#9:59am

[hudsonwhorenet]

i have to leave at 8:53 for work and i just went to set an alarm for then so i know i have to leave Immediately Right Then if i haven’t yet. but. there’s already an alarm for 8:53am. which. is crazy to me. i just Have That there. first time leaving for work this early so it isn’t from last time i opened…

[brunchthesurface]

How is it only 9:59AM right now.

[not4kedz]

2-3 hours... Or more?

God dammit, don't... Well if you could just give what I need...

Dunno though.

So useless. Hmph. Frustrading.

[onisrn]

So this all stemmed from YKS episodes after zubia and asfi meet:

You know how he's always telling at her because she can't do anything right ("uska knowledge elementary hai"), and you know the default that my brain went to is that he's telling at her for her to improve ofc and he actually idk thinks she has potential or whatever (this is about the beginning episodes btw, when she's only recently joined the hospital). Like a teacher. Because that's all I've been used to yknow, teachers yell at you to make you better for "real life". Until it occurred to em that that actually was real life for her and people don't actually care about you, just what benefit you can give to them (in the job or whatever (which is yknow understandable and everything))

Even teachers ofc care about your success and everything but at the end of the day that's for themselves too bc your success means their success etc (not all teachers but why else would they be teaching I'd it wasn't for themselves (again, understandable ofc))

The only person that actually selflessly cares about your success and about you for yourself, is your mother, she's not (in most cases) doing it for herself, everything is for your own good. Man I love mothers ❤️

And ofc Allah cares for us more than 70 mothers ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[mentalmountain]

So guess fucking what. It is 9:31 on a Wednesday and I am able to post on tumblr because I am not at school. Because I threw up twice this morning between 5:00am-6:00am and my grandma said I'm not going to school. I talked her into letting me go to my second half of classes because I can't miss trig or else I'll pretty much fail the entire class so yeah. I'm so pissed though. I woke up just to throw up. Because I didn't have to pee very bad and it was fucking 5:00 in the morning. I was only 8 days away from my next goal date and I thought I could make it. I didn't even see it coming. Which is stupid because I should have. It's been 25 days since I did it last time and I should be smart enough to realize I can't just stop and never do it again. I mean there wasn't even that much to be worried about. I had a good day yesterday. Group was really good. We found out 'why' everyone was there (except Emma, because she didn't want to share just yet I guess. It's okay tho. Hopefully she will get there soon). I brought cheesecake cupcakes and people seemed to like them. They were gone before my next class. But Steph was also talking about how we were doing a good job about keeping this club a secret because she had talked to people about if they had heard about it before and they said no. But I've kinda told Erica, miranda, and Alison about it. Not in detail. But I wanted to talk about it int he beginning and Alison is very trustworthy and I was asking her if she thinks I should go at all. I think she kinda forgot about it. Erica kept asking where I was going one Tuesday and I felt pressure so I told her very minimal info on it. Miranda kind of figured it out because we got flowers yesterday at group and I shared a packet on healthy relationships with her. So a couple of my friends kind of know and I feel horrible. Even though I never mentioned what we talk about or who's in it. Ski was worried about that and I think that contributed to my puking. Anyways I need to get ready for school so yeah. Bye.

[luckyleolion]

😢

[shutup-jan]

Sadly I peep everything. Oh and I'm always right when it comes to stuff like this. But it's cool lol I knew it was bound to happen. I'm happy for you.