Jan 28, 2025
the air today smelled like 2020. i do not mean the bad side of this year - my depression states, spending hours on tiktok - i mean how i felt when i was sitting in the sun during my online class, happy. i mean how i felt when i picked up gardening. i mean how life was so so colorful, so vibrant. i am so happy to having felt this for at least a moment. i missed that simple joy and beauty of life - i don't mean my life isn't beautiful, just... i haven't felt like this since 2020 and i am glad i could feel like that again.