#7.4.2018

[ignis-et-equi]

From "Fuck 4th of July" to "Eagle Riding on the Shoulder of Captain American Carrying the American Flag," how patriotic are you?

I'm "Listening to American Idiot on Reapeat"

[juckt-mich-einfach-nicht]

Ich will nicht wissen wie viel du niemanden gesagt hast, nur weil niemand da war...

M.

[shu-rooq]

أنا مش متأكدة هل أنا اللى اتيتيودى خرا مع العالم النهاردة ولا هما بس اللى ولاد كلب كفاية إنهم يكدرونى وينكدوا عليا؟

[ignis-et-equi]

I think I've decided othat I want to get a King Falls AM tattoo. I know people have already started getting "Bad times are tough, but not tougher than me," but this is only encouraging me. I want the quote with an outline of the KFAM trees above it.

[ignis-et-equi]

I am expecting work to be hell today. The streets of the main drag through Cody are packed and the parades are over. Not to mention the wether is fantastic, so everyone and their mother is probably gonna be in our museum.

[shu-rooq]

"راع والديك يرعاك أبنائك"

[godsnameisjoy]

7 April 2018

30 minutes at bedtime

Last night, even before I sat up straight to meditate, I knew that my mind would not help me manoeuvre through the subconscious. Also, I wasn’t going to fall for the ‘mind is too weak to meditate’ excuse.

So, I did sit up to meditate after I made minor changes to the app settings that I use for meditation. On Insight Timer, I placed two additional bells other than the start and stop bells. One new bell at 20 minutes from start and the other new bell at 30. It’s at 30 that I stopped. If I had continued and completed the session, I would have finished at 39.

So, why did I stop at 30 ? Well, it was late. Body was tired. I had woken at 5:10 am and not napped through the entire day. It was past 10:00 pm when I sat up to meditate. Also, the meditation came after a birthday dinner in a restaurant. The mind wanted to abandon everything for a nightly dream with a promise of dreamless deep sleep. ‘Not just yet’, said I.

‘Arrived at my subconscious much earlier in the session than usual. Then, it was the body’s turn to play up. The neck would turn the head to help it find a comfortable position. Invariably, that position is anti the lotus posed meditation. Then, the spine followed the neck. Then, I had to consciously turn the head from one side to the other, in order to keep up.

This purposeful slow movement to the body had begun somewhere after the bell at 20 minutes. Thereafter, I waited for the bell at 30 to go off. When it did, I stopped. ‘Haven’t quit. Simply stopped for the night.

[appendiksi]

For real fuck moving