Picture time! I was stressing out a lot because mum made panic and how my brother is pissed at me. Today we went lunch - bro, mum and me. He then came over to my place for tea and we talked like normal people. About all sorts of things. I asked several times about all the points he was allegedly mad and he wasn't? Mum creating unnecessary drama for you. Because planning a wedding is not stressful at all X'D Anyway. I've started on my bouquet. Pic on the right is 10 roses and pic on the left is 20 roses + a mock up of how the bouquet should look like. I've worked on it these last couple days and it helped me chill (that and talking to my brother) I have to wrap the stems in ribbon and wire wrap the whole thing tight. Then only 30ish tiny flowers to decorate pins for the quests. Those go much faster as they are much smaller. Crafting and making progress on the wedding plans keeps anxiety at minimal levels. I still get random *panic* impulses from my brain, but it's less loud today and that was a great breather from fighting to get of the house. I was actually calm around my brother, like no anxiety at all and I didn't expect that as I realised later. He's impulsive and shouts easily, which is never good for me but we had a lovely nice talk today. About drugs, meds, our neurologists. We went together avnd got him prescription-free sleeping pills. His insomnia is similar to mine when untreated - he can't fall asleep for 1-3h no matter when he goes to bed and once he does fall asleep, he sleeps in until late. Might be worth if doctors checked us both out.
