#21.10.2022

[biragacgibitekvehur]

“İnsan, dünyadaki hiçbir kötülüğün iç dünyasını karartmasına izin vermemeli.”

[phototagebuch]

21.10.2022

[bekindtoyou4007]

Had a nice morning, we had a guest over for lunch who was a bit under a cloud and I was relieved when he left. I think I'm not so into house guests generally... a lot of cleaning and organising before they come over - but I suppose at least it was motivation to get the house in order! I've had some bowel issues which can only mean I'm a couple of days from starting my period. My tummy has been so tender. I will have to keep an eye on things. I had a very restful day today, another big rest tomorrow.

[deviandnouria]

[prosy-days]

October 21, 2022 - Day 124

We didn't mean to get stuck behind an accident for 2 hours, but at least we did eventually make it to the orchard to get our lovely apples.

[bekindtoyou4007]

First time walking dog in woods on my own today in about a month. Felt really good, restorative. Also managed to fit in a swim, wash my hair, and get paperwork done for next week. I had an issue this morning with misplacing my phone in the laundry basket and needing to wait until an alarm went off to find itnas it was just me alone so couldn't get husband to call it. I don't often lose things like that so to me that's a sign of overwhelm. As such I've had to commit to doing only the bare necessities today. I have a to do list that includes all sorts of things but I've had to say to myself to just do the urgent daily things. I had to send some emotionally tricky messages to relatives today as they've had bad news and it prompted some sad thoughts. I found myself shedding a few tears just trying to get ready in the gym. I've been so vulnerable lately and I can feel it. I went a little too far today buying myself some new boots online that I'd been eyeing up the past 3 Weeks, i should have really waited until payday but wanted to feel better sooner.

[puregrief]

"دع عنكَ ذا السيفَ الذي جَرَّدتَهُ، عيناكَ أمضى من مَضارِبِ حدِّهِ. كلُّ السُّيوفِ قَواطعٌ إنْ جُرِّدت، وحُسامُ لَحظِكَ قاطعٌ في غِمدِهِ."

[puregrief]

حاسة إني مغفلة بجد وبكره الاحساس ده عشان أنا عارفة إني مش كده، بس دلوقتي متعصبة من قد ايه كنت غبية ومغفلة وبيتضحك عليا.