Very sad again today. Fight with husband, resulted in some SH thoughts which thankfully remained brief thoughts only. I'm consuming old media favourites from when I was 17 though don't relate as much now. I forced myself to take care of myself tonight washing my hair, taking appropriate medications, scheduled physical maintenance, and getting to bed at the right time. I know I need to talk to husband but don't know how to do it tonight. I felt so crippingly alone earlier tonight, like I had no one to turn to if my husband wasn't speaking to me, but that's not accurate. Being sick has really hamstrung my socialising this week which isn't helping, and I think a lack of tasks can hurt me rather than help. I will hopefully feel better soon so I can get out and about again. We ventured out this morning briefly which was nice, but I did struggle to breathe clearly and not make too much sick person noise. I don't want to push and ruin recovery but I do expect that lack of exercise and seeing people is hurting me.
