#2020grimoirejuly

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I decided to try my hand at a 24 card tarot spread that I found a long time ago and saved to my photos.  Very revealing, it took me two hours to read.  The spread is from @unmaskingthedivine and you can find it here.

Tarot Deck Credit: The Marigold Tarot

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Tarot Spread

Deck Credit: The Marigold Tarot

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July Review

July was about shadow-work, Camp NaNoWriMo, and my birthday.  I haven’t been doing so much reading lately, and instead, I focused more on tarot for myself this month.  That required taking some time off from public readings so that I’d have energy for my own.  

What I’ve Accomplished & How I’ve Grown

- Talking to my ex has allowed me to put some of the more negative conceptions of myself to bed, having cleared the air a bit with where those qualities are concerned.  

- My moon tarot reading was very affirming in my personal journey, and as I write this currently on the full moon where my card was Strength, I feel this cycle has been very beneficial for me.

-The tarot reading I did focusing on shadow-work highlighted a lot of things that I have known about myself but have been trying to block out, it’s obvious that I’ll have to push through more emotional and psychological blocks with this spread laid out, but it’s also not as daunting or perhaps “bad” as I thought it would be.  

What Is Still Before Me

- There’s a lot that I have no formal “training” on, like energy work, I just do what works for me.  That’s why this next month, August, 30DoM is Chakrahs, to learn how to better work and align the energy within myself.  

- I seriously need to find a way to meditate that suits me, I seriously just cannot sit the fuck still.  

- This is the hottest month of the year where I live, and often one of my harder months to get through.  

- I’ve been putting a lot of energy into these free readings to the point that sometimes I am just depleted and exhausted, and I have to find better ways to refill the spoons.  

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July 2020 Update

Very quickly into July, I was taking a shower and a song came on, it gave me some thoughts.  This eventually resulted in a letter to my ex-gf, which originally I didn’t intend on sending, but then I was like, well fuck it, why not?

So this has resulted in, about 3 years later from our breakup, she and I talking about the issues of the relationship, how it dissolved, and the residual pains.  I won’t lie when I say that I feel like a bit of a victim still, and I’m trying to get over/through those feelings.  

Regardless, it’s been really emotionally exhausting these past 5 days, but not without merit.  I feel better, like I can finally put some of these negative thoughts that I had held on to for 3 years into their grave and say goodbye to them, and let them rest.  This is a nice transition into how I’ve been trying to identify some emotions, figure out where they stem from, so that I can lay them into the ‘emotional graveyard’ as well- a resting place for what no longer serves me but a respectful one that appreciates how each experience (both negative & positive) have helped me grow.  

The Goal: Every day I'm one day closer to being who I want to be.

It’s a lyric from this song, Highly recommend a listen.  It’s 3.5 minutes that I hope I can beseech you to share with me.