rest of the group.
Seungmin looked up to you as you came closer to him, only to furrow his eyebrows in confusion when you walked past him and sat diagonally to where he was, instead of next to him like he had expected you to. Tilting his head, you didn’t need him to say anything for you to understand what he was asking you. And you simply shook your head, giving him a soft, closed-mouth smile in reply—silently telling him not to sweat it.
You, on the other hand, were sweating it.
Three rounds in, and with two out of three pairings having made out in front of the entire room—one of them having stuck to taking the penalty shot—you felt your stomach twist as soon as the bottle was spinned once again and you watched the bottom of it land on Seungmin, while its top roughly missed you by one person.
Petrified, and as if you had rehearsed it, both you and him followed the tip of the bottle towards the girl sitting down next to you like you were in a horror movie.
A part of you wanted to stand up and leave. Another wanted to just shove her out of the way so you could take her place. The most desperate one, the one that could not imagine a world where Kim Seungmin kissed someone else who wasn’t you, wanted to go over to your best friend, grab him by the collar of his white t-shirt, and bring his mouth up to yours.
The simple thought of him kissing someone else was killing you from the inside, and you would be damned if you didn’t do something about it while you still could.
Your body, however, did nothing. As pathetic as it was, you just sat there, frozen—waiting for them to kiss right then and there, in front of your very own desolate eyes.
Nevertheless, although you couldn’t physically bring yourself to do something about it, Seungmin could.
Without a single word, and having thrown a quick glance your way, he reached for one of the shots that had already been poured with liquor for those who chose to pass from having to kiss the person they’d gotten—downing it all in one go, and leaving you to wonder why he had wanted to play this game in the first place if he wasn’t willing to kiss whoever the bottle landed on.
His eyes locked with yours once more, and although your heart felt at ease over him having refused to kiss another girl—whose face you couldn’t bring yourself to look at after the rejection she had gone through, as you could only guess she felt a bit bummed—you couldn’t push away the anxious thoughts filling your head.
Was he planning to kiss someone in particular that night? Was his heart already taken and you didn’t know? Or was he simply playing for the sake of taking as many shots as he could in order to get drunk?
Whatever the answer was, you should’ve known better than to keep playing after the whirlwind your heart had just gone through. You should’ve gotten up and quit playing at that very moment. Maybe then the bottle wouldn’t have landed on you and Seungmin two rounds later.
Maybe then, Seungmin would’ve taken another shot in order to avoid kissing someone else once again, unlike when he realised it was you the bottle was pointing at. He didn’t even look at the shots laid in front this time—his chocolate eyes carefully staring at you instead, waiting to see what your move was before he could make his.
Maybe then, you wouldn’t have ended up kissing your best friend that night and putting your entire friendship on the line.
Because now, as the two of you left the party earlier than you had initially intended to, and the awkward silence took over your walk home for the first time in the entire length of your friendship, you couldn’t help but regret what happened altogether.
He was your best friend, your favourite person in the world.
He was your rock, the one you ran to every single time no matter what.
He was the one person you couldn’t lose, and now you might be just about to, for you knew your friendship would not be the same from now on. It couldn’t be, not after you had chosen not to take that shot and saw the brightest yet shiest of smiles you’d ever seen on him. Not after he had crawled over to you and cupped your face like you were the most precious person on Earth, and he kissed you like you were the only two people in the world.
After kissing him back the way you had, bringing him closer to you by placing your hand on his nape and pulling him into one last kiss just as he was beginning to pull back, you were well aware that your friendship would never go back to the way it was.
As neither of you dared to say anything, regardless of how desperate you were to cut the overwhelming tension that had been following you ever since you pulled away from that kiss and came down from the high that had been to feel his lips on yours, a cold breeze of air got you hugging yourself and rubbing your naked arms in hopes to bring some heat to your body—only getting to dwell on the fact that you had not brought a jacket for a few seconds before you felt the soft fabric of Seungmin’s zip-up hoodie on your shoulders.
Unlike any other time when you would feel butterflies flying around your stomach over such a loving act of his, now you could only feel your stomach twist in anxiety.
“Seungmin…” your voice came out weaker than you intended, finally breaking the silence as you slid the hoodie down your arms before you could hand it back to him. “No…”
He frowned in confusion, staring down at the black piece of clothing you were offering back. “No, what?”
“We shouldn’t…”
“We shouldn’t, what?” He pushed you to say it.
You sighed, motioning for him to take the hoodie from your hands once more as you struggled to find the right words. “We already crossed the line earlier tonight… this would be, like, for us to keep crossing it…”
If you thought his eyebrows couldn’t furrow any closer together, you were wrong. Still, he finally—and reluctantly—grabbed his hoodie before he could reply. “We already crossed it, though… Why would this make any difference?”
“Because,” you frustratedly began, throwing your head slightly back. “Things wouldn’t go back to being the same”.
“Well, they won’t be the same, Y/N…” he carefully pointed out. “We kissed”.
You closed your eyes at that last statement, unable to stop the memories of his soft lips moving against yours from replaying in your head.
“It was spin the bottle, we had to…” you tried to minimize it, looking down to your feet.
“No, we didn't have to,” he denied in a heartbeat, taking a step closer to you. “We had a choice. I took the shot of soju when the bottle landed on that one other girl before you”.
“Why didn’t you take it when it landed on me, then?” Your unsure words abandoned your mouth before you could stop them.
Seungmin let out what seemed like a mixture of a scoff and an incredulous laugh, as if you had just asked him the most ridiculous thing in the world, and you felt your breath get caught in your throat when he came closer to you.
“I think you know very well why I didn’t, Y/N…” his voice was determined yet soft as ever, cupping your face just like he had done earlier that night, as he looked for your eyes. “Why didn’t you?”
You shook your head no, freeing yourself from his grasp and taking a step back from him, as you wished you could just vanish and never have to go through that talk at all.
But he was right in front of you, looking at you in such a hurt yet hopeful manner that made a part of you—the one attached to your heart, you could tell—want to risk it all.
Although he was your best friend and you didn’t want things to change, you had feelings for him, and that alone wasn’t an easy detail to ignore—let alone when he was right there, openly letting you know he felt the same for you.
“We should get back to our dorms,” you settled for a change of topic, turning around to resume your walk. “We’re only halfway there”.
“Don’t…” he let out a heavy sigh, standing in his place and watching you get further away from him, before he composed himself and sped up towards you. “We’re not done talking, Y/N”.
“There’s no need for us to talk about it”.
“Yes, we need to talk about it,” he finally caught up to you, blocking your way by standing right in front of you. “We need to talk about it because I need you to tell me it meant something to you, too”.
You looked away from him to the dark sky, and then down to your fidgeting hands. If you looked at him and those puppy eyes you loved so much, you knew you would only cave in.
“It’s not that simple…” you whispered.
“It is that simple, Y/N” he disagreed. “We kissed. We chose not to take that shot. It has to mean something, doesn’t it?”
“It was just a silly game we played at a college party” you helplessly tried to take importance away from it once again. “We were drunk, it didn’t mean—”
“I wasn’t drunk,” he cut you off immediately, refusing to let you finish that sentence. “I wasn’t drunk, and I know for a fact that neither were you, so don’t you try and blame this on the alcohol. You don’t get to kiss me and pretend it meant nothing”.
“You’re the one who kissed me, though…” you found yourself once again avoiding his eyes when you felt him tense up.
“And you kissed me back, didn’t you?” Seungmin reminded you, managing to bring your eyes back to lock with his unwavering ones. “You could’ve taken that shot of soju if you didn’t want to kiss me so bad, why didn’t you?” He asked again.
You bit your lip, looking down to your feet as you realised you wouldn’t be able to avoid his question forever—not when he knew you like the back of his hand. “I didn’t want to take it…”
Although you were not looking at him, you could feel his lips parting into a smile.
“Why are we even having this argument if we both feel the same, then?” He wondered out loud, and you couldn’t help the corners of your lips from curving up.
No matter how hard you tried to fight it, and no matter how scared you were of the future that awaited for the two of you now that everything was out in the open, knowing that he, too, had feelings for you, made your heart feel like jumping out of your chest in pure, raw happiness.
“You’re my best friend, Min” you reminded him, as well as yourself. “Even if we do have feelings for each other, things could get so complicated and I… I just, I can’t lose you”.
Seungmin smiled softly—his gentle hands holding both sides of your face before he leaned in just enough for his nose to rub on yours.
“You won’t lose me” he affirmed—his hot breath tickling your mouth. “Come on now. We’ve been friends since fucking fifth grade, if we were to split up at some point, we would’ve done it by now”.
“Romantic relationships are very different from a simple friendship, though…”
“I know…” he nodded. “I’m not saying things won’t change, because they will. But it’s us we’re talking about, I don’t have a single doubt that we will work out. We just make sense, Y/N. It’s always been us two” his determined, genuine words, were enough to put all your troubles at ease. “And I don’t know about you, but I would rather risk it all with you than to just let this go for the sake of our friendship and then have you fall for someone else later on. I personally wouldn’t be able to take it, and our friendship would be ruined anyway because I would have to pull away in order to get over you”.
You let out a weak, brittle laugh, that had him questioningly tilting his head.
“What’s so funny?”
“Nothing,” you denied with a light shake of your head, choosing not to keep what was going through your head this time. “I would just probably die of a heartbreak if you ever fell for someone else. I almost did when I thought you were kissing that one girl tonight”.
This time, Seungmin laughed as well—wholeheartedly. Tightening his hold on your face, he leaned in even closer, causing goosebumps to show on your skin when his mouth brushed over yours.
“Can we just give us a try then?” He asked, locking his hopeful eyes with yours. “Not like I would’ve kissed her to begin with, or like I would fall for anyone else given how head over heels I am for you, but I don’t want you to die”.
You felt your chest fill up with nothing but love, admiring the playful pout he had formed on his bottom lip, and having to let out another laugh in order to get out all the bliss you were feeling right then under his touch.
“You’re a dork” you said lovingly, feeling your own eyes softening before you pulled him into a kiss that he didn’t wait to return.
This one was slower than the first—the two of you taking your sweet time to learn and remember every corner of each other’s mouth, as not a single hurry came from the isolated street and the dim lights illuminating it.
Somehow, right then, as he tenderly let you know how much you meant to him without uttering a word, all your previous worries didn’t seem so big anymore—if anything, they felt tiny as ever.
He was right, after all. The two of you made sense. You always had.
The hotness of his mouth and the warmth of his body could almost make you ignore the wind blowing against your back, but the unintended shiver that shook your body was enough for him to slowly withdraw his swollen lips from yours.
“Will you accept my hoodie now that we very clearly crossed the line?” He mumbled teasingly.
A small giggle escaped your mouth, and you found yourself nodding in defeat.
Not really pulling away from him, you let him put the black hoodie he had been holding this whole time on you—eyes carefully following his hands down to the hem of it, and watching them come closer to your face as he zipped it all the way up to your neck.
“Better?” He asked, just as his hands loosely found their way around your waist once again and he leaned in to rest his forehead on yours.
“Mhm…” you softly hummed against his mouth. “I do have one question, though”.
“Hm?” He hummed back, leaning in to steal one more kiss—and with that, another breathy laugh, as you decided you could get used to it—from your lips.
“Why did you want to play that stupid game if you didn’t want to kiss anyone but me?”
He shrugged, tenderly running his hands down your now covered arms. “I just hoped the odds would be in my favour somehow and I’d get to kiss you tonight”.
“I almost didn’t play, you know?” You brought up with a sly smile, much to his surprise. “I didn’t want to”.
“Why did you, then?”
You shrugged as well, fixing your eyes on the collar of his t-shirt. “I saw you were playing and I just went over there before I could realise”.
He smiled brightly, pulling you in by your waist and having you naturally place your palms on his chest. “You’re so whipped for me”.
You rolled your eyes at his cocky ways. “Says the one who was hoping for the odds to play in his favour”.
“And they did, didn’t they?” He smirked triumphantly. “You even sat across from me so it could work for us and all”.
Biting your tongue as you once again accepted defeat, you turned your head to the side, not to let him notice the burning heat in your cheeks and to see the smile that was already curving up your mouth. “I’ll have you know I’m never following you into that game ever again”.
“Oh, I’m not playing it ever again anyway,” he declared nonchalantly, making you turn your face to him by placing two fingers on your chin, and not waiting another second to look for your lips, as he didn’t seem to get enough of you. “I already got the girl I wanted, you’re the only one I’m kissing from now on”.
a series of phone calls with increasing time zones, proving that not even distance can break true love
idol!seungmin x reader, 5k words, fluff, long-distance au (seungmin on tour), angst, one argument, explicit themes but not graphic!! (implied masturbation, sexual intercourse) so mdni!
you both knew tour was going to be a challenge. the time zones, the silence between texts, being apart for too long.
but real love sticks. real love dials in the middle of the night with a sleepy voice and a hotel duvet pulled up to his chin. seungmin is in australia. one hour ahead of you.
“hey, baby” seungmin whispers, the sound barely above the static. “you still awake?”
you roll onto your back, staring at your ceiling like it might answer for you. “yeah.”
“did you cry?” he asks gently. not mocking but curious, like he’s asking about the weather.
“a little,” you admit, voice barely holding. “why are you so hard to sleep without?”
he exhale. “i don’t know,” he says, “maybe i cursed you.”
“maybe,” you whisper back.
there’s silence for a while. not awkward. just full.
then, “han jisung is asleep like two feet away, and if he hears me say sappy shit he’s gonna roast me into another dimension.”
you smile a little.
“but,” seungmin adds, quieter now, “i miss you. like. a lot.”
you close your eyes. “don’t whisper like that. it makes it worse.”
“oh? does it?” he says as his voice dips lower. “what, like this?”
“seungmin.”
“i can picture your face right now” he says with a light chuckle.
you groan into your pillow. “i hate you.”
“no you don’t.”
“no,” you sigh. “i don’t.”
“i’ll call you again tomorrow night,” he murmurs, yawn crawling into his voice. “maybe i’ll read you the hotel shampoo ingredients like poetry.”
“that’s so romantic.”
"i know. i’m basically shakespeare,” he whispers, smug and sleepy.
you let out a soft laugh. “then what’s your sonnet about tonight, romeo?”
“hm.” there's a pause. you hear the rustle of sheets as he shifts, the soft creak of the bed frame. “ode to the cotton bed sheets that smell like lavender.”
you snort. “beautiful.”
“i try,” he says. “for you.”
your throat tightens at that. it’s so quiet on the other end, and you can almost picture him—eyes half-lidded, phone pressed to his cheek, hair messy from the long day, the glow of the hallway light slipping through the crack under the hotel door.
“you should sleep,” you say.
“you should stop sounding like you’re about to cry again,” he says.
you blink fast. “sorry.”
“don’t be,” he says. “it hurts for me too. more than i wanna say out loud because jisung has ears like a bat.”
“tell him i said hi.”
“i will. in the morning. right now, i’m all yours.”
you smile into your pillow. “even if you’re like... thousands of miles away?”
“distance isn’t real,” he says, like it’s obvious. “you’re in my phone, in my head, and in my heart.”
you murmur, fingers curling in the sheets. "i love you."
you can hear him smile. not the smug kind. the quiet one, the one he saves for you.
"i know," he whispers. "i know, baby. i love you too."
your eyes sting again.
“i wanna hear you say goodnight, before i go,” he says softly. “like i’m still right there.”
you tuck your face into your pillow, pretending he is.
you whisper, “goodnight, seungmin.”
he lets out a long exhale. “again.”
“goodnight, minnie.”
“one more time,” he murmurs, voice already halfway to sleep.
you smile, heart squeezing. “goodnight, love.”
“mmm,” he hums, already slipping under. “that one’s my favorite.”
the call doesn’t end. he never hangs up first. not when he’s on tour. not when you’re the only quiet thing that feels like home.
seungmin was always your plumber. doing it alone felt harder than it should’ve.
"okay, okay—stop. stop touching it. you're gonna break it."
"i have to touch it, kim seungmin.” you huff in frustration adding a mocking tone to his name.
“not when you’re doing it like that.”
“how would you know? you’re in a limousine.”
on the other end of the call, there’s a soft rustling of leather seats, then a distant snort of laughter—probably changbin. then hyunjin’s unmistakable voice in the background.
you roll your eyes and crouch down by the sink again. “just walk me through it.”
you hear him sigh dramatically. “you're gonna need both of your hands. you’re holding the flashlight with your mouth, right?”
“yeah.” you say, slightly muffled
“cute,” he says.
you smile.
“okay, now reach in with your left hand, gently, and find the little hex socket.”
“the what?”
“the six-sided bolt, babe.”
you find it. “got it.”
“good. now take the wrench, the L-shaped one. the baby wrench.”
you laugh around the flashlight. “you mean the allen key?”
“i said what i said.”
you fit it into place, and it clicks. "what now?"
“turn it slowly. coax it back to life.”
“you’re stupid.”
“you’re smiling.”
he’s right. you are.
the background laughter comes again, through your phone. you take the flashlight out of your mouth and furrow your eyebrows, now glaring at the phone.
seungmin huffs. “ignore them. they’re just mad no one calls them to fix things with love and precision.”
“why love?”
“you think i’d be guiding you through garbage disposal in a limousine if i wasn’t in love with you?”
you pause. heart full. “i love you too, minnie.”
“i know,” he says. “now finish the job, so you can text me a picture when it works and i can brag to those idiots about how you’re the best mechanic alive.”
“deal,” you grin.
"and hey?"
"yeah?"
“don’t go getting too good at this independent thing without me, alright? you’ll end up not needing me anymore.”
you roll your eyes fondly. “bye, seungmin.”
“bye, love.”
your phone buzzes unexpectedly—no text, no facetime request, just a straight-up call. that never happens unless something’s wrong.
“hello?”
you hear a shaky inhale on the other end of the line. not completely panicked, but definitely not seungmin’s usual hello either.
“minnie?” you say, sitting up straighter. “everything okay?”
he exhales again, this time more controlled, like he’s trying to reset himself mid-breath. “yeah, sorry, i just—sorry, this is gonna sound really dumb.”
“are you okay?” you ask again, softer this time.
“yeah. yeah, i just—” he pauses, like he’s choosing his words carefully. “we were walking into this venue, right? and i wasn’t thinking, just messing around with jeongin, and suddenly…”
he trails off.
“suddenly?” you prompt.
“i caught this scent. like perfume. i don’t know who it was, just someone walking by, but it,” he lets out a shaky breath. “it smelled so much like you.”
your heart clenches. “me?”
“yeah,” he says, voice low, almost like he’s embarrassed. “and i just, i didn't know i could recognize it so easily, y’know? i never paid attention to that stuff before. but it hit me so fast. like my brain was like, oh, she’s here, and i looked around like an idiot.”
you’re quiet, lips curling into something helpless and warm. “you’re so cute.”
“shut up,” he mutters, and it sounds half-defensive, half-melting. “i was just—i don’t know, kind of spiraling.”
“i should’ve given you the bottle before you left,” you murmur. “you could’ve sprayed it on your pillow or something. maybe your hoodie. made it easier.”
“okay well, actually,” he says, suddenly brisk. “i’m in a fragrance store right now.”
your eyebrows shoot up. “what?”
“i literally walked away from the guys and came in here. i don’t even know what i’m doing.”
you’re smiling so hard your cheeks hurt. “so you called me to ask what perfume i use?”
“maybe,” he says quietly. “maybe i just wanted to hear your voice while i looked for you in a bottle.”
you bury your face in your hand. “seungmin.”
“don’t make it a thing,” he grumbles, but his voice is soft again. “just tell me what it is. i wanna spray it on my wrist or my hoodie or something, and maybe then i won’t look around every time i smell it.”
you tell him, and he repeats it back softly, twice—like he’s memorizing it.
“okay,” he says, “i found it.”
you smile into the phone. “go on then, give it a try. you gotta confirm it’s really me.”
there’s a little silence. the soft pop of the sample nozzle. then—
he gets quiet.
too quiet.
you wait, lips parted, holding your breath like the silence might break if you exhale too hard.
“minnie?” you say gently.
on the other end of the line, there’s a small rustle—like he’s pulling the test strip closer—and then a faint breath, nearly soundless.
“...yeah,” he says, but it’s barely there. hushed. careful.
“is it the right one?” you ask, smiling even though you can’t see him.
another pause.
“it feels like you’re right here.”
you chest tightens.
another rustle—probably him turning away from the counter, footsteps echoing as he walks deeper into the store.
“i need to hang up.”
you blink. “wait, what? why—”
“just—thank you,” he says, quickly, like it hurts. “seriously. thank you.”
“min—”
but the line clicks before you can finish.
your phone rings just as you're brushing your teeth, screen lighting up with minnie calling. it’s early—too early for your brain to do much thinking—but your heart wakes up faster than the rest of you.
you swipe the call and press it to your ear, foam still in your mouth.
“hi, seungmin,” you mumble around your toothbrush, voice muffled and lazy.
he doesn't answer right away. just… breathes.
low. slow. deliberate.
you pause mid-brush. “...minnie?”
“baby,” he says, and something about his voice makes your hand freeze midair. deeper than usual. lower. like he’s under the covers, talking into the pillow.
“what time is it over there?”
“past midnight.”
“shouldn’t you be sleeping?”
a quiet chuckle. “couldn’t. been thinking about you.”
your cheeks warm instantly as you flicked the light switch and made your way to your bedroom.
“earlier today, your scent,” he adds, voice dragging a little now, like he’s letting each word settle before moving on. “you really messed me up with that.”
you sit down on the edge of your bed, heart pounding. “what are you doing?”
he inhales, slow—like he’s giving you a hint without actually saying anything.
“mm… i'm in bed,” he says, voice velvety. “lights are off. window’s open a little.”
you smile, because he’s playing. “and?”
he’s silent for a beat. then—softly, “jisung’s not here.” his designated hotel roommate.
you lean back into your pillow, a little breath catching in your throat. “where is he?”
“went to see chan. they’re doing a livestream in his room.” a pause. “won’t be back for a while.”
you don’t say anything—can’t, really—but the line’s quiet in that loaded kind of way. your breath hitches just enough.
he hears it.
“you gonna keep pretending you don’t know what i’m doing?” he says, voice dipping into something firmer, smoother. “or are you gonna be good and ask me what i want you to do?”
your legs press together on instinct, pulse suddenly very loud in your ears.
“we haven’t had a call like this yet,” you whisper, your voice barely holding steady.
“i know, baby. for now just stay with me.”
distance could do terrible things to people who loved each other. it stretched silence into assumptions, turned waiting into resentment, made every little misstep feel like betrayal.
and tonight, it was doing its worst.
“i just don’t get why you didn’t say anything,” you snap, hands gripping the steering wheel. “you waited until now to bring this up?”
“because i knew you’d react like this,” seungmin fires back, voice tight, like he’s trying not to be overheard.
“like what? like i have a problem with you being honest?”
“no,” he says, “like you twist it into something about you. like you always do.”
“wow.” you pause. blink. “don't have soundcheck right now?”
“yes.”
“then why the hell did you call me now if you don’t even have time to talk about this properly?”
“because it’s been eating me alive and i didn’t want to go on stage feeling like this, okay?” his voice wavers. not loud. just frayed.
you exhale, eyes stinging. “i’m not your emotional dumping ground.”
you suck in a shaky breath, throat tight.
“and you could’ve talked about this without raising your voice at me,” you say, quieter now.
there’s silence on the line.
you hear him shift, maybe press his palm over the phone. muffled voices in the background—staff calling him.
“anyway,” you continue, forcing the tremble out of your voice. “i don’t want to bring you down before your show.”
he’s still silent.
“i’m sorry, seungmin. i really am.” your voice softens further. “i love you. are we good?”
a beat. then—
“yeah, i'm sorry too. we’re good.”
your heart clenches.
you wait.
just for a second.
just long enough to hope he says it back.
but he doesn’t.
the line goes dead.
you sit there, phone still pressed to your ear, staring at nothing.
it’s been hours. half a day, maybe more.
you haven’t heard from him since.
you’re at your desk, legs curled under your chair, coffee cold, unread emails glowing in tabs you haven’t touched.
your phone buzzes.
seungmin: just got back. wanna call?
you stare at the message, thumb hovering.
you: it’s late over there
a few seconds later:
seungmin: it’s alright. are you busy?
you glance around your office—empty, quiet, dim with the afternoon light pooling through the blinds. the answer’s obvious.
you: no.
the typing bubble appears. disappears. then your screen lights up.
incoming call. your heart skips.
you hesitate just a moment but you answer anyway.
“hey,” he says softly, voice scratchy, tired.
you don’t say anything right away.
he waits.
“you should be asleep,” you murmur.
he chuckles faintly. “couldn’t. been thinking about you.”
you exhale, shoulders dropping just a little. “me too.”
“yeah?”
“yeah.”
you rest your chin on your hand, eyes tracing the little scratches on your desk, voice still quiet. “how was the concert?”
he breathes out a small laugh. “we did well. it was great.”
“were you tired during the dance sets?” you ask gently, genuinely. “you didn’t sound winded, but i know you’ve been pushing your knee too hard.”
there’s a pause.
he says, voice low with something like awe. “yeah, it was sore. but i iced it after. chan made me”
you laugh.
then, soft again, he says, “i’m sorry.”
you close your eyes. “me too.”
and it’s not everything, not the whole conversation. but it’s enough for now.
“i love you,” you whisper, trying again.
you can hear him smiling, even through the static.
“i love you too,” he says. “so much.”
you smile back, cheeks warm and aching in the best way.
but then—softly, almost before you mean to say it.
“i don’t wanna get used to this.”
there’s a pause. the kind that makes your throat tighten.
“used to what?” he asks gently.
you swallow. “being apart from you.”
he breathes in through his nose. slowly. “you think that’s happening?”
you shrug, even though he can’t see you. “some days it’s easier. and i hate that. like… am i supposed to be okay with not hearing your voice until midnight? with seeing you through screens more than in person?”
he doesn’t answer right away. just listens.
so you go on, voice smaller now. “are we starting to miss each other less?”
and then he says it, soft but sure.
“no.”
“i’m scared i’m gonna,” you admit, a little too quietly.
he exhales. “you won’t.”
“how do you know?”
“because i’m still here,” he says. “and every time you call, every time you say my name, it still feels like the first time. i’m never gonna be something you forget how to want.”
you blink fast, throat thick.
“even if it gets easier,” he adds, “it doesn’t mean it means less. it just means we’re learning how to carry it better.”
you nod, tears prickling—but this time, they feel okay.
safe.
like love you can live inside of.
“you’re still the first thing i think about,” you whisper.
“good,” he murmurs. “same.”
you pick up and immediately the screen is sideways, showing a very blurry jisung laughing so hard he’s bent over the hotel bed.
"hellooooo," jisung yells directly into the phone.
you blink. "uh… hi?"
the screen rights itself. seungmin appears—barefaced, hair messy, eyes way too shiny to be sober. he’s lying on his stomach, chin squished into a pillow, voice soft and dangerously sweet.
“hi, baby,” he says, all low and slurred and dangerous.
“oh no,” you whisper. “how drunk are you two?”
“not drunk,” he insists.
“he’s drunk,” jisung confirms helpfully, popping into frame again and waving.
“shut up,” seungmin mumbles, blindly swatting at him.
you snort. “what’s happening over there?”
“he has something to tell you,” jisung says smugly.
seungmin groans, burying half his face in the blanket. “jisung…”
“tell her what you told me,” jisung insists.
“han jisung, shut your entire mouth.”
“too late. he said—” jisung gasps dramatically, clutching his chest. “‘if she were here right now I’d let her ruin my life.’”
a beat of silence.
then seungmin smacks him off camera with a pillow.
seungmin flips back into frame, completely disheveled and pouty. “seriously, come over sweetpea.”
“i’m in a different country.”
“weak excuse,” he grumbles, already rolling over onto his side like the call’s exhausting him.
jisung peeks in again, holding up a half-eaten macaron. “if you were here, we’d give you one of these.”
you laugh, cheeks sore from smiling.
“save some for me then,” you say, voice soft but playful.
seungmin doesn’t hear it—he’s already buried back into the pillow, mumbling something incoherent about what the bed smells like.
but jisung hears it.
he freezes, mid-bite, eyes snapping to the screen.
you meet his gaze.
he widens his eyes, mouthing: really?
you bite back a smile and give the tiniest, most deliberate nod.
his entire face lights up, but then he clamps his mouth shut, physically slaps a hand over it, and glances at Seungmin, who’s currently face down and humming the mario kart theme into the blanket.
“oh my god,” Jisung mouths again, silently losing it.
you put a finger to your lips, shhh.
he nods rapidly, then mimes zipping his lips and throwing the key.
seungmin groans. “why is it so quiet now? what—are you guys passing notes like it’s high school?”
“no,” jisung says, biting into his macaron and struggling not to beam.
seungmin rolls over again, squinting. “weirdos.”
you just smile.
“see you soon,” you whisper, quiet enough that only jisung catches it.
and he grins like he’s holding the world’s best secret. because he is.
the screen lights up with a familiar facetime ring.
you answer, already smiling. “hi.”
seungmin's face appears—dim lighting, hoodie up, hair messy like he’s been running his hands through it all night. he’s lying on his side in bed, camera slightly tilted. there’s a stillness to him tonight. the kind that feels heavier than silence.
“hey,” he says, voice low. a little tired. a little distant.
you tuck your legs underneath you on the couch. “how long’s it been now?”
he doesn’t even pause to think. “five months.”
you nod. “we’re halfway.”
“only halfway.”
your breath catches at that. you weren’t expecting him to say it like that—like it’s a sentence.
you sigh, fingers tightening around your phone. “yeah.”
for a moment, neither of you say anything.
“i know you’re tired,” you say gently.
“i’m fine,” he replies, but there’s no weight behind it. like he’s used to pretending. “it just… feels really far tonight.”
you nod slowly, throat tight. “i know. it feels far for me too.”
he looks at you for a second longer—eyes a little glassy, lips parted like he’s about to say something, then thinks better of it.
but he does.
“i miss you, sweetheart.”
your breath catches in your chest.
he rarely calls you that. only when he means it. when he’s feeling something he doesn’t know how to explain in full sentences.
you swallow hard. “soon.”
he nods, slow. “yeah. soon.”
he has no idea just how soon.
no idea that your suitcase is already packed. that your flight lands tomorrow morning. that the hotel front desk already has your name and a keycard.
and as he murmurs, “i wish i could hold your hand right now,”
you smile.
“you will,” you say softly.
you keep replaying it in your head—seungmin’s face when he saw you in the crowd. that second of shock, then the dumbest grin as he stumbled over a lyric and tried to play it off like he meant to do that. you’d almost cried. almost.
and now it’s past midnight, the concert hours behind you, and you know he’s taken his time wiping off the sweat and glitter of it all, probably still tangled in post-show chaos and crew goodbyes.
which is why, when you hear the knock at your hotel room door, your heart does that fluttery thing. you don’t even hesitate—you’re off the bed in seconds, bare feet padding across the floor, and you already know who it is before you check the peephole.
you open the door.
and there he is.
hair slightly damp, hoodie pulled low over his forehead, backpack slung over one shoulder. tired eyes—but shining. always shining when they’re on you.
most of his face is hidden in the shadows of the hood, just the curve of his cheekbone catching the hallway light. you can’t really see him, not fully. but you’d know that silhouette anywhere.
you don’t even get a word out. he drops his bag, wraps his arms around you, and pulls you into him like you’re the only thing holding him up. you let out a small squeal, laughing, your arms looping around his neck just as he lifts you straight off the ground.
“seungmin!” you giggle as he spins you in a circle, your feet kicking in the air.
“i missed you,” he breathes into your shoulder before setting you down slowly. “oh, i missed you so bad.”
once your feet touch the carpet, you're grabbing the front of his hoodie and tugging him inside. the door swings shut behind him with a soft click, and before he can blink, you’re kissing him.
he melts immediately, like he’s been waiting all night for this because he has. his hands slide back around your waist, pulling you in tighter and you giggle into it—completely overwhelmed and completely in love.
he stumbles forward a little, still kissing you, until your back hits the wall with a muted thud. you gasp softly into his mouth, grinning now as he presses into you, and he pulls back just enough to look at you, dazed.
“what…” he breathes, his lips brushing yours, “…what are you doing here?”
you blink at him, still catching your breath, still grinning. “i wanted to come surprise you.”
he just stares at you for a beat, like he’s trying to figure out if you’re real. then he exhales sharply, shaking his head. “you’re a crazy, crazy girl, you know right?”
“you think i’d let you go out of the country for ten months and not visit you?” you say, voice light. “you really thought i could go that long without seeing your dumb face?”
he doesn’t answer. just lets out this soft, wrecked little sound—half-laugh, half-sigh—as he wraps his arms around you again, tighter this time. he buries his face into your hoodie, right against your collarbone. you hug him back instantly, arms wrapping under his and holding him close. he clings. like he’s cold and you’re the only source of warmth he’ll ever need.
“come on,” you murmur, one hand coming up to cradle the back of his head gently. “let me see you, now.”
he shakes his head against you, just the tiniest movement. doesn’t loosen his grip. doesn’t lift his head.
“seungmin,” you whisper again, a little firmer, leaning back slightly so you can reach up and tug his hood down.
the fabric falls away. his hair’s tousled, still a little damp from a shower or maybe the rain outside, and his face is hidden—tilted down, eyes trained on the floor. he still hasn’t looked at you properly.
all he does is lift his hand up to his face. wipes at his eyes with the sleeve of his hoodie. you catch the tremble in his fingers.
a sniffle.
“oh, minnie…” you whisper, your heart cracking wide open.
despite the way he towers over you, he looks smaller, his head bowed low like he’s trying to disappear into himself.
you coo softly, barely a sound.
that does it.
he lets out this weak, shaky sigh like he’s been holding it in since the moment he saw you at the concert, maybe longer—and your chest seizes with it. he turns his face just slightly, burying it into your shoulder again, arms wrapping tight around your waist like he's scared you'll vanish if he lets go.
your hands are already moving—one smoothing over his back, the other stroking his hair—your body swaying with his as he starts to let out shaky, quiet gasps.
he sniffles again, shoulders still trembling, but when he finally speaks, it’s muffled into your hoodie. “the members were betting on me. on whether or not i’d cry when i saw you.”
you let out a little laugh and reach up to cup his cheeks, gently swiping away the fresh tears still clinging to his lashes. “and who said you wouldn’t cry?”
he hesitates. “me.”
you laugh again—soft and a little breathless—as your thumbs brush gently under his eyes. “of course you did,” you murmur, fingers sliding up to smooth through his damp hair.
he lets out a weak chuckle, eyes fluttering closed at your touch. he leans into your hand for a second before straightening up a bit, pulling his shoulders back like he’s trying to regain a sliver of composure.
even now, red-eyed and sniffling, there’s still something solid about him. the way he holds you, the way he stands just a bit in front of you like he’d protect you from the world if it even looked at you wrong.
seungmin's lips part, like he wants to say something but the words won’t come. instead, he just stares at you, eyes darting across your face like he’s trying to take in every inch of you he’s missed. like he’s scared you’ll be gone if he blinks too long.
“you have no idea how much i needed this,” he whispers.
you step closer, hands finding his again. “that's why i'm here.”
he shakes his head, fingers tightening around yours. “no, like—” he exhales hard, eyes shining as he glances down at your joined hands. “you don’t get it. every night, i’d come back and just... lie on the hotel bed and pretend you were next to me. i missed everything. your voice, your stupid little yawns, the way you poke me when i zone out.”
you let out a laugh, watery and soft. “i do not poke you.”
“you do,” he insists, eyes wide like it’s the most important fact in the world. “you go like this—” he imitates a jab to your side, making you laugh and swat his arm. he chuckles, bright and breathless, and then quiets.
your heart flutters and you don’t even try to hide how it shows on your face. you tug his hand and backpedal toward the bed, flopping onto it with a gentle bounce. propped up on your elbows, you tilt your head at him. “c’mere.”
seungmin shrugs off his backpack, then tugs his hoodie off by the back—grabbing it near the collar and pulling it over in one smooth, practiced motion. he holds it in front of him for a second, then slips out of the sleeves with the opposite hand.
his t-shirt clings in places and hangs loose in others, fabric soft and worn and framing the lean lines of his torso. your eyes fall on the way it shifts with every movement—subtle dips of collarbone, the slight curve of his waist.
your fingers curl slightly in the blanket beneath you as he steps closer, and your breath hitches. you missed him. not just his face or his voice, but all of him—how he moves, how he fills the space around you like no one else can.
seungmin gets onto the bed. the second he's close enough, your fingertips graze his forearm, his side, like you’re checking if he’s really here.
then he leans in, arms bracketing either side of your body, and your whole world narrows to just the space between you, until finally his lips brush against yours.
it’s soft. barely even a kiss at first, more like the ghost of one, like he’s still afraid he’ll break the moment if he moves too fast. but you kiss him back, and then he presses in more fully. it's full of all the things you’ve both been trying not to say out loud.
he kisses you again, and again, each one a little deeper than the last—like he’s making up for every single day you were apart. one hand comes up to cradle your jaw, his thumb sweeping tender over your cheek.
“i love you so much,” he whispers, like it’s a confession. like it still stuns him just how badly he felt it.
you nod, blinking back the sudden sting behind your eyes. “i love you too.”
he exhales shakily, and then he kisses you once more—slow, full of longing—and you swear you feel the world right itself a little, just because he’s here.
he pulls away, just slightly, and rests his forehead against yours. your noses bump, and he closes his eyes, smiling so softly it barely lifts the corners of his mouth. “i was scared you’d forget about me.”
you shake your head, hand settling over his heart. “you’re impossible to forget. trust me, i tried.”
“me too,” he breathes. “it was unbearable sometimes.”
you tilt your chin up and kiss the corner of his mouth, then his cheek, slow and lingering. his skin is warm under your lips, and you feel him exhale shakily, his body softening against yours like your touch is the thing holding him together.
his hands wander a little now, like he can’t help it—tracing slow lines along your back, the dip of your waist, smoothing down your arm and back up again. his hand slips beneath the shirt under your hoodie, smoothing over bare skin, and your breath catches.
you let him pull the layers of fabric over your head. let him take his time. he kisses down your neck, your chest, every press of his lips asking, are you sure?
and every answer you give is yes.
you wake up slowly, feeling hazy. the curtains are still drawn, soft light peeking through just enough to glow against the sheets.
and then you feel his hand resting on your waist. his thumb tracing little circles on your skin, like he never stopped touching you even in his sleep.
you blink your eyes open.
he’s already awake, head propped on one arm, looking at you with the calmest expression you’ve ever seen on him. the kind that makes your heart ache just a little because you know how much he doesn’t show easily.
“you’re staring,” you murmur, voice rough from sleep.
“you’re pretty when you’re confused and squinty,” he says, lips curving just barely.
you smile, still half-asleep, but it turns real fast when he leans in and kisses you, his fingers brushing your cheek like he’s still making sure you’re real.
“good morning,” you whisper.
“technically almost noon,” he teases. “but yeah. it’s good now.”
he pulls back, just enough to give you room as you sit up, blanket tugged up to cover your chest. your fingers instinctively rake through your tangled hair, and he watches you with a little too much amusement.
then he shifts, reaching over the side of the bed to dig through his bag.
“i have something for you,” he says casually.
and then he turns back around—with a box of macarons in his hand.
you gasp, grinning instantly. “you didn’t.”
he takes one out, and holds it to your lips.
“if you were here,” he says, softly now, “you’d be eating one of these. and you are. so.”
you roll your eyes, but open your mouth anyway, taking a bite.
“sweet enough?” he murmurs.
you swallow, cheeks warm. “almost.”
he leans in again, brushing a kiss to the corner of your mouth.
“now?” he asks.
“perfect,” you whisper.
and he smiles like he never wants to be anywhere else ever again.
享受 ! .°. ݁₊ 𐙚 gn!reader, cw: kissing/making out, pet names, slightly suggestive, nothing much not proofread :P
CHAN
He blinks, dazed and breathless, still leaning forward like his lips are chasing yours. “Wait, what— Did I do something? Was it too much? Too fast? Was my nose in the way? I knew I should’ve angled more to the left—” He immediately goes into concerned boyfriend mode, rubbing the back of his neck, rambling nervously with furrowed brows. You can literally see the gears turning in his head trying to figure out if he messed up. When you explain that you just got flustered or wanted to look at him, he MELTS. Like full-on gooey marshmallow mode. “You… pulled away just to look at me?” Cue soft little chuckle, hands cupping your cheeks now, and he kisses your forehead.
LEE KNOW
You pull back mid-kiss, and for a moment, Minho just stares at you. Unmoving. Unblinking. He looks entirely unbothered… until you catch the faintest twitch of his brow. “Wow,” he says flatly. “Did I bore you mid-makeout?” You try to explain maybe you were flustered, or your brain short-circuited, or your stomach made a weird noise but he just squints at you, suspicious. “So you’re telling me I was putting in my best effort, and you just exited the app mid-update?” He looks personally offended for 0.5 seconds. Then smirks. “No, no, it’s fine. I’ll just go kiss the cat instead. She never pulls away.” (You hear him muttering to Soonie under his breath five minutes later: “At least you appreciate my affection…”) But he does end up pulling you back in, much gentler now, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “If you ever stop again,” he murmurs, “you better have a damn good reason. Like a meteor. Or Hyunjin screaming.”
CHANGBIN
At first, he’s frozen mid-pucker, lips still slightly parted, eyes blinking like he’s buffering. “…Huh?” He looks around like someone just unplugged his brain, then turns back to you with the most confused expression you’ve ever seen. Like a golden retriever who got told “no” for the first time in his life. “You— You just stopped. Was it me? Was I too aggressive? Too soft? Did I miss? Did I kiss your chin again?! I knew I should’ve practiced more—” You try to calm him down, but he’s already spiraling into self-doubt. Even throws his arms out like he’s in a drama scene. “I KNEW THIS DAY WOULD COME. You found someone with softer lips, didn’t you?” When you finally tell him the reason whether it’s you getting shy, needing a breather, or just being caught off guard by how cute he is, he immediately softens. “Oh. You think I’m cute?” Cue him grinning like a kid on Christmas. “Say it again. Say it three more times. Wait no, kiss me again. Right now. We’re finishing what we started.” Then he makes you reenact the kiss properly, “for closure.” (And yes, he absolutely brags about it for the rest of the day like it’s an Olympic sport.)
HYUNJIN
You pull away mid-kiss with zero warning, and Hyunjin just… stares at you. Lips still parted, eyes wide and sparkly with confusion and betrayal. He blinks once. Then twice. “…Did… did you just cancel me?” You try to keep a straight face, but the way he dramatically slumps back against the nearest surface arms flopping like he’s just been dumped in the most poetic way makes it nearly impossible. “Was it not good? Did I go too fast? Too slow? Was I… too pretty?” You: “You’re literally fine.” Hyunjin: “Fine? That’s it?? Not devastatingly handsome? Not kiss-me-right-now worthy? I’m gonna cry.” (He’s not going to cry. But he will roll onto the floor like an offended cat and mutter to himself in vague Shakespearean despair.) But when you admit you were just teasing him, he gasps. “So you played me?!” Cue playful chaos. He tries to act offended, but he can’t stop smiling. He corners you two minutes later, grabbing your waist like he’s about to perform a slow-mo drama scene. “You’re not getting away with that. Try pulling away again and I’ll chase you into next week.” Then kisses you again just to “reclaim his pride.”
HAN
You pull away mid-kiss, and it takes him a second to catch up. His eyes are still half-closed like he’s waiting for the sequel. “…Did the Wi-Fi cut out or something?” You try not to laugh, but he’s already leaning forward like, “Hello?? I was loading. Why did you press back?” When you don’t immediately explain yourself, he clutches his chest like he’s been mortally wounded. “Don’t do this to me. I already have abandonment issues from when my ramen slipped into the sink that one time.” You: “Jisung—” Jisung: “That one time.“ Once you finally admit you were just teasing him, or got distracted, or simply felt like it he flops dramatically onto your lap, face buried in your stomach. “Unfair. You know my brain is slow and my heart is weak. You can’t just hit the brakes like that.” Then he pops his head up, grinning. “But also… if you wanted me to beg, you could’ve just said so.” Cue chaotic, overly dramatic puppy-boy behavior for the next hour. Constantly bringing it up with zero context. “Remember that time you broke my heart during a kiss?” “That was literally ten minutes ago.” “And I’m still healing.” But he forgives you with extra kisses just to “finish what you started.”
FELIX
You pull away mid-kiss, and at first, Felix doesn’t even notice he’s still leaning in with his eyes closed like he’s waiting for the encore. Then he opens one eye. “…Did I miss the cue?” You’re quiet for a second maybe your mind wandered, or you suddenly remembered that you left the laundry in the washer, or you were just overwhelmed by a random intrusive thought like “Do penguins have knees?” Felix tilts his head, trying to read your expression. “Wait… are you okay?” You nod, explaining it’s nothing serious, and that your brain just lagged a little. He chuckles softly, brushing a thumb over your cheek. “You pulled away like you just got hit by an existential crisis mid-kiss.” (He’s not wrong.) Then he gets serious for a second, gazing at you with those gentle, worried eyes. “You sure everything’s okay though? You don’t have to kiss me if you’re not feeling it. I’m just happy being with you.” You were fine, but now you’re blushing over how sweet he is. Felix gives you a soft smile and taps your forehead. “Next time your brain wanders during a kiss, just tell me what you were thinking. Unless it was about taxes. Then keep it to yourself.” Five minutes later, he texts you a meme of two penguins cuddling. Felix: "They DO have knees btw."
SEUNGMIN
You pull away mid-kiss, and Seungmin immediately blinks at you like you just skipped a line in a script he had memorized. “…That’s it?” Deadpan. Expression unreadable. Hands still resting casually on your waist, like he’s not even pressed about it. “Wow. That was… what? Three seconds? Impressive commitment.” You’re trying to explain maybe your brain short-circuited, maybe you remembered you left your phone on the stove, maybe you just needed a moment. But he’s already shaking his head like a disappointed tutor watching you fail basic math. “I rearranged my entire breathing pattern for that.” You: “You’re being dramatic.” Seungmin: “I trained my lips for days.” You roll your eyes, but he’s already pulling slightly away, crossing his arms like he’s filing a mental complaint. “Don’t worry. I’ll just log it in my diary. ‘Kiss: interrupted. Trust: broken.’ ” But the second you lean in again thinking he might actually be annoyed he’s already pulling you back with a smirk, voice low near your ear. “Next time you pull away, you better give me a good reason. Like your soul leaving your body. Otherwise, I’m finishing what you started.” And even though he acts so chill, later that night he won’t stop smiling to himself. Quietly. When no one’s looking.
JEONGIN
You pull away mid-kiss, all innocent, like you didn’t just commit the ultimate crime against his entire soul. He blinks, stunned. Lips still parted. Offended in 4K. “…Did you just— reject me in HD?” You: “Relax, I’m just teasing.” Jeongin: “Relax? RELAX? You can’t just pause mid-kiss like we’re on a Netflix trial—” He dramatically clutches his chest, spinning away like he’s in a low-budget romance drama. “I trusted you. I gave you my lips. My time. My chapstick. And you do me like this?” You’re wheezing at this point, but he’s not done. He turns back around slowly, finger pointed. “Don’t come crawling back when you want more. This factory is CLOSED.” (Factory reopens 12 seconds later when you give him puppy eyes.) Still, he acts like you have to earn it now. He’s all smug, leaning back like, “I don’t know… should I kiss you again? Are you mentally prepared this time?” But when you finally do kiss him again properly this time he just grins against your lips and murmurs: “Took you long enough. I was literally seconds away from texting Chan that I’ve been emotionally betrayed.”