#9-7-12

[j-r-macready]

F4F-38+28-9-7-12-RAF-FAIRFORD-RIAT12-(1) by Benn George

[thoughtsonparade]

I haven't felt this greatly defeated in a long time. No one ever wins when we actually say "goodnight" and mean it like we're seriously going to sleep. No one, ever. Fighting is exhausting. Even though I never even had to open my mouth, just the process of stretching emotions into words and making sense of what the other is saying is brutal. This aftermath is terrible, too. Its when everything is just finally collapsed, and when the tears start. Its easy during, you just try so hard to get your point across that you don't think of the consequences. I know its worth this. Its worth even more than this. It just hurts, and then on top of that, hurts knowing it probably hurts her, too. I wish I could understand how and why these things escalate. Maybe then I could save us from ourselves. Its all just a side effect of caring too much. Ineedhertolovemeforevernotgetangrywithmeorsadwithmeorupsetwithmebutidontknowhowtofixanythingandijusthopethisdoesntbreaklikeitdidbefore,god,pleasedontletitgetthatbadagain,i'ddoanythingtokeepthatfromhappening.

[the-wayward-turnip]

im ordering a pizza so i can stuff my face for a night of watching the extended versions of Lord of the Rings....where are you TWO TOWERS?

yep, that's exactly what im gonna do. i also will be cleaning. hooray.