Man. Getting old sucks. I don't know how people are HAPPY to be getting older. I'm around the corner from 40 and I can't stand it. I guess it's down to not feeling like I've accomplished anything at all at this point. Just a load of heartbreaks, failed relationships, a middling career I'm still not sure I'm happy in. I wanted to do so much more and travel so much more. Instead the economy is fucked, my hope of owning my own home slowly dribbling away like a watery dog turd from a spaniels asshole.
I hope there's a version of me out there who didn't fuck up so much and is living somewhere warm, content with a fulfilling career and maybe even married to the love of his life. I'm just on a timeline with the other loser versions of me.
At least I'm not on the worst one where I'm a homeless junky or a criminal.
Eh. Swings and roundabouts I guess.












