#8.1.18

[alltheselights]

TXF Updates (August 1st)

Louis’ category is the boys. (x)

A CelebMix editor tweeted that Louis and Robbie give more constructive critiques than Simon because they build the acts’ confidence and give advice. She said Simon should be more like them. (x)

Roycey told Louis he looks like he’s off for a run (presumably because of his outfit). (x)

Louis kept cheering and clapping encouragingly for a 52-year-old contestant. (x)

Louis said the 52-year-old contestant seemed like the nicest woman in the world and that he’ll be disappointed if Ayda doesn’t give her a seat. (x/x)

Louis said “well done, darling” to one contestant. (x) 

One contestant sang while staring straight into Louis’ eyes from across the table and Louis looked very awkward. (x)

A really bad contestant went to shake Louis’ hand and Louis shook his head and moved his hands. Louis told him "Errr, well, that was er, fun, you defo had the most fun out of everyone in this room today." Apparently this contestant had called Louis by the wrong name last week and he only seemed to care about Robbie’s opinion, so that may be why Louis reacted this way to him. (x/x) 

One fan held up a “proud of Louis” sign and Louis waved to her. (x)

Louis said “if that wasn’t your best, your potential is scary” to one contestant. (x)

Louis gave one contestant a massive bro hug. (x)

When a contestant said that he hadn’t had much sleep due to having a baby and that it was his birthday tomorrow, Louis fist pumped and patted his heart while looking at the contestant. (x) 

The judging desk had no sides so fans could see Louis’ little feet. (x)

Louis watched the audience react to one contestant’s performance and grinned at the reaction. Afterwards, he turned to some girls behind him to ask for their opinion and they said “OFF, OFF” and he laughed. He then told the contestant that their first audition was bizarre, but that they’d just topped it. (x/x)

A lot of the show seems to be Louis and Ayda vs. Simon and Robbie. (x)

The CelebMix editor said that even when Louis doesn’t like a performance and says no, he is unfailingly polite, fair, and positive in his critique and he explains why he doesn’t like it rather than just cutting them down. She also said that even when he’s disappointed by a performance, he’s constructive and finds a positive to point out. She said he has the makings of a great artist manager. (x/x)

Roycey filmed Louis for Yorkshire Day and Louis said “happy days!” (x/x/x)

Louis told a contestant with two sons, “Your two little lads will be very proud of you.” Louis then did a fist pump at the boys, who were watching from the side. (x)

Louis told a contestant, “You sang it with so much passion and emotion. I hope you get a seat, darling.” (x)

A contestant said he was from Bradford and Louis clapped. (x)

A contestant said, “IT’S YORKSHIRE DAY, YORKSHIRE DAY” and pointed at Louis and Louis gave the biggest toothy smile. After his performance, Louis stood up, waved his arms, and said “Yes, lad!” Louis also told him that he was incredible and that he was proud to be a Yorkshireman with him. (x/x/x)

The judges were all talking at one point, but Louis sat out of it. (x)

The CelebMix editor said you can tell Louis and Robbie are both very proud of their musical heritage. (x) 

[closetgremlin]

Thinking of watching Queer Eye on Netflix - should I? Is it worth it?

[edo-vivendum]

Literally the entire wall space above my desk is covered in sticky notes about various treatment centers, medical specialists my primary dr wants me to call, and various instructions and insurance infos. Literally. There are 13 sticky notes right now. I’m adulting and dealing with all this medical stuff instead of having my mom do it....but at the same time... totally feel like it’s my fault that there is any medical stuff TO deal with.

[samsi6]

neuentwicklung

und wieder fragst du mich nach neuentwicklung. neuentwicklung… als gäbe es neuentwicklungen. als wären neuentwicklungen entscheidend. irgendwie entscheidend. für was auch immer, aber irgendwie entscheidend. dabei wissen wir doch beide dass nur wir selbst das neue sein können. ja, wir beide. du, ich - wir. nichts um uns herum ist neuer als wir selbst. alles ist immer jeden moment neu. alles. immer!!! es lohnt sich nicht darum aufhebens zu machen. einen tanz zu veranstalten. es lohnt sich dessen gewiss zu sein. gewiss zu bleiben. immer. immer neu. ewig.

[ssdgames]

In ScrollingBackground, serialize the speed field.

[seethakaalam]

emo but cant wait to dream about it :)

[onelampost]

words i never got the chance to say.

it is august 1st 2018 5:16 am and i am lying here awake trying to come up with a decent way to begin writing this. i dont know how long this may take me to write, who it will be regarded towards, or when, that is if, it will ever been seen in ones eye.

i often reminisce of the good memories ive experienced in my life. it tends to be easier to focus on the good rather than the bad after a person experiences hardship. i think about what it would be like to talk to you again, the words i would choose, how i would phrase them. i think about getting choked up as i try to speak seeing as how you intimidate me in ways i cannot explain. i dont want to be afraid. i dont want to be passive or entitled. i haven’t lived half of my life yet and for me to walk around acting as if i know everything is incredibly insulting to say the least. i need to listen to others rather than make impulsive judgements. i see where i have failed in my past relationships and i see that as only a way to grow stronger. knowing you and the state you were in i would see how it would be hard for you to reciprocate that feeling. i wish i could have helped you in more ways than i did. i wish i could have had the opportunity to flourish and show you who i truly am and feel inside. i hope that in light of it all i served as some stepping stool of growth for you. i didn’t want to be pushed away, and considering how you had troubles with trust, you inevitably did exactly that to me, whether you realized or not.

i still dream of you. not a day goes by where i am not thinking of you. i think of multiple alternate realities in which things could have gone differently. i ache as i check my phone for messages that are never there, hoping, wishing that your name will pop up and you will explain to me how you are feeling. i think about what it would be like to drive by your apartment and see if the light in your bedroom would be on. i imagine you sensing my presence and immediately rushing outside to join me in a warm embrace. i dont know if you hate me. i dont want you to. thats something i always feared. i think about seeing you at a stoplight, at the grocery store, on the highway. i cant leave my home without thinking that im going to run into you at any moment, it has made me homebound. i think about how fast you move on, and how different you must feel because im gone. i think if you still love me.

its hard to find the words to finish this without feeling like im rambling about nothing into open space without getting a response. the sky is slowly turning a lighter shade of blue now and every moment that passes by i find it harder to drift to sleep. i feel as though i wont be able to stop loving you no matter how hard i try. you have helped me feel again, something i couldnt do for years. you have helped me discover things about myself i didnt even know.

where do i go from here?

[carodactil]

shawn mendes seems real dark right now and I just want him to know that I’d have mercy on his heart but in the friend way