#6-8-20

[trustmeimadoctor]

Now if I can only figure out how to use this correctly

[sociallydisfigured]

My dad is moving in with my abuser. I learned this a bit ago and still processing. The man who approached ME, offered ME a place to stay when I went to college because he wanted me to be closer instead of living in a dorm out of state. The man I insisted on paying him something for my living, who then charged 300 a week for a room in his house when he knew I didn't have a job yet. After getting said job he then screamed at me infront of his new wife that I used my first check on said books for class instead of giving to him.

Had to then hand over every check I earned to him to help with rent. Refused to teach me how to drive (also something he originally insisted in helping with because I had bought my first car and still had a permit) The only family in town I had but never wanted anything to do with me. Screamed at me for ignoring family time (doing homework or studying instead of swimming or going out all the time) Paid him gas money to get to work (we worked at the same place 20min away across a bridge to the mainland. Still refused to teach me how to drive)

The man who called police when an uncle (by marriage) came down and took me around town teaching me before mt permit expired. Required to pay for all groceries and cook meals 3times a week, full time work schedule (had to match his schedule. If he worked at 8 and me at 10, I would pay him to let me ride in at 8. Sat in hot car or outside locked car until my shift. If I worked a day he didnt, would walk if I couldn't come up with the cash)

The same man who waited until I came home 3months in my semester, after closing shift (midnight ish) and had previous uncle pick me up (1hr after being done. I sat alone in a empty shopping lot) to then accuse me of bringing drugs in the house, doing and selling said drugs. I was giving him all my money, keeping maybe 1paycheck out of every 4 or 5 i got (paid weekly thank FUCK) and used it for the family. I couldn't afford gum when he did this. Keeping enough in my account for the car insurance and showing him my bank statements just to do this.

While I was working before this blow out? Called my parents. Told them all this drug mess. Called my boyfriend at the time who was also there for college an hour away. Told him and his aunt I was addicted to all kinds of heroin and pills. Gave me 10min to pack and get out. Boyfriend drove and got me there. His aunt took me to a ER for drug testing.

I will never forget. I will never forget my clean results, never forget that my account had less than $10 in it. Never forget leaving my tiny life I tried to make for myself with family I thought loved me. Never forget after proving everything he said was false, sending results back to my parents and showing I was telling the truth (because my banks account was connected to my parents. They could see everything I ever did with my money. Every check i wrote out to my abuser and labeled)

My dad has forgiven him and is moving in with him since my abuser's wife left him. My dad still insists that I need to forgive and move on because 'this is your mom's brother. He's your uncle and family' Forgives him for all my tears, panic attacks, being lost 5+states away from any family and friends. No resources but a boyfriend who said I was becoming too much trouble.

I can never forget. I can never forgive. I lost a scholarship, a great school I worked hard to get in, a new place and journey I wanted for myself. I will never forget.

And all that money he needed to help with bills? He bought two boats. Two boats. Tell me again why family is so much more important than friends and family comes before anything else. Fuck off

[trustmeimadoctor]

Soon...

[its123am]

6-8-20 (Monday)

[foxymoodsbyafoxythude]

My mate is rlly preddy an smart n preddy an good n i wanna give her smooches

[countingandsnarkingon]

Countdown to Nurthan Nuptials

25 Days

[trustmeimadoctor]

Reality is different for everyone. Even when it comes to science. What cures cancer for one won't necessarily work for another. So don't you fucking dare sit up on your high horse, look down at me, and tell me what reality is!