#8-18-19

[vampirequeeer]

3 good things a day

- had lunch w my friend

- food was real good and we had a super long good conversation abt like life and society and terrible straight white men in power

- had kinda a bad time panicking abt stuff that i haven’t done and stuff i can’t control but took a real long self care shower and ate some late night ramen

[its123am]

8-18-19 (Sunday)

[daydreamsofbeautiful]

I can see the lightning in the distance. I got the school email about the severe thunderstorm so I know it's coming. I haven't heard thunder yet but I have a feeling I won't be sleeping tonight.

[daydreamsofbeautiful]

The thing I am trying to depression binge watch isn't working like I need it to. I don't want to watch Romeo + Juliet again because I just watched it 2 days ago. I can't watch my go to depression movies because I have no dvd player. I can't just watch something new. That's not how this works

[daydreamsofbeautiful]

I feel really sad and like the world outside my house isn't real. Or maybe it is and it's just too big right now. I can handle these four walls. I know what's in them. It's very lonely but going outside would be too much.

[stopandgo]

It’s only temporary, I know

So it’s full of highs and lows

Indecision our theme

Because we’ve both been through terrible things

So we tiptoe around becoming another one

But god you’re so fun

And moody and confusing and warm

I’ll miss laying in your arms

And playing with your blonde hair

It doesn’t feel fair

To love you sweetly

But so very briefly

[nevada1949]

material shit to fill the void in my heart