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Twelve cards for the next twelve months: November - five of wands, December - reversed the Moon, January - king of wands, February - five of pentacles, March - reversed two of cups, April - reversed six of swords, May - reversed page of cups, June - reversed four of swords, July - reversed seven of cups, August - the Lovers, September - ten of wands, October - reversed two of pentacles
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Day 30!
Learnt in October: Maenad—19—Madness, Ecstatic release, Energy release
“What is Love” Kiesza
It can be so easy to slip into those old defense mechanisms if I leave things unexpressed. The maenad will devour me if I don't let upset and resentment be communicated in a constructive manner. You are not immune. You will never be far enough or “better” enough to resist. The only thing you can be is honest.
What needs more time: Seduction—8—Allure, Desire, Manipulation
“Soul of a Man” Steven Stern, George Krikes
I need more practice recognizing and resisting the influence of people who want to use me. I didn't realize this was a Thing I needed to learn. I need to be aware of my desires and vulnerabilities, so they are not exploited against me.
Advice: Anti-Hero—18—Maverick, Risk-take, Rule-breaker
“The Manic” Amarante
Do not do good things solely for the reward or credit. Others are less likely to accept your efforts because they perceive you to be an outsider. They have written you off simply because of appearances or preconceived notions. This is their loss. Do not let them benefit off your work if they refuse to accept you as you are. You are an individual. Do not beg them for a scrap of affection or make yourself smaller to cause them less offense.
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Day 29! Message From:
My Ancestors: Rebellion—33—Upstart, Tumult, Revolution
“Eileen's Ardency” Leaves' Eyes
Don't be afraid to assert who you are. Your family does not hold any ownership over your identity. Perhaps they have shaped it, but you do not owe them a certain person, a certain ghost they've constructed in their heads and given your name. They might fight you, they might claim you're doing this just to upset them, but this is you. You should be loved for the wonderful person you are and not the shade you pretend to be in order to please them.
My Spirit Guide: Nobility—42—Honour, High Standards, Idealistic
“Faun” Olafur Arnalds
Be noble; act for the highest good, even and especially when it might be easier to duck your head and ignore it. Be of service and assistance to others. Act in accordance with your higher self. Be kind, act to protect the weak, call upon your inner reserves of virtue.
My Higher Self: The Call of the Night—16—Daring, Adventure, Excitement
“Under the Milky Way” Sia
Do not hesitate to follow the path. Do not hesitate follow the path of thrill-seeking and adventure. “For fun” is a valid reason. Reach beyond your comfort zone and soon your limits will shift. Be not afraid. It need not all be plans, schemes, and premeditation.
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Day 28!
Cord to the Past I Need to Cut: Natural—40—Authentic, Real, Organic
“Until We Go Down” Ruelle
If your true, natural self has been stifled in the past, you need to let it go. Who you were, who you are, and who you were meant to be will all resolve themselves. Do not fear or pine after states of yourself you are not in. You know who you are now. It no longer matters who they wanted you to be.
Experience I've Misinterpreted: Death Rites—11—Saying goodbye, Formal occasion, Honoring lives
“Ring of Fire” Krewella
You carry so much guilt with you about what was not said. You feel you haven't expressed your grief adequately to satisfy those around you. Don't care what your grief does or does not look like to outsiders. Your grief is for you, for your recovery, your mourning, in whatever way you see fit. Say “my choice.” Don't make an already difficult process by filtering your interpretations through the perceived perspectives of others. You'll never know for sure—and it's really not relevant what they think. Focus on your healing.
Hidden Wisdom: Ancient—4—Ancestry, Egypt, Magickal Inheritance
“Off to the Races” Lana del Rey
I feel that this wisdom involves my family in some way. By expressing interest in the past, in history, I can learn more about my context and my family. Perhaps it will bring more information to help you mourn. Perhaps it will give you a better connection to him and the others whose blood you share. But one cannot happen without the other. I need to take that first step.
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Day 27!
Full Moon's Energy: Burnt by the Sun—28—Ambition, Extension, Reach
“Kiss it Better” He is We
This is a card about earning the ambition you're reaching for. It's okay to have your eyes on achieving your goal, but be sure to put in the hard work to get there. Don't feel like you're entitled to it just because you want it. But also, I feel like this is a retreat to the moon's care. I've been burnt by the sun, so I retreat to the moon. It impresses in my the need to work hard to grasp what I've merely been reaching for.
What has grown: Eternal Youth—1—Energy, Newness, Vitality
“Gettysburg” Ratatat
I have been invigorated and emboldened by my previous successes. I have had new life and hope breathed into me. I am enjoying the novelty and energy in my life.
What stirs in me: Primal—13—Connecting deep within, sacred dance, Instinct
“Take a Hint” Victorious Cast
I am starting to connect more with my inner self, committing to new and authentic expression. I need not fear my instincts, merely follow them to the source and put them to a better, more constructive use.
So of course I realize now that I haven’t taken any pictures of my readings since, like, the 24th through the rest of the challenges. Whoops.
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Day 26!
Who was I in a past life? The Past a Prison—17—Bitterness, Grudge, Refusal to Let Go
“Bring Us Home” Michael Tait, Bianca Callahan, and Lecrae
This card specifically depicts Miss Havisham from Great Expectations—a devouring, bitter woman who uses her pain at being deserted at the altar to justify using other to vicariously inflict her revenge. She can never move on from that event. Whether I was a jilted bride or not, I was trapped in a past grudge that did not allow me to live for myself or move on.
What was my life's lesson: Burnt by the Sun—28—Ambition, Extension, Reach
“Pompeii” Bastille
This card is about overreaching and earning your desires. It's an expression of pain when you do not sufficiently prepare or pay your dues. While this desire is worth striving for, it will not be given to you. And if you never reach (and fail sometimes), you will never grow. Recovery hard won is better than sulking.
How did I die? Ancient—4—Ancestry, Egypt, Magickal inheritance
“Salt of the Earth” Lovedrug
I want to be facetious and say Mummy's Curse, but it's far more likely that some sort of inherited disease took me. Or I was killed because of a family secret I never bothered to learn/discover. I might have left a secret for my family to unravel, after keeping myself alive on the power of sheer spite alone. Sounds like something my jilted, ambitious self would do.
My family - reversed knight of swords, my friends - Judgement, myself - eight of wands
