#9.3.22

[elceeu2morrow]

First show: Dallas 2.1.22 // Last show: Milan 9.3.22

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@LiveNationIT#LTWTMilan 

[so-idialed-9]

I'm gonna sit here for a sec. Let me try and make you understand how I'm fooking feeling right now. There was a long time in my solo career where I wondered would I ever do this tour? Would it ever happen? And the fact that I'm playing to such an incredible amount of people - honestly, it blows my fooking mind.

I've just been stood for however many songs we've had just trying to take this in. I cannot fooking believe it. You're all fooking incredible for making this shit happen. Getting emotional up in here.

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Eleanor Calder | September 3, 2022

Shown in her 2022 recap, Eleanor shared a picture from a wedding that she attended in Bristol, UK in September, she was wearing this Self-Portrait dress ⤵︎

Self-Portrait Lace-Panel Spaghetti-Strap Dress

— £413 / $421

[ener-chi]

Life update

TL;DR Masters Reiki Attunement and life update

Hoo boy. Where to even begin. It's been a month and a half since I got my masters attunement. I literally cannot believe that. I'm like a completely different person now lol

Bit of background for this. In Reiki, there are 3 attunement levels. Each level raises your vibration, and anything below that vibration has to either change or fall away. (You can learn more about Reiki here!)

This leads to some major detoxing in your life. The first level is typically associated with physical and diet changes. The second level is typically associated with mental and emotional changes and healing.

The third reiki attunement - also called the Master's Attunement - is healing and changes on the spiritual level, which can manifest in a variety of different ways. But it's said that the master attunement is the big one, and is typically accompanied by some big life and career changes.

Welp. The first few days after my attunement, my entire body was on fire. It literally felt like I was on fire from the inside. Kind of like a purifying burning. But it was VERY intense. And the first few days I was very lightheaded and just spacey. I literally put every grounding stone I owned in a bag and carried it with me.

The other thing I immediately noticed is that I can no longer suppress any thoughts or emotions. The first few days, I had some stuffed-down anger and feelings towards my roommate come boiling up, and it happened with a few other things too. Now, I can't even try to stuff something down - it immediately comes right back up, and I have to process it immediately. It's a good thing, but man is it hard.

I also became even more sensitive to energy. I didn't think this was possible lmao. It's actually been a bit of a headache, at least initially, cuz now I'm def at the point where I am feeling everything and am having a hard time not taking it on myself; my old shielding and stuff don't work, either.

Also, I developed a new ability. I started seeing Energy Trails. Like... I can go into a room and tune into the energy, and I can see trails of energy that people walking through it have made. I see like... a little memory of them making it, where they've been, what they've been doing. I also can feel their energy at that time and see their aura too - what it looks like, how it feels, etc.

Obviously, crowded spaces are even more of a no-no for me now. So much energy and so many trails 😅 I'm grateful that I get to sage cleanse as part of my job at work. It is soo soothing being able to see and feel all of those energy remnants dissipate.

Speaking of work. I have been planning on staying at my job for another year or two. And I love my job. But as soon as I got my attunement... it was like a switch flipped.

Suddenly, being at work was very painful. I didn't want to be there, and I had a vision about how my time there was done - I had grown all that I needed to, but there was no more growing to be done, and it was time to move on.

I fought the feeling for a while, but with no avail. I finally put my notice in. This was a while back, but actually my last day is this upcoming week.

At the same time, I had a few other things happen. Mainly, I got a huge surge in momentum in a few side projects of mine. One is my paid services - I was finally able to launch that, and it's been going pretty good! Y'all just haven't been seeing them because most of the people prefer to have them done privately, which is fine.

The other thing I've done is that I'm starting my own photography business! It's been a hobby of mine for a few years now, and I've been doing it for my work for about a year now. I was getting a lot of pings from the Universe pushing me in this direction, and I actually have some momentum built up already and some people already willing to pay. It's been stressful but also VERY exciting.

At one point, there was also a time where my living sitch was thrown into question, due to some drama that doesn't need to be delved into.

But I had this moment where I realized... I was scared. So much change so fast... that can be scary. And I had so many unknowns... what to do for work, financials, living situation... I had been kinda sweeping those feelings under the rug, but ofc they came boiling up.

But realizing that - that I was scared - was also kind of freeing, in a way. Yes, I was scared. And still kinda am, honestly. I don't have the answers. I don't know what's gonna happen - and that's scary. But also... realizing I don't know what's gonna happen freed me from trying to have that control. Now, I don't worry too much; it's out of my control, and I know that it will handle itself, and that good things are in the works.

Sooo yeah! That's been my life. They say that the Master's Attunement is like a rollercoaster that once you get on, you can't get off. I definitely feel this - and there have been a few times where I wanted to get off 😂😂 but it was worth it. I'm excited to start sharing this wonderful gift with people and attuning others, which will be happening soon, once we settle into Fall.

I was gonna talk about how I started working with Odinn, but this post has gone on long enough, so that will come another time.

I hope that everyone has a good night!

Blessings!

[elceeu2morrow]

Bigger Than Me (full) at San Siro via @millycam [Milan, 9.3.22]

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"I really don't want this tour to end. We've got one song left of this whole fucking tour. If I see a single person who isn't t bouncing I'll be fuming!" [Milan, 9.3.22]

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jdelf: Boom 💥

[final Kill My Mind outro of the world tour! San Siro, Milan 9.3.22]