Found this in some notes from a couple years back :))) The same thing for which I longed then, I still yearn for now, سبحان الله. Time flies…Alhamdulillah for a new year of steadfastness upon tawhīd!
When I think back to it, سبحان الله, many have been in situations in which they’re lost in dunyah waiting for Allah to answer their supplications, only for them to stop asking Him right at the end, at the most tiring stage and most complicated days, the days of “despair” -or more like, “days of defeat”- the days in which Shaytan tells you that your dream doesn’t seem like it will ever turn into reality anymore, so you go about your life, despairing in the mercy of Allah and changing your plans to more “realistic” ones, turning back, giving up on what you sought, and choosing mediocrity! when, perhaps, if you asked a bit more, just a tiny bit more.. Allah would answer…
May Allah protect us from such.
O’ patient one, while others abandon their lofty dreams and choose the easy way out, and while many choose the ease of ignorance over the pain of guidance, you remain firm to this day and unwavering, despite Allah not granting you what you wish for yet, you still ask Him daily without getting tired or bored! Do you think this will pass by unnoticed? No, by the one who knows when a tree’s leaf will fall before the seed of the tree is even planted! He will not let your pleas go in vain, wallah.
There’s true beauty in delay, Alhamdulillah.
And despite you not understanding the reason behind it, Allah has a wisdom for which He decrees delays and inconveniences, He doesn’t do it to harm you -for He’s more merciful to you than yourself- but to draw you nearer, to raise your ranks in Akhirah, or perhaps even to grant you khayr in your dunyah, so thank Him for that and don’t busy yourself asking why,
May Allah open His doors to us.
And remember, patience is ‘Ibadah, the more time you spend in this test, the more Hasanaat will be written for you! :))